I'm so sorry I haven't updated this. I've been wrapped up in my other stories. But here you go!
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Pickyfan: Yea, I see what you're saying. I was actually going to switch to her POV but it just didn't feel right when I was writing. Anyways, she always speaks what she's thinking.
Instantstarfanatic06: -lol- your review made me laugh. I'm so glad you liked it. Jude is being a bitch but there's a reason for that. What's the reason you may ask? You'll have to wait and find out.
maine27: Sadie and Kwest are together. You'll see what happens in the beginning of this chapter. Don't worry, I can't break up Kwadie.
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Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star but I do ownt the song Grip.
Chapter 9: The Perfectionist Slave Driver
Sadie: But it's just to help Jude and Tommy. He really needs the help.
Tommy: Thanks a lot Sadie.
Sadie: Sorry, but the truth hurts.
Isn't that the truth? Sadie, Kwest, and I are in hospitality and Sadie was explaining to Kwest why they had to "break-up" just for now. He doesn't seem to really want to do it though. I get how he feels, but c'mon. He's supposed to be my best friend and he won't even help me with this. Actually with Jude, he never helps with anything. He just calls me stupid or something and moves along. So this doesn't surprise me.
Kwest: You kissed Tommy?
Sadie: Impulse? Please baby, he really needs this. Look how sad he is.
Sadie and Kwest both look at me and I don't even make a face. I must look sad because Kwest just nodded his head. Do I really look that pathetic? Damn, I need to fix that before anyone else sees it. Sadie squeals and hugs her boyfriend. Not fair, I can't be happy, neither can they. It's sad; Kwest is getting more action than me. It's not supposed to go that way. I'm used to being the one who would make fun of him for not getting any. I'm actually thankful that he hasn't made a comment about that, yet. Of course, 'yet' is the keyword there.
Just then Jude walks in the door and Sadie quickly sits on my lap. Jude looks between Kwest and Sadie and shakes her head. She looks at me but I looked away. I hear her sigh in defeat and put her bag down on the floor.
Jude: I have a song.
I don't say anything. I just put my arms around Sadie's waist. Man, this feels weird. Kwest nods.
Kwest: Ok, let's hear it.
Jude: Sure, no problem.
She took out her guitar and started to strum a soft tune. I moved my gaze from the wall to her when she began to sing.
We all make mistakes
Some more than others
We all hide behind a mask
One after another
I'm trying to pretend
That everything's ok
Again and again
But it just doesn't work that way
And I slowly feel myself
Fading back into you
Yea, nobody, nobody else
Can do what you do
I'm falling into your grip
Tighter and tighter you hold on to me
I find myself losing my breath
Yet, you're creating my perfect dream
And I know if I do this
There's no turning around
So give me some space
And pull me down
The twinkle in your eye
Makes me fall to my knees
Oh, and that smile you give me
Makes me feel weak
I try to pretend I don't see
That I don't care
But with all the love that you give me
It doesn't seem fair
I'm falling into your grip
Tighter and tighter you hold on to me
I find myself losing my breath
Yet, you're creating my perfect dream
And I know if I do this
There's no turning around
So give me some space
And pull me down
I can see it now
I'm falling in love with you
I'm not afraid anymore
This time I'm gonna see it through
I'm falling into your grip
Tighter and tighter you hold on to me
I find myself losing my breath
Yet, you're creating my perfect dream
And I know if I do this
There's no turning around
So give me some space
And pull me down
Pull me down, pull me down
(This time I'm gonna see it through)
Pull me down, pull me down
Into your grip
Whoa! That was an amazing song. Sadie and Kwest clap and it takes me out of my trance. I always seem to fall into it when Jude sings. Her eyes just start mesmerizing me and I get lost in her voice.
Jude: What do you think?
I still don't say anything. I'm sorry, but she doesn't deserve it. She bluntly said I couldn't love. I'm not going to forgive Jude that easily. I grip around Sadie tighter looking at Kwest, making sure he knows it's just an act. He gives me a wink and then looks at Jude.
