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This is my first smut, so I'm excited. It's 2:31am so I don't really have time to answer everyone's review but thanks a bunch. I really appreciate everyone who did. I hope you like this chapter. Oh...and since I haven't done it in earlier chaps...
Disclaimer: I do not own Insant Star or anything associated with it. For earlier chapters I do not own My Girl's Ex-Boyfriend by Relient K or I'm Not Your Girl by Lalaine(love her!).
Chapter: Promises, Promises
Jude and I are in hospitality. She's sitting on the counter swinging her legs back and forth as she eats the sandwich I made her. We've been locked in here for about 3 hours and the bad part is, we're going to be stuck here until Sunday, and it's only Friday. 2 days with Jude? That doesn't sound too bad. I could actually enjoy this.
Jude: You know, this sandwich isn't half bad Quincy. Anything else you can cook.
Tommy: I can cook pasta, pizza, and grilled chicken.
Jude: So, I won't starve while I'm here.
Tommy: Who said I was going to cook all of that for you?
Jude: I did.
Tommy: And I'm going to listen to you because…?
Jude: Um, because you love me?
I really wish she would stop saying that. I don't love her, ok, I do, but I'm not in love with her. Those are two totally different feelings. She finishes her sandwich and crumples up the napkin she held in her other hand. She jumps off the counter and walks to the trash can. Oh hell yes, she dropped it, and she's in front of me. She's bending down and I watch as her skirt inches up. Damn, this is a nice view. That ass, those legs, I think I'm in heaven.
Jude finally picks it up and walks over to the trashcan. When she looks back at me she eyes me skeptically.
Tommy: What?
Jude: Were you just looking at my ass?
Tommy: What if I was?
She's coming close to me. My heart is starting to race. What is she doing? Now our faces are inches apart. Ok, stay cool, don't kiss her; don't kiss her. God, this is harder than I thought. She's not even saying anything; she's just staring at me. I clench my fist to hold in my need, and longing to kiss her. Jude Harrison, what are you doing to me?
Jude: I have a question for you.
Tommy: Ok.
Jude: Did you ever regret leaving me…the way you did?
I look down at my hands and took a deep breath. Then I look at her with sincerity in my eyes.
Tommy: Ever since I left you, I have regretted every…single…day. I wish that I could just turn back time. Jude, you have to believe me, I never meant to hurt you. It was just so hard for me to…I don't know.
Jude: Hey, it's ok. I just wanted to know. I wanted to know if you really cared.
Tommy: Of course I do. I care more than you know. Don't you ever doubt ever again.
Jude: I'm sorry. I won't.
Tommy: Promise?
I move my face closer to hers and I feel her breath on my lips and clench my fists even tighter. My own nails are digging into my skin as she looks into my eyes. Her eyes, there turning ice blue, do you know what that means? That means that she still loves me.
Jude: I promise. Will you promise me something?
Tommy: Anything.
Jude: Promise me, that, what I'm about to tell you, won't get you mad.
I'm taken aback. I thought it was going to be something in saying, "never leave me again" or whatever. I can't really promise anything like that. I don't know what she has to tell me. But I'm pretty sure what ever it is, it shouldn't be too bad.
Tommy: I promise. What is it?
Jude: Spencer and I…he asked me something last night.
Now my nails are drawing blood, but I don't care. It better not be what I think it is.
Tommy: What was that?
Jude: He asked me to marry him, and I said yes.
I'm clenching my teeth so hard and I can hardly talk. How the hell am I suppose to respond to that? No! Jude is mine! How come Spencer hasn't figured that out yet.
Tommy: You said yes?
I am purposely making the anger evident in my voice.
Jude: You promised that you wouldn't get mad.
Tommy: Don't worry, I'm not mad, I'm pissed. You're too young. You're only 17.
Jude: I'm going to be 18 in a few months, and anyway, we're going to wait until I'm at least 19, maybe even a little bit longer.
Tommy: You've only been dating this guy for a few months Jude! You hardly even know anything about him!
She puts her hand on her hip as she backs away from me. She put the other hand on the counter as she leans her weight on it.
Jude: Excuse me? This is coming from the guy who didn't even know a girl's name when he brought her home with him?
Tommy: Jude-
Jude: Not only that, but got married to a girl he only knew for 2 weeks and then got a divorce in a month? You actually think I'm going to take advice from a former playboy? Why the hell would I do that? Just give me one good reason why I should listen to you?
Tommy: I'm just trying to protect you!
Jude: And how's that been working out for the past 3 years? It seems like every time you do, I end up getting hurt anyway?
Tommy: Because!
Jude: Because why?
Tommy: Because you're mine!
Jude takes her weight off the counter and looks at me in disbelief. She runs a hand through her golden hair and shakes her heard at me. I can't believe I just said that out loud, but she was provoking me. She brought this on herself. She takes another step back in the door way.
Jude: Tommy, promise me something else.
