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I am so fired up with this story because now I actually know where I want to take it. It might be my longest story EVER (my longest being Flashback with 16 chaps). You guys are the best! Some might hate me after this chapter. Not sure, but I like it.

Chapter 14: Drowning in Shallow Water

We all arrived at my parents' house after the funeral and after talking to everyone. I finally signed the adoption papers after a long 2 hours. Now, it's just me, Jude, and Stephanie sitting on the couch watching Shrek. Jasmine had to go to her house (which is right down the block) to let her family know she was finally home. Now this, this would be a perfect family.

Shrek: Better in than out I always say.

We all laugh. Stephanie's laugh is so amazing and so cute. This little girl has me wrapped around her finger. Jude is the same way. I would do anything for both of them. Jude is sitting next to me by the way. And get this…her head is on my shoulder and my arm is around her waist. How cool is that! I know I sound like a girl now, but this is awesome!

Stephanie: Uncle James, my stomach is growling.

Tommy: What do you want to eat?

Stephanie: Um, pizza?

Tommy: Sausage right?

She nods her head happily. Jude put her head up so that I could go to the phone. I order one large pizza with sausage. I go into the kitchen where I had left my wallet and then I see Jude come in a couple of seconds after me. Maybe this is my chance to finally tell her.

Jude: You seem better.

Tommy: Yea, I mean, I'm still depressed, but I'm also happy.

Jude: Why?

Tommy: I have Stephanie, and you here. Life couldn't get any better than this.

Jude: Tommy, that's so sweet. Who knew you were such a romantic person?

Tommy: Romantic?

Jude's cell rang again and she gave me an apolegtic look.

Jude: Hello? Oh hey! Yea…yes I'm fine…um, I don't know hold on.

She covered the phone with her hand.

Jude: Tom, when are we going back to Canada?

Tommy: Sunday.

She went back to her phone.

Jude: Tommy says Sunday…yes, Tommy's here.

Sounds like she getting annoyed again. This has to be Spencer.

Jude: Please, let's not start this again. I thought we…thank you…I love you too.

No she doesn't.

Jude: Bye.

Tommy: So, is it me again?

Jude: I don't know what it is. He was perfectly fine with you and I being friends and now he's acting like…your some kind of plague. That you're going to hypnotize me into falling for you again.

I decide to play around.

Tommy: Well…that was the plan.

She laughs and comes closer to me.

Jude: Oh really? So, his suspicions were right.

Tommy: Yea, watch.

I look straight into her beautiful blue-grey eyes.

Tommy: Jude Harrison, I command you to fall in love with me, right now.

Jude: Yes Tom Quincy, I shall love you forever. You wish is my command.

Tommy: I command you to dump Spencer.

Jude: I shall do as you wish. He will never satisfy me like you.

Tommy: I also command that you love no other man but me.

Jude: I could and would never. Take me away Tommy!

Tommy: I'll fly you to the moon and back, babe.

At this point we were only inches apart. I guess we didn't notice we were stepping closer as we were "acting". We stop acting and just look at each other.

Jude: Tell me.

I know I've been waiting to tell her. But I have to know why, and what will happen.

Tommy: Why?

Jude: I need to know.

Tommy: But tell me why it's important to you.

Jude: I love Spencer, but there's someone holding me back to love him fully. I was ok, I was fine, and I fell him hard. But then all of sudden, you come back. The more and more we hung out, the more and the more my heart was screaming for him. And I'm scared.

Tommy: How can you love someone like me? All I do is hurt you. We get into fights non-stop.

Jude: That's what scares me the most.

Tommy: If I say it, will it change anything?

Jude: I don't know.

Stephanie: Uncle James! The pizza man is here!

I never take my eyes off Jude.

Tommy: The money's on the table! I'll be right out!

I lean in closer and I can see the fear in her eyes.

Jude: Tommy?

Wait, I can't do this. Now I know why I could never say it to her. It's because I don't want to hurt her anymore than I already have. All this time, I've been protecting her from the wrong people. I need to protect her from me. If I say it, I'll just hurt her again somehow. She can't love me, it won't do her any good. She's too good for me. Spencer's right for her. He'll treat her and love her, the way I should have all these years. I just can't tell her. I back away and she looks at me confused.

Tommy: I'm sorry Jude. I have to tell you the truth.

Jude: Good, are you finally going to tell me?

Tommy: Yes. Jude I…

I pause. C'mon Quincy, it's going to hurt, but she has to hate me. She has to hate me so she won't be able to get hurt by me anymore.

Jude: You what?

Tommy: I…don't…love you.

Her body becomes frozen.

Jude: Don't?

Don't worry..like I said..I know what I'm doing. Just so you won't kill me. Here's some spoilers...

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SPOILER:

"You told me to tell you the truth."
"That's right. I said the truth. I know you're lying!"

"Spencer and I are going to get married in 3 months."

"Why do you hide from it? You know it's right."

"Are you going to chase after her? Or are you just going to sit there and watch your life runaway from you?"

"All I want is for us to love each other unconditionally for one night. Then tomorrow we go can back to pretending we hate each other."

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