One More Chance Chapter 16: Music is Life, Lyrics are Love, an instant star fanfic

Hey guys!! I want to thank everyone for all of your support. I'm glad most of you aren't giving up on me. I'm not going to be responding to anyone's reveiw for a while, but maybe once and a while I will. But this is Chap. 16. It's a little short (even though it doesn't seem like it), but it's ok. Like I said, I have a plan. I promise. I hope you like it.

Disclaimer: Of course I don't Instant Star (like I'll be on fanfiction if i did...pssh). I also do not own, To Make Her Love Me, What Hurts the Most, Words I Couldn't Say, Fast Cars and Freedom, and The Day Before You by Rascal Flatts. (I've been obsessed with them since I got two of their CD's)

Chapter 16: Music is Life, Lyrics are Love

It has been exactly two months and three weeks. The whole entire time Jude and me's relationship was totally platonic and professional on the surface. Notice I said on the surface. We still had the side glances and the gentle, innocent touches here and there. Our love was so hidden, and so forbidden. Jude was turning 18 next week, and two weeks after that she would be married. Jude Harrison will soon be Jude Anderson. I couldn't stop it, and neither could she. Our love was sinking in a deep ocean, and none of us knew how to save it.

Sadie and I decided to "brake-up" and forgot about our plan. There's nothing anyone can do now. It's done, and I wish I just would've been sooner about how I feel. If only I could've told her everything before I left. Jude and I are talking in the studio when Kwest walks in.

Kwest: Hey T, Darius wants you in his office.

Tommy: Did he say why?

Kwest: No, he just said to get you right away.

I sigh and follow Kwest out to D's office.

Jude:

As Tommy and Kwest leave I decide to go to hospitality. I haven't eaten anything in hours. There should be something there. Oh, maybe Kwest made one of his favorite sandwiches. I get up and accidentally hit Tommy's bag on the way. I start to pick up the things that fell on the floor and suddenly see a green spiral notebook that says 'Songs for Her'. I look around making sure no one was around, or coming inside the control room. I put the rest of the stuff in the bags and open the notebook.

I wonder who "her" is. I start to read the some of the songs and they seem pretty general. Nothing that seems to specify anyone. Soon there was a yellow page to separate the sections and it say 'For Jude'. For me? Whoa, to read or not to read…read! Let's see…page 1:

You waved your hand and it was done
Said let it be and there it was
A mountain so high, it broke through the sky
A canyon so deep, it'd bring a man to his knees

I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles, and hopeless dreams come true
You made the Heavens and the stars – Everything
Come on, how hard could it be to make her love me?

I said some things I shouldn't have
Tried everything to win her back
I'm human, I messed up
Is she gone, are we done
Forgiveness, another chance
That's all I want
It's in your hands

I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles, and hopeless dreams come true
You made the Heavens and the stars – Everything
Come on, how hard could it be to make her love me?

To make her love me – yeah, yeah
To make her love me – ooo, ooo, ooo

Wow…that was awesome! Wait, this is about me. I forgot about that. When was this dated? I looked at the corner of the page. August 3, 2006. Hey, that was when we had the whole fight, about how I didn't love him anymore and all. Yes, unfortunately, I remember the date. Page 2…

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

(Not seeing that loving you)
That's what I was trying to do

Wow, there are actually tears in my eyes. How come he never told me any of this? I mean, he told me that he was in love with me, but damn. He was really hurt…I really hurt him. I have to see what else. Page 3…

In a book in a box in the closet
In a line in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch
Late one June
In a breath inside a whisper
Beneath the moon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tongue
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world
Wrapped inside my arms

And I let it all slip away --

Chorus:
What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan, no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence
That remains
Are the words I couldn't say

There's a rain that'll
Never stop falling
There's a wall that I've tried to
Take down
What I should've said
Just wouldn't pass my lips
So I held back and now we've
Come to this

And it's too late now --

Repeat Chorus

Are the words I couldn't say
I should have found a way
To tell you how I felt
Now the only one I'm tellin' is myself

Repeat Chorus

What do I do, what do I say
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that
Remains
Are the words I couldn't say

Now, the tears are actually going down my cheek. 2 more pages to go. Page 4…

Starin' at you takin' off your makeup
Wondering why you even put it on
I know you think you do but baby you don't need it
Wish that you could see what I see it when it's gone
I see a dust trail following an old red Nova
Baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder

