This is a short chapter...but it's more like a filler for the rest of the drama that's coming. Don't worry, I'm not going to break up Jommy. I love them too much!! Oh, and I am addicted to my 2 new CD's...Instant Star Soundtrack Season 1 and 2! ;-)
Chapter 19: Denying Your Eyes
I keep pumping myself in and out of Jude and her moans get louder. I blow cold air on her clit and she starts to grab the pillows behind her.
Tommy: Do you want me to stop?
Jude: Did I tell you to stop?
I smirk and keep digging myself deeper and deeper into her. Finally she climaxes and that's the end of round 4. I take myself out of her and bring my body up on the bed to meet her eyes. I hold her close to my body and kiss her head.
Tommy: After a while, you wanna go for round 5?
Jude: Baby, it's almost 2 in the morning and we both need to go to work in the morning. Darius won't be very happy if he sees us too tired to work.
I agree. That wouldn't be too good. I smile at her and kiss her fully on the lips.
Tommy: I love you.
Jude: I know. I love you too.
We both drift off to sleep.
We walk into G-Major hyped up on coffee, so we can't be too tired now. As Jude and I walk towards the studio Stephanie runs up behind us. Jude picks her up and kisses her on the cheek. I take her from Jude's arms.
Tommy: I'll take her to D.
Jude: Alright, I'll meet you there.
I walk into D's office. I know he'll take care of Stephanie. He loves this little girl. I mean, who wouldn't? He looks up from his papers and smiles.
Darius: Stephanie!
Stephanie: Uncle D!
I put her down as she runs to Darius. I laugh at the sight.
Darius: How has my little angel been doing?
Stephanie: Good.
Tommy: Do you mind if she hangs out with you today?
Darius: Of course not. I'll take her to go get some ice cream.
Stephanie: Yeah!
I go up to Steph and kiss her on the cheek.
Tommy: Now, listen to your Uncle D and be good okay?
Stephanie: Ok.
Tommy: I love you girl.
Stephanie: I love you too Daddy.
Jude:
I'm in Studio 2 right now and I'm looking the lyrics Spencer found last night. I want to finish writing it but I can't concentrate. Spencer is still on my mind. I know something's seriously wrong with him, but I don't know what. He wouldn't do that, my Spencer wouldn't do that. But that's the problem. My Spencer wouldn't, but this new one would. The fear in his eyes is still in my head and I can't erase them from my thought.
Not only that, but when he told me that I still loved him, I felt a jolt go through my heart. It felt like I couldn't breathe anymore. Maybe it was realization? I don't know, but it scared me. Yes, I did love him, but I love Tommy. I'm over Spencer…right? Okay Jude, think about lyrics. I can't complete this song, not yet. I have to start a new one.
I turn the page to start to scribble down some words and phrases. Then I pick out the ones that make sense and that I love the most and make a chorus.
I'm so confused
High on insanity
I'm letting loose
I have a stolen identity
Will it be him?
Or will it be you?
Because I'm in love with two
I like that. That sounds half-way decent. I hear a knock on the door and instantly think it's Tommy. I tell them to come in and I see Spencer poke his head in with the biggest smile. My defenses automatically go up as he walks in.
Spencer: Hi.
Jude: Uh, hi.
Spencer: How are ya?
Jude: Ok, you?
I stand up from the couch and cautiously walk towards him.
Spencer: Sorry.
Jude: It's…alright.
Spencer's eyes light up and he picks me up and spins me around. I laugh.
Jude: Spencer down!
Spencer put me down roughly and I fell to the floor and hit my head.
Jude: Ow! What the hell was that for?
Spencer: Well sor-ry.
He broke "sorry" into two syllables. That was very sarcastic.
Jude: Spencer what's wrong with you!?
Realization flashes in his eyes and sorrow fills his face.
Spencer: I…need help Jude. I don't know what's going on. It's been like this for a while and I have no idea.
Spencer's getting a little frantic. I get up and hold him from his pacing.
Jude: Calm down, I'm here.
I hug him severely making sure he couldn't escape my grasp. I knew something was wrong with him.
Tommy:
I was about to walk to Studio 2 when I see Jamie come up to me with sadness in his eyes.
Tommy: What's up with you?
Jamie: Tommy, I wouldn't go in there just now.
Tommy: And why is that?
Jamie looks down at his shoes and sighs heavily.
Jamie: Spencer is in there with Jude.
Tommy: What!? Then I need to go in there! She might be attacking her!
Jamie: Well, I walked in there and she seemed to be pretty happy in their little embrace.
My face freezes. I make sure that it shows no emotion. Jamie waits for my reaction until what he said goes through my head. Then, finally…it hits me. Jude, Spencer, embrace: that's all I heard.
Tommy: She doesn't love him anymore.
Jamie: Are you positive? Because it seems like you're trying to convince yourself more than me.
He walks away and I'm still there with a frozen face. Jamie was right. I was trying to convince myself. Why was I so scared? I didn't go into the studio. I make my way to Studio 3 and I see my notebook sitting on the chair; right where I left it. I go on with my writing.
About 2 hours later I'm still inside writing my songs and I see Jude.
Jude: Hey.
Tommy: Hey babe.
Jude: Spencer came to the studio today.
Tommy: So I heard. I also heard you left, from Sadie. Where were you all this time?
Jude: Spencer and I went to the hospital.
My eyes search hers with question and confusion.
Jude: Spencer's bi-polar.
Didn't see that coming did ya?