I just nod my head. I'm trying to keep myself from yelling at her again.
Jude: Don't come near me.
I just nod my head again and walk out into Studio 2.
It's been about another 3 hours and I look at my cell phone which has no service in this damn building. It's about 6 in the morning and Jude had fallen asleep on the couch out in the lobby. I can't sleep. Jude made me promise not to come near her. So I'll respect that. I have dried blood on my hands that I have still to wipe clean. I don't care.
I hear a knock on the studio door and see Jude standing there. I turn away from her and she lets out a sigh. She walks over to me and kneels beside me. I'm still not looking at her. She told me not to come near her, and now she's coming towards me. Jude Harrison, the most complicated girl I will ever know. She looks down at my hands and hisses.
Jude: Ouch, that looks like it hurts.
Tommy: I wouldn't know. I didn't feel a thing. You get this kind of numb feeling when you're pissed beyond belief. You hardly feel a thing. Right, Harrison?
I know that was cold, but I was really just trying to protect her. She looks at me with sorry eyes and she walks out. About 2 minutes later she comes in with a damp wash cloth. She takes one of my hands and places it over and nails marks on my hand. I hiss and take my hand. That fucking hurt!
Jude: Sorry. Give me back your hand.
Tommy: No way, that burned.
Jude: We need to clean that before it gets infected or something. Just give me your hand.
I reluctantly give my hand back to her. She puts it back on my hand and I close my eyes in pain. She looks at me and hesitantly wipes away the blood. As she did the same with my other hand I watch her intently. I'm guessing she doesn't notice because I've been staring at her for a while and usually she says some smart comment.
Jude: There you go, all cleaned up.
Tommy: Thanks.
She smiles at me and gets up.
Jude: No problem.
Jude walks to the bathroom and then back to the studio and sits in the chair next to me. I look at her as she throws her head back and looks up at the ceiling.
Tommy: I guess apologies on in order.
Jude: Guess so. I'm sorry I said to stay away from me.
Tommy: And I'm sorry for getting so pissed off at you and Spencer.
Jude: Why did you get pissed off?
Hmm, that's a good question. There is a reason, it's because I'm jealous. Like I said, you're mine. I guess I should give her a different answer than that, since that didn't go over so well before. Hmm, what's a good excuse? I could use that "I'm protecting you" one. Yea, that might work.
Tommy: Like I said, I'm just trying to protect you. I really am happy for you, but I just don't want you to rush things.
Jude: Like you use to do?
Tommy: You should learn from my mistakes Harrison.
Jude: But making mistakes is how you learn Quincy.
Tommy: True, but still, I just hope you know what you're doing.
Jude: I do.
Tommy: You really do love him don't you?
I roll my chair closer to her and look into her eyes. Their ice blue again, but I can't tell if they're for me or Spencer. I put our faces close intentionally to get my answer. She looks at me with no obvious fear.
Jude: Tommy, don't do this.
I touch her cheek lightly and she closes her eyes. She takes my hand and entwines our fingers together. She's making hard for me to keep control.
Tommy: Jude, I don't know what to do. Every single time I'm around I have this urge just to hold you in my arms and never let go. I want to whisper sweet nothings in your ear, and kiss you with more passion then ever before. I want you Jude.
All this time Jude had her eyes close and now she's opening them again. This girl does the unthinkable and the impossible. She just made me express myself and I don't know how she does it.
Jude: Tommy, do you love me?
Crap! I have to answer honestly don't I? Well, the honest answer is that I really have no clue what love is. I've never felt this before and I'm always telling myself that I don't. Truth is…
Tommy: I don't know. I've never felt love before, so I really have no clue what love feels like.
Jude: Love, is when you wake up every morning, craving that one person. It's when you're willing to put the rest of your life on hold just to spend 5 minutes with them. Every time they walk into the room, time just stops for a second. Your heart races when you feel the simplest touch. You have shivers going up and down your body and you can't stop it, but then again, you don't want to. Love is when you're talking to this person, and no one else in the world exists. But when they talk back to you, you don't exactly hear them, because you just get lost in their eyes and you wish you could stay that way forever. Love is when you know for a fact, that this one person can change your whole entire life, and you don't mind it. But most of all, love is fear of that one person, because you know if they break your heart, you'll never be the same again.
Jude amazed me. She spoke with such passion in her words. I can't believe this 17 year old girl just taught me what love is. If that's love, then I've just realized something. I'm in love with Jude Elizabeth Harrison. All this time, I just found out now.
Jude: I ask again Tommy, do you love me?
Her face was so close to mine. I couldn't help myself. I took my other hand and slammed her lips against mine. She wraps her arms around my neck and my other hand finds its way to her waist. I push her closer to my body as I feel her tongue gently touch my bottom lip asking for access. I almost immediately open my mouth to her as I feel her tongue enter.