Chorus:
Wait, baby don't move, right there it is
T-shirt hanging off a Dogwood Branch
That river was cold but we gave love a chance
Yeah, yeah for me
You don't look a day over Fast Cars and Freedom
That sunset river bank first time feeling

Yeah, smile and shake your head as if you don't believe me
I'll just sit right here and let you take me back
I'm on that gravel road, look at me
On my way to pick you up you're standing on the front porch
Looking just like that remember that

I see a dust trail following an old red Nova
Baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder

Chorus

I see a dust trail following an old red Nova
Baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder
You don't look a day over Fast Cars and Freedom
That sunset river bank first time feeling

I smile bit. At least that one was a happy song. One more page to go. I'm pretty sure Tommy will be back any seconds now. Page 5…

I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
The day before you
I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was all the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you

But Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
You're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you…

Was the last day that I ever lived alone
And I'm never going back
No I'm never going back

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you

Wow…that was…wow.

Tommy: Jude, what are you doing?

I look up to see Tommy there.

Jude: Tommy, what would you say about recording a solo album?

Tommy:

We're back in D's office after Jude just blurted out if I wanted to record a solo album. I'm still mad at her for reading my notebook in the first place, but then again, D is actually saying that it was a good idea. But he wants Spencer and Jude to do a duet to my song The Day Before You. I accepted even though it's so wrong. It's not about them; it's about Jude and me. Spencer is in the studio already and we're just pointing out the finer details.

Jude: So we're all set.

Oh, are we done? I wasn't even paying attention. Jude stands up and I follow her. We go to the recording studio and Jude goes straight to the booth and kissing Spencer on the cheek. At least it's not on the lips. She knows better to do that in front of me anyway.

After about 2 hours, we have one more track to go. I do have to say, Spencer has a pretty good voice. I mean, it's not magnificent like Jude's, but it's good enough.

Tommy: Okay, one more track and we're done. Ready?

Spencer: Ready.

Jude: Ready.

Tommy: Alright, Day Before You in 3…

I count down on my fingers and the music starts.

Spencer: I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
The day before you

Jude: I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was all the day before you

Both: Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you

Spencer: In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you

Jude: But Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
You're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Both: Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you…

Was the last day that I ever lived alone

Jude: And I'm never going back

Spencer: No I'm never going back

Both: Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you

I nodded my head and told them they were free to go. Spencer had to get to another gig at The Chain and Jude stayed to listen to the track. We listen to it and nod our heads to the beat. Our glances start again like the always do. God, she's so beautiful. She can't marry him, can she?

Jude: So…I have a question.

Tommy: Okay…shoot.

Jude: The songs that you wrote, were the really for me?

Tommy: Yes.

She looks at me taken aback. I guess she wasn't expecting me to be that blunt. I already told her I was in love with her. What else can be left to hide?

Jude: You know what my favorite one is?

Tommy: Which one?

Jude: Words I Couldn't Say. Why didn't you tell me any of that before? Why didn't you tell me how hurt you were?

Tommy: You're with Spencer, and I didn't think it mattered that much. Candidly, I didn't think I mattered that much.

Jude: Tommy you always matter.

Tommy: Really?

I said that rather bitterly.

Jude: Yes, of course.

Tommy: Then why are you marrying Spencer?

She looks down and sits all the way back in the chair. She tucks one of her golden locks behind her ear and bites her lip. I'm ready to hear any excuse she has to give me.

Jude: Because I love him.

Tommy: You love me Jude.

Jude: And he loves me back.

Tommy: You know I love you back.

Jude: And it's the safe way out. I'm done taking risks, I don't want to be a daredevil anymore. Every time I just get hurt all over again.

Tommy: Aren't you the one that always said love is about taking risk?

Jude just looks down at her hands. I knew she couldn't get a comeback for that.

Jude: How can I be sure you won't hurt me again?

Tommy: Just trust me Jude.

Jude: Tommy, I love you, and I wish I could…but I can't. My heart won't let me trust you anymore.

She gets up from her chair and walks out. This is my fault. What do I do now? I think for a minute and then something pops in my head; a perfect idea to get Jude. God, I can be so stupid sometimes. Now, where is that phone number? I battle through my bag and find a phone number Jude gave me not too long ago. I dial and it rings twice beore anyone picks up.

????: Hello?

Tommy: Hey Spence, it's me…Tommy.

Spencer: Hey, wassup dude?

Tommy: Remember our plan?

Spencer: Yea?

Tommy: Well, I have a different one.

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