Chapter 6

"Where were you two?" Sirius smirked. However, Bex smacked him playfully across the chest.

"We wanted to see the moon." Lily said a little too quickly, blushing so that she could feel her face growing very hot. Bex winked at her.

"I hate the moon." Remus said, under his breath.

"Yes we know," Sirius said without thinking, about the girls who were sitting around them.

"Why would you hate the moon its so beautiful?" Willow asked Remus.

"There are things that some people just wouldn't understand." James said, taking his seat in the armchair by the fire, and letting Lily sitting on his lap.

"Well I think we are all pretty understanding people here." Lily said. She was very curious about what the boys were hiding, because it was obvious they didn't want them to know.

"Its a little personal" said Remus looking down at his feet, trying to avoid Dawn's gaze. However, Dawn looked up at him, straight into his eyes, and when they met he felt like she needed to know. Remus looked around the room at the others, but they had no idea what to do, but if he told her she would never look at him the same, and if it got around school there would be no telling what would happen. "Its nothing really, just a little phobia. My mom use to read me stories of people who had been bit by vampires and were-wolves, I guess the moon always reminds me of them."

The girls seemed to buy that.

"That's nothing to be embarrassed about. Now when your mom shows every guy that comes over your baby pictures, now that's embarrassing." Dawn said rolling her eyes.

"No, no remember what I told you about two summers ago? Oh My God I could have died!!" Bex laughed.

"What happened?" Sirius turned to her.

"Well this was before we started dating, and…never mind. It was nothing just my mom showing home videos, and telling stories of the stupid things I did when I was little."

"Ah…home videos, that's a classic, we'll be right back just got to change, and we'll be right out," James said motioning to Lilly.

Lily got up, and James followed her up the stairs. Lily walked up the girl's stairs, and closed the door without turning back. She went to her trunk, and slid off her dress, hung it up, and put on her nightclothes. She went down the stairs, stopped; she thought for a moment; and then walked up the boy's stairs, and opened the door. She saw James, he was only half dressed. However, he didn't notice her there. He had on his muggle boxers, and was pulling on his sweat pants that were a bit big. But, his stomach was showing, and Lily could see his muscles as they flexed when he leaned down. Lily felt warmth wash over her body again, and she looked down to James's feet. Trying to get her mind off James's wash bored stomach. It was only when he reached down into his trunk to get a white shirt when James noticed Lily was standing in the doorway. He pulled his shirt over his head, and turned to her. He smiled, and she walked in, and took his hand, he looked down at her, and kissed the top over her head.

"You were the one I wanted to ask me to the ball." Lily whispered.

"Why didn't you just say that?" James said, moving his face close to hers.

"I don't know, this year is just a whole new world for me. I'm not use to having a boyfriend or anything."

James smiled at these words. "Boyfriend?" He asked in a playful, but questioning voice.

"Well, yeah boyfriend, and girlfriend. That's what they call it when two people like each other James." She winked at him, and led him by the hand out the door, and back to the common room, and straight into the armchair. The boys raised their eyebrows at the sight. James sat down first, and Lily sat down on his lap, and cuddled up close to him.

"HA!" Sirius had flung his hand out, and was pointing at Willow.

"Alright, alright, don't wet yourself." Willow began searching her pockets, and pulled out 3 gallons, and handed them to Sirius.

"Honestly, will you please stop betting on us like we're a Quidditch game." Lily said realizing what had just happened, remembering Dawn and Bex's bet from a few months before.

"It's entertaining," Willow said, and shrugged.

"Good to know." James said, giving a threading glare at Sirius.

They sat in silence for a short while in which time Bex, Peter, Willow, and Dawn fell asleep. "I am very happy for the two of you." Remus said, breaking the silence, and looking at them.

Lily smiled and kissed James. "I am too." However, when Lily laid her head on James's chest again she found that she was very tired, and drifted in and out of sleep for a while.

James looked down, and saw Lily had closed her eyes and felt her breathing calmly. "I think she's asleep."

"I have to tell her." Remus said, staring down at Dawn who had, like Lily, her head on his chest fast asleep.

"You know you can't do that." Sirius said, becoming a little more serious for the first time tonight.

"Do you think she would stop loving me?" Remus said, so quite that James, and Sirius barely heard him.

