Chapter 5
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A/N: This is a short chapter, with no dialogue. But I hope you like it. A special thanks to rlmont91 and Blue Panda for reviewing! You guys are the best:)
Jack looked behind him again as he continued to walk further into the jungle. He couldn't take it anymore. He had to be alone. Everyone kept talking to him, wanting him to look at something, to help with something. At first he had welcomed it, thinking that he needed the distractions. But now he couldn't handle it anymore. It was hard to find some way to leave without someone knowing. Juliet watched his every move and she was starting to get on his nerves.
Jack started to think about his life before the island. All his life all he had wanted was for everything to go right. He wished that everything could have been simple. When they had crashed, meeting Kate had been the best thing that had ever happened to him, now he almost wished he never met her.
Jack finally decided that no one would find him where he was at and so he sat down on a log and looked at his surroundings. There was a lot of trees and brush around him and he liked that. Then he realized that he had no idea of how to get back. But then he wondered if anyone would care if he went missing.
But of course they would miss me. Jack thought almost bitterly. All they want from me is my medical training.
He blamed his dad for forcing him to become a doctor. When he had been young his dad told him that he didn't have what it took to be a leader, so Jack never did understand why his father had forced him into it. Jack hated himself, and the life that he had had. All the women he had loved always betrayed him or left him, and he knew that it was partly his fault. He hadn't been there for them, just like he hadn't been there for Kate.
Kate. Just thinking about her sent chills up his spine. He had ruined yet another relationship. Not that they had ever had one. Jack choked up as he began to think of Kate, the first time he allowed himself to think of her for more than a second or two. It was painful to think of her, but he couldn't help it now. Seeing her with Sawyer hurt him so much. He had tried to deny it, that he didn't care, but he knew deep down that he did. Letting her go with Sawyer was the toughest thing he had ever done, and he had thought that it would have been the last time he would have talked to her. He remembered the conversation they had over the radio before he was forced to finish the surgery. It had been a tearful goodbye, but now Jack realized that Kate really didn't love him back. He hadn't been prepared to go back, to face her, and now that he had been around her for a week, it was almost too much to bear.
He knew he was just going to have to deal with it, but he couldn't help but wonder if he and Juliet could go back to the Others, but at the same time he knew it was out of the question. Juliet had betrayed her friends, and even though they had had an agreement that they would leave each other alone, Jack knew that the Others didn't want anything to do with Juliet.
He sighed and tried to pull himself out of his miserable state, but he knew that there was no use. He knew he needed Kate, he missed her and loved her, but he also knew that she didn't feel the same.
A/N: The next chapter will have a jate fight. Thanks for reading!