A/N: I am sorry that it's short. But at least I updated, no? I leave you guys hanging far too often. Don't be mad. hides behind tree

Oh yeah...

Rating changed to M just to be safe!

Tied to a Dream

Chapter Seven: Welcoming Disaster

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"I have to go." Jude said, pulling away from Jake and standing up.

"Why?" Jake asked, the butterflies that filled his heart died all at once. "Jude, I'm sorry."

Jude ignored him as she made her way into the hallway and down the stairs. Jake chased after her catching her just as she opened the front door.

"Please Jude, don't be mad at me." Jake pleaded.

"I'm not mad, I'm just leaving." she told him. "I'll call you later."

"Can't we just talk?"

"Later." Jude said, becoming annoyed.

"Jude."

"Jake!"

"Fine." Jake sighed, watching her as she walked out the door. When he saw that she'd made it inside her own house he shut the door.

Jude closed the door and locked it. Locking doors had become a habit of hers. Especially when nobody else was home. Jude walked up the stairs, a feeling of guilt washing over her. She felt bad to leave Jake that way, but it was all too confusing. Jake was her best friend. She couldn't feel that way about him. Or maybe she could. She just needed time to herself to think. Jude opened the door to her bed room and stepped inside. I'm so dumb, Jude thought, staring at the photo of her and Jake beside her bed. She began to reach for it but jumped when she heard her bedroom door slam shut. She spun around to find Brian glaring at her with eager eyes.

"How the hell-"

"Big sis forgot to lock the door," Brian snickered. "Really Jude, this is getting too easy."

"Leave. Now." Jude hissed, grabbing her cellphone. "I'll call 9-1-1."

Brian walked towards her slowly and Jude felt paralyzed. She wanted to run, or call, or even lash out at him. But all she could do was stand there. Brian smiled as he ran his hand down her cheek, "You are so sexy."

"Leave Brian." Jude said between gritted teeth.

"Is that really what you want?" Brian asked, taking her cellphone out of her hands. Jude's eyes followed the phone as Brian raised it in the air and then tossed it across the room.

"Yes."

"I think you're lying." Brian said, pushing Jude down onto her bed. He climbed over her, pressing his body hard against hers.

"Screw you." Jude breathed, lying limp under his body.

"Now you're talking." Brian said, pulling her into a forceful kiss. Jude fought against him but he only held on tighter. Jude squeezed her eyes shut as Brian began to strip her. Not again. Not again. Jude cried silently as Brian forced himself inside her. She felt herself reliving the first nightmare, but this time there was less pain. She felt digusted with herself. She wanted the pain. She begged for the pain. She never wanted this to feel good. I'm just as digusting as he is.

"You know you like it." Brian said, sucking on her neck, leaving his temporary mark. He grabbed a fistful of her hair and pulled. "Say you like it."

"I like it." Jude moaned, disgusted by the fact that it was true. Brian released his grip on her hair and continued to thrust inside her. This can't be happening. Jude bit her lip to avoid giving him the satisfaction he longed for until he pulled at her hair again. Jude gave in and moaned in pleasure until they were both finished. Brian released his grip on her but stayed hovering over her. Jude slowly opened her eyes to find Brian staring down at her. After a few seconds, he rose off of her and pulled his pants back on. He tossed Jude her clothes and she dressed as quickly as she could.

"You little slut you." Brian smirked.

"Get the hell out of my house." Jude snapped. "Now!"

"Stop being in denial." Brian said, grabbing her by the wrists and pulling her against him. His hot breath on her face made her quiver. "And stop being a bitch to me."

"Get out!" Jude's scream but hushed by another forceful kiss. This time Jude allowed him to explore her mouth freely, kissing him back hard. I can't kiss Jake but I am kissing this asshole? I'm disgusting and I liked it and it's all my fault. And no matter what people tell me, I know that it's my fault. They can try to convince me otherwise but I know the truth. I am a slut. I am-

They simultaneously pulled away when the doorbell rang. Jude caught her breath and then headed for the door.

"I'll be waiting." Brian said, grinning.

Jude shivered, sending him a hateful look before she disappeared into the hallway. Jude ran down the stairs, staring at her shaking hands as she went. She grabbed the doorknob, picturing Jake on the other side. But what would she say? Listen, sorry about rejecting you, I just enjoyed being raped again, let's go back to your place? Gross. Jude thought, grabbing her stomach. She felt severely nauseous and eyed the bathroom door.

Ding dong.

I'd rather throw up at Jake's house anyway. It's safer there. Jude turned the doorknob and opened the door.

"Tommy?"