Kwest: I think it's amazing.
Sadie: Yea, it's really good. I love it. Who is it about?
Jude: Spencer of course. I wrote it during tour.
I saw Sadie glance at me when she said that. I knew it wasn't about me. None of her songs are about me anymore.
Jude: What do you think about it Tommy?
I shrug slightly.
Tommy: It's fine.
Jude: Could you two leave me and Tommy for a minute please?
They both nod and leave. Jude stands up from the floor and I just sit there looking at the wall.
Jude: Are you ever gonna forgive me?
Tommy: Why should I?
Jude: You shouldn't, but I'm asking you to at least try. I still need you as a friend and I hate all this drama between us. It's been non-stop ever since you came back and I'm getting sick of it.
Tommy: Yea, me too. It seems like every single time things are getting better, something makes them worse.
I finally turn around and look at her. I pull her down into a tight hug. She's surprise at first but then hugs back. This drama does need to stop. I hate fighting with her, it's too much work anyway because I can never win. I pull away and kiss her on the cheek.
Tommy: So, let's get to work on that song.
Jude: Alright.
Jude yawns as I tell her to do the chorus again.
Jude: Tommy c'mon. You've asked me to sing it like 17 times already. Isn't it time we should go home?
Tommy: One more time. I want to make sure it's perfect.
Jude: You know you're a slave driver right?
Tommy: No, I'm a perfectionist, there's a difference.
She turns her head and tries to whisper.
Jude: Not from where I'm standing.
Tommy: I heard that. Just one more time, I promise.
Jude: Fine.
Really, I'm already done; I just want to hear her beautiful voice again. She sings the chorus and I just listen to her voice flow out like an angels. I wonder if she knows just how beautiful she is.
Jude: Happy?
Tommy: Yes, very much.
Jude: Can I go home now?
Tommy: Sure, do you need me to drive you?
Jude: Yea, it is kind of late. And Spencer dropped me off so my car isn't here.
Tommy: Ok, just let me finish mixing and we'll be on our way.
Jude: How long will that take?
God, she really is a whiner isn't she? Can't she see that everything needs to go right? Also this means more Tommy time for her. She used to like that. But now it changed to Spencer time. My God! Am I getting replaced?
Tommy: Not long. Maybe 30 minutes.
Jude: 30 minutes?
Tommy: Remember, I'm a perfectionist.
Jude: Slave driver.
Tommy: Perfectionist.
Jude: Slave driver.
Tommy: Perfectionist.
Jude: Where's Kwest? He'll agree with me.
Tommy: He left around 8:00.
Jude has a look of shock on fear on her face. Oh, she thinks we're going to get locked up again. I reach into my pocket and take out the keys. She sighs with relief and sits next to me. All of sudden we both hear the doors open.
Jude: Who's that?
Tommy: I don't know. Maybe an intern?
Jude: No, they left a while ago.
Person: James?
Jude: James?
Oh, shit. What the hell is she doing here? I don't want to see her. Not after what happened in Montana.
Person: James!
Jude looks at me with a confused look. I probably look incredibly puzzled and angry right now. That's because I am. Jude gets out of the studio to see who it is. I follow her quickly. We see a girl who looks at least 5'7" with long brown hair. She was wearing faded blue jeans and a green tank top. She also has…Stephanie?
Person: James. Finally, I've been looking all around Canada for you.
Jude turns around and looks at me.
Jude: James? Why is she calling you James?
Jude then turns around and looks at her.
Jude: And who are you?
I take a step forward. This is going to become chaos. I just know it.
Tommy: Jude, this is my really old friend Jasmine. The little girl she's holding is…Stephanie.
Jude: Stephanie. You mean you're niece?
Jasmine: Niece? Now, you're ashamed of your own daughter.
Jude: Daughter!?
Uh-oh.