"I think you need to wait before you tell her. You don't want to scare her." James replied.

"Scare her, are you kidding!" Remus almost yelled this time, as he shot a terrified look at James. "No matter when I say it, I am going to scare her."

Lily was now awake, but did not dare open her eyes, for she knew she was not allowed to know this conversation. She knew they we're talking about Remus, and Dawn, but why on earth would Remus scare her? She soon reheard what Remus had just said in her head "No matter when I say it, I am going to scare her." However, it wasn't the words the Lily reheard so clearly, it was the tone of his voice. Remus sounded scared, worried, and miserable.

"It hurt you when you couldn't tell her tonight." James continued having no idea Lily could now hear every word. "I could hear it in your voice."

"Of course it hurt, I have to hide who I really am inside. Because if someone besides you two, and Peter knows what I really am there's no telling what would happen. But, I can't keep doing this to Dawn she deserves better then an animal."

Lily couldn't understand it; she was missing the big key to this story. Dawn loves Remus, they deserved each other, and Lily knew it. But, was Remus using a figure of speech or was he really…an animal?

"Don't say that, you know she cares about you." Sirius began.

"That's what scares me. She cares about me. No one outside my family, and you three has ever cared about me before, not like this."

"Look I really don't know what to say, I have never been in this spot before." Sirius said.

"Well are you going to tell Bex, and Lily that once a month you turn into animals, and run around with a werewolf?" Remus asked sternly.

Lily couldn't believe what she just heard. Remus was a werewolf and…Sirius, and James were, no they aren't that clever. Surely they weren't Animagus. And if so, what were they?

"No Lily, and Rachel don't need to know," said James.

Who the bloody hell was he kidding!? Of course they needed to know! Lily thought to herself ready to jump up. Who the bloody we're these people, she had no idea who it was who held her anymore.

"Well you might be able to do that, but I can't. I have to tell her, she has a right to know what she's getting into." Remus said. "What if Lily and Bex start to ask where we go at night every few months?"

"We have the invisibly cloak we snuck right pass them last time." James said.

"Well Sirius, what if Bex comes in one night wanting you, and all four of us are missing?" Remus demeaned. "She might think you went off cheating again!" The words left his mouth before he could stop himself.

"What did you just say!?" Sirius yelled, jumping to his feet "Cheat! Cheat! I care about this women way too much to ever even think about another girl like that!" Sirius was yelling so loud that it woke up Dawn and Bex up. But, Lily sat up first, the two girls seem to catch on, on what had happened every quickly. Sirius didn't seem to notice, or care that the girls were up now. "I love her!" He pointed at Bex, "I would never hurt her. And, if anyone ever did they would have to deal with me!" Bex stared at him. "I don't care what you people say she is perfect, and I wouldn't change a thing about her! I-" Sirius started again, but was stopped by Bex's lips on his. She dove on him, kissing him as hard as she could.

Dawn rounded on Remus, "What did you say to him?" She was very demanding. "You know he didn't do it, and he lashes out on everyone who thinks he did! Why did you have to say something!?"

"Hey," a gentle soft whisper met Lily's ear, and turned her gaze from Dawn, and Remus toward James. "It's late, do you want to go up?"

"Sure in a minute, I have to talk to you, but let them go up first."

"Or, we could go up first, if it's important."

"Yeah…or that." Lily smiled, and she led James to his own dorm room. When she closed the door James wrapped his arms around her waist. And, kissed her. When she didn't kiss him back the way she had before he pulled away.

"What's wrong? What did you need to talk to me about?" He asked.

"I'm really tired James, lets just talk about it tomorrow, or something. It wasn't important anyway."

"Are you sure?"

She nodded, how could he keep something like that from me? And, he acts like it's no big deal! "Night." And, she walked out full of thought, and stress without kissing him.

"Shit." James whispered under his breath. What the bloody hell did I do now? He crawled into bed, and drifted off to sleep.

Lily waited up for Bex and Dawn to come up, and go to bed. Willow slept in the common room that night. Dawn, and Remus were okay now, and Rachel, and Sirius were perfect at the moment. Lily stayed up after the two went to sleep, and thought about how to tell James that she heard his conversation, or if she was going to tell them. Lily finally slowly fell asleep around the very early morning.