A/N: This is the last chapters from Edward's point of view because theres a tiny something extra at the end! This was still a fairly short chapter, but the next one is amazingly long and not even finished yet. Then, I've caught up on my handwritten pages and I don't know what to do yet. :S Thank you all very much on your reviews, I'm very glad to have them no matter what you've got to say!

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Chapter Fifteen: Real Love

In the months after realizing I could never see her again, I was more like a zombie than I had been before. Ironically, somehow, my being dead and still walking and talking didn't already classify me as a zombie. Before I had had the hope of seeing Bella. Now it was late into December. I had not seen her in two years. She was not coming back.

I went through school day after day, doing what I had to and helping Carlisle where I could. I wrote countless musical scores, but always found myself trailing into her lullaby.

With the holidays fastly approaching I drew more and more into the loneliness of my room. I kept the blinds closed, turned off the lights and listened to music, waiting for a sleep that would never come.

This was how I spent most of my time, I was only vaguely aware of the growing nights. Muted daylight came later each day, and gloomy night came earlier each evening.

"Edward!" Emmett screamed from downstairs. "Get down here, now!" I sighed and forced myself off the couch and down to the living room.

"We're out here," he called from outside the open front door. I could see snow gently tumbling through th bright porch light. I grinned. I could only imagine what they were trying to do to me. Their minds were closed.

I stepped cautiously off the porch into a mound of heavy snow. I opened my mouth to call out to my family, when I was completely covered in a heavy blanket of snow. I turned angrily to look at the roof over the porch. Jasper and Emmett were doubled over with laughter, shovels by their sides and snow neatlyscraped off the roof.

Emmett jumped off and began runing across the lawn as quickly as possible.

But I was faster. I quickly overtook him, jumping onto his back and pushing him deep into the snow. I raced back to my family who were then all assembled and trying to hold back their laughter. When Emmett came trudging back sadly through the snow none of us could hold back our laughter. That was the best I had felt in a long time.

"Okay," Esme said, breaking through the laughter. "Everyone get ready for school." was confused I could see it growing increasingly lighter.

"What time is it?" I asked. Emmett pushed past me and went into the house.

"Almost eight," he mumbled. I raced up the stairs and changed my wet clothes. I was waiting in the car for Emmett when Alice and Rosalie jumped in. There was a large grin on Alice's face.

"Today's going to be a good day," she said happily. Before I could ask why, Jasper and Emmett had gotten in and I was speading towards school.

I pulled in a few spaces down from an ancient red truck. My volvo would stand out too much next to that.

The day passed by quickly, as usual. I heard vