Fruits Basket: High Above The Clouds

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Summery: Its been 5 years since the curse was broken, Kagura Sohma An airhostess returns back to Kaibara for the Sohma New Year as she had never been back for a while… what will happen now that she does not love Kyou anymore… but is he falling for her?

Chapter Five

Kagura studied his face. She wondered how Kyou was going to take her news. She had built up so much confidence over the passed years but now she felt so unable to tell him this. She knew that he would probably be happy. He would be happy that she was no longer able to annoy him like she used to. She was going to tell Kyou about Lei.

"Hey Kags." He finally spoke to her. He gave her a nickname. Well that was something that he hadn't used when they were in their teens. Was it that he was comfortable around him now? Kagura guessed he must have been. So that was a good thing. She knew it was about time that they let the past disappear to focus on the future. The future, they could spend it as good friends. She guessed they could even be like brother and sister. "Why don't you just tell me?"

"Right, here goes." She trailed off looking around at the darkness that the sky had provided. "A lot has changed since we last saw each other." Although it is to say, he was going to come back with a witty comment but she interrupted him. "Don't speak, just listen." This must have annoyed him to some extent. "I know that I used to love you. It's not that I don't love you, it's just that I don't love you in that way anymore." She looked back to study Kyou's face. Was it possible? Did he look upset?

Kagura's eyes couldn't focus on him at all now. Her voice stuttered as she tried to speak to him. She knew it wasn't true, he knew it wasn't true. Although, Kagura wouldn't be a puppet to her feelings again, she just wouldn't. She wouldn't let them embarrass her like they had when she was eighteen. If only she could have noticed this earlier. It may not have taken so long for her to meet Lei. Now she had to tell him, she just had to. Maybe nothing serious would happen that could jeopardise her relationship.

"I'm in a relationship now, Kyou. His name is Lei. I love -." It wasn't as if Kyou wasn't going to let her finish. He had walked behind her. It was possible that he was walking away from her. Yet feeling arms encircling her and warm air breathing on her ear she knew exactly where she was. Her heart turned like it would when she was younger. The feeling wasn't as strong. Kagura closed her eyes as she gave an expression of hating this. She wanted to push away. She wanted to hit him. She couldn't do that. It wasn't fair to do such a thing. His breath suddenly turned into words.

"Kagura, you know that you don't love him. I know that you don't love him. You can't love him because he's not what you deserve." This caused Kagura's eyes to shoot open as a glint of fire ignited inside of them. She didn't thrash around or hit Kyou, all she had done was turn in his direction, though still in his arms.

"Don't you dare?"

After she had spoken those three words he shook his head whilst his arms moved. He gave her no little time to move as his hands grabbed the sides of her head softly. What was he doing? Was he going to hurt her? No that wasn't what Kyou would do...he may seem aggressive but he wouldn't hurt her. Right? Kagura was shocked as he leant in closer. He wasn't even giving that much thought. He was leaning in quite quickly. His hands moved down to her cheeks as he kissed her on the lips.

No, no this couldn't be happening. This wasn't right! She had a boyfriend and she no longer felt this way about Kyou anymore. Although this may not have been true, she was going to stick to it. She didn't return the kiss. She never pressed back. The kiss wasn't as full as it could be so she should have given him the right impression. So why was he yet to pull back? There was no fire in this kiss. Yet through experience Kagura had realised that no kiss had that right fire for her. Perhaps it isn't like the movies.

He finally pulled away with a look on his face that looked as if he was impressed with himself. Kagura's expression was one of hurt and sadness. Something was telling him that he shouldn't have done that. It was true though as this could only make things worse. She turned away from him and walked to keep a few steps apart from them. She bit her bottom lip once more as she looked up towards the sky. This was not what she wanted. Not now. When she was eighteen fair enough it may have been what she had wanted but now she was in a relationship with a loving man. That was even if that man wasn't around a lot. That just made it, so that when they did get to see each other, more exciting.

"Kagura?"

"No Kyou that was not what I wanted. You could have really done something you'd regret there." She spoke as she turned to him. That same expression was on her face where her eyebrows were lowered. She just couldn't believe that she had let him get that close to her. Was it the way she was around him? Or could it have been because of how close they got when they were younger. Yes it could have been the second one. If she no longer felt those feelings then why, deep down, could it be said that she was smiling? Kagura tried not to, honestly she did. Yet it was too much, she just couldn't. At least the smile never came to the surface.

"I don't regret it, Kagura. Neither do you. I know what you deserve. I know because I know you so well. You deserve someone who will be there for you. Someone who'll always tell you that they love you or that they'll never leave. Now all I did was give you a kiss. It was a kiss, nothing else. Lei should be glad that all I did was kiss you." He spoke as if the kiss meant nothing to him. "But would he do that? No, I know he'd kiss you but would he always tell you he loves you or that he'd be there for you?" With no reply he gave a smirk. Oh she wanted to wipe that off of his face. "See. I do know what you deserve."

She had honestly what he was going to say that it was he that she deserved. She would have had to say something in reply to that but right now she couldn't even speak. That kiss still lingered on her lips but now she was feeling strange. It was as if the kiss had re-ignited feelings that she had once conquered. She didn't speak. She stood there looking helpless. Lei was going to be coming to visit her soon. The trip was going to be longer because the plane couldn't leave for a couple of more days due to repair. She looked towards Kyou as she sighed. She asked him not to do that again. She just shook her head. She couldn't be around him anymore. The young woman walked right past Kyou. In all certainty she could have been sure that she had heard:

"I am what you deserve." Yet she still continued walking. This was not going to happen to her. She was too sure that Kyou didn't mean this. Perhaps the drink was getting to him? Yet she was also sure that she didn't see him have any drink. She thought that Kyou hated her. They were just getting along great and then he kissed her. It wasn't true. He couldn't take her mind off of Lei. It was as if one side of her said 'continue to walk' but the other side was saying 'go back and kiss him'. She didn't give in to temptation though. Kagura just kept on walking towards the exit of the hotel corridor so she could head back to her hotel. She had to get home. She just wanted to be left alone. What Kyou had done really defined the laws of the world.

For wasn't he the one to say love hurts too much? He did say that one time in his life. She didn't know if he had said that recently but she was too annoyed with him now to even think about him. Then why was she still thinking of him. She shook her head deciding to think about the next best thing that came into her mind. All she could think about that had nothing to do with Kyou was Isuzu, Hatsuharu and the baby. The baby was due a few days after her return home. She was so excited as she had heard that they wanted her to be the godmother.

She had never been left with that much responsibility before. The fact that Isuzu was going to bring this little life into the world and was going to be asking so much of her that it made Kagura smile. Everything else moved out of mind as she pictured it. Isuzu in the bed, the newborn in her arms whilst Hatsuharu sat on the chair beside her. It didn't matter whatever Kyou had said before, that was true love. What Hatsuharu and Isuzu had was true love. Invincible love was more precious to anything else in the world. It didn't take long though for Kagura to realise that she had just thought of Kyou again. That it managed to single handed make her angry.

It was then that she found her hotel. She got to her room, slamming the door behind her. Not yet, she knew it was too soon to meet up with Kyou. She knew that she would just feel the same way she felt when she was younger. She thought all that therapy had helped. She had shocked her mother that day when she had said that she wanted to go and cure her problem. That one too many doors had been broken because of her temper. Although her mother appreciated this, she did not appreciate the daughter that she was given after a few months of sessions. Kagura became a completely different person.

Her bag made a variety of noise as the material came in contact with the ground. She didn't care what it was that had hit down hard there was nothing fragile in it. Her greyish brown eyes set sail for the ceiling as she lay back on her bed. She had tried so hard. Then he had to do that. It was her even more angry. What was interesting though was that he had said just as she was leaving how he really felt. It was possible that he was playing with her though. He wanted to see if she was going to change back. To see if this was all an act. She knew how strange it was that she had changed so much. Though she knew it was for the best. She couldn't stay the same way she was. When she changed she found love.

That was something the old Kagura never appreciated. Love came so easily and she had taken advantage of it. She never let it grow. She never let it develop on its own. No, she knew that she and Lei still had a lot of developing to go. She knew that it was a proper relationship because they took things slowly. Yet taking things too slowly could also kill a relationship. So perhaps that was a bad thing too. She was going to have to be careful with her word choice the next time she saw her boyfriend. Not one mention of Kyou could surpass her lips. It would be better that way. For Lei knew about how Kyou was her first love. It could easily upset him if he knew that Kyou had kissed her.

She wasn't stupid though. Kagura knew better than to say anything about that. All she wanted to do was forget it. Yet whom was she kidding? She kept thinking about it. She kept wondering what it would have felt like if she was single, in the right mind and kissed him back. Would there be fireworks? No there probably wouldn't be any because that was just a myth passed down from movies. You never felt fireworks just because of a kiss. She had to be strong. She was going to have to see Kyou again. She was going to have to act normal. She would make sure she was her usual chirpy self and not let anything else make her act differently. It was just plain sense. She had grown up so beautifully in mind that it scared even her. She closed her eyes, yes she found herself scarily happy at home… and with that final thought, the airhostess fell asleep.