Jude gets off from the chair and straddles my lap as both my hands go on her hips. Her hands went my shoulder as she starts to move back and forth slowly. I groan in her mouth. She has this effect on me that I can't shake. I slowly put my hand under her shirt and run my fingers around her bare back.
She breaks the kiss and we look at each other as we breathe heavily. She puts her arms up giving me a signal to lift her shirt. Oh mercy. I lift it up slowly and throw it across the room. She doesn't give me anytime to admire her as she reconnects our lips and devours my mouth. I reach for her bra and unhook it. I break the kiss and pull down the straps with my teeth and toss it on the floor. She takes off my shirt and then her lips go towards my neck. I groan again as I feel myself harden. Jude presses her bare chest against mine as she goes to my ear and starts to nibble. How does she do it? No girl has ever made me groan. Usually it's the other way around.
Jude reaches for my belt and unbuckles it with ease. I have a feeling she's done this before. I pull up her skirt and rest my hands on her thighs and rub my fingers lightly against them. She sighs in my mouth. Oh yea, now it's my turn. As she finishes unbuttoning my jeans I go to her ear and to her neck. I move on to the shoulder then to her right breast. I start to kiss it tenderly and I rake my teeth against her nipple. I start to suck and she moans. When her moans get louder I suck harder. I do the same action to the left and then pull her panties down.
I pick her up and Jude wraps her legs around my waist. I put her on the floor gently. She pulls my jeans down and I kick my shoes and socks off along with my jeans. I look at her asking her with my eyes. She nods at me to keep going. I pull her skirt up to her waist and stick one finger in her. She gasps at the contact and then I stick a second finger in. I move them in and out slow at first, then faster. Her moans get loader and I get harder. She grabs my stick and starts to rub her hand up and down. I close my eyes and moan with pleasure.
I get my fingers out of her and grab both of her wrists and put them above her head. Lord, forgive me mow. I kiss her as I thrust inside her hard. She lets out a load moan. I look into her eyes as I keep thrusting inside of her. I start to pick up my rhythm and she throws her head back. I feel Jude's hips bucking against mine asking for more. I start to do it harder and faster and she lets out small screams. I feel her walls tighten around me which tells me she's close. She climaxes and yells out my name. Two more thrust and I reach my point as well. I collapse on top of her as we both breathe heavily. Once I get my strength back and hold myself up with my hands on the floor and look into Jude's eyes. Her eyes turned a shade of a really dark blue. Actually, it almost seems black. I surprise myself because I'm disappointed. Black always means one thing…lust.
After our little rendezvous in Studio 2 Jude and I our in the lobby and there's an awkward silence among us. Jude is on the other side of the couch biting her nails while I'm fiddling with my fingers. I don't know exactly what to say. Apparently, I had just slept with a girl that I just found out I love. Ok, so no problem there, but it doesn't end there. Not only is she my client, but she's a minor, and she has a boyfriend. I can tell that she keeps glancing at me and I'm trying to avert my eyes everywhere else but at her gaze.
Jude: Tommy?
I look at the floor and then at her timidly.
Jude: Um, I don't know exactly what happened back there…ok, I do know what happened. I just don't know why it happened.
Tommy: You asked me a question, and I answered it.
Jude: Yea, well, I was actually hoping for words…not sex.
Tommy: You didn't seem to mind it.
I'm not smirking or trying to be smart. I'm really serious. This is a very serious situation. It seems like everything that just happened was a dream.
Jude: Are you mad about something?
Tommy: Nope, why would I be mad?
Jude: I don't know, because what we did will never happen again?
Tommy: Why?
Jude looked down at the floor then back at me. I wanted to know if it was out of love or lust. I needed to know if she still loved me.
Jude: I don't know. I mean, I've never done that before to anyone. I'm not that kind of girl, and I don't know what to do.
Tommy: What'd you do it for?
Jude: Huh?
Tommy: What'd you do it for?
Jude: I don't think I understand.
Tommy: Did you do it out of love, or out of lust?
Jude: Um…
Tommy: Jude, please, I need to know.
Jude: Neither.
Tommy: Neither? Then why the hell did you do it?
Jude: I don't know Tommy, I don't know ok!
She starts to cry and I immediately regret yelling at her. I stand up and go to hug her but she steps back and shakes her head.
Jude: Tommy, maybe it's best if we just forget this ever happened. Ok?
Tommy: But Jude-
Jude: Just say it Tommy. You have to tell me. Tell me to forget it, tell me it never happened. Please.
I took a deep regretting breath. I didn't want this to go away. I wanted it to stay forever. But she was right; we had to keep this a secret. I didn't want to see her cry anymore either. It hurt me every time.
Tommy: It never happened.
Jude: Promise?
Tommy: Promise.
Well, how was it? It was my first smut so I don't know how that went but yea. Ok, just so you all know, Jude is not falling for Tommy yet. (notice i said yet). She meant what she said when she went "neither". You'll figure out why she did it in later chapters. I hope you liked it. PlEaSe ReViEw!