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I have yet to understand why these things happen to me and why. I wish that I was back at Isis Academy with all of my friends and I wish I had never agreed to come to Hogwarts. Maybe then, I wouldn't have to put up with Sirius Black. Yes, you heard right, Sirius Black, the very bane of my existence! He started trouble for me on my very first day, and it wasn't even like I had even done anything to him.

FLASHBACK

It was the first day of school and I had just come down to breakfast, not knowing anyone, I sat down by myself and proceeded to eat, when I was interrupted by a boy with an unruly mop of black hair and a girl with vivid red hair. They introduced themselves as Lily Evans and James Potter, the head boy and head girl of this school. They introduced me to the rest of their friends, but when I was introduced to Him, I couldn't help but let out a gasp, it was the boy from the night before. You can probably imagine my surprise at that, but I was sure not to show it of course,

I shook his hand, as it is nice to do, but he pulled his hand away at the last second, making me look like a complete idiot.

END

And since then, it seems like he always so rude to me, like he finds little things to say just to hurt me. He seems like such a prick, he is always showing off when he is in front of me, flaunting his flavor – of – the – day girls in front of me like they are going to make ME jealous. The connection that we had on the first day seems like it is gone and it is disturbing me to no end. Ugh, even now, I can't stop thinking about that arrogant, conceited little bastard!

The weeks went by, Sonia kept mostly to herself, not really wanting to talk to any one. She barely raised her hand in class, much less talked. She was quiet and preferred being alone. She always seemed to be deep in thought; her peers didn't know what to make of it.
Little did Sonia know, there was someone there, who was watching her, he was entranced by her, he didn't realize what it was but he was drawn to her like a moth to a flame and he was scared that if he got too close he would be burned.

But her silence not only worried him but made him more interested in the girl, whose whole life seemed to be a mystery, and he loved mysteries,

It was the first week of October and it seemed like everything was falling into place. She discovered that James and Lily were going out and that James and his three friends called themselves the "marauders." She didn't talk to them that much, though. She felt uncomfortable around them, including Lily, and mostly kept to herself. She was constantly upset and tired, her nightmares kept her up all night. And yet despite this she was getting top grades in all of her classes, even the cruel Potions Mistress couldn't find fault with her.

Her musings where cut short as she bumped into someone falling back onto the ground. She looked up to meet the obsidian eyes of Severus Snape. He offered her his hand to help her up, which she took.

"Thanks," she said quietly, not looking at him as she picked up her books. Severus, on the other hand, watched her intently, as if he was studying her. She intrigued him since the moment he had laid eyes on her. He wondered what could have made her such an introvert.

"Your welcome. Are you okay?" He couldn't stop himself. Her head snapped up instantly meeting his eyes. He saw a thin sheen over her sapphire eyes. Before she could say anything, Sirius Black saw them and barreled towards them.

"Stay away from her Snivellus!" He fumed. How dare he bother her? She looked at Sirius; his eyes were alight with a fire. She felt herself melt a little. Sirius whipped out his wand snapping her out of her reverie.

"Sirius No! Stop he was helping me." She said tugging his wand arm down.

"Still need girls to protect you, huh, Black, shame you couldn't find a better one." Snape sneered at the pair before stalking off. He was jealous of the way she was looking at Black, there was obvious there was something between them. Severus felt his heartbreak, he shouldn't have said that, he really like her, and she on the other hand, probably hated him now. He sulked back to his dorm, ignoring the questions from his fellow housemates.

He spun around to face her, as a tear slid down her cheek. He felt a needle poke at his heart. "Are you okay?" He asked her. Her eyes widened.

"Don't you dare ask me that, why in the world did you do that? Charging in like a male pig?" She turned on him fiercely. He felt his infamous temper flare. He was trying to help her!

"A male pig? I was trying to HELP you. Merlin knows what Snivellus could have done to you! What is your problem?" He sneered at her. Her eyes widened slightly.

"Help me? I don't need your help, Black! I don't need anyone! And for your information, HE was helping me!" She shrieked, annoyed.

"Yeah, into his bed." He retorted, before thinking. He heard a slight gasp and a sharp sting on his cheek. He opened his eyes to see her angry face.

"Not all guys are like you, Sirius Black. Have you ever thought that maybe girls are there for more then a fuck- and – dump?" She tried to hold onto her tears. It wasn't supposed to be this way. He winced.

"Oh yeah, like what? A good screaming match, a girl could do much better in bed! And I am sure that is what he likes you for anyways!" He was shocked at his own words. She stared in shock. He was so crude, did he have no feelings ever? "Look I didn't mean it like that." He said softly reaching for her hand. She pulled it out of the way. Her heart clenching painfully, "I am sorry."

She snapped out of her reverie. "No your not. You wouldn't have said it if you didn't mean it." Tears spilt over her cheeks, she didn't understand. Why was it affecting her so much?

He saw the tears, each piercing his heart like and accusing needle. He reached forward to wipe a tear. She flinched and ran away, her curly hair streaming behind her as she ran. Her sobs echoed the halls down to his heart.

A/N This chapter has been officially edited, the story should make a little more sense! okay well anyways I am working in the next two chapters which should be done soon! Again big special thank you to my ever faithful reviewers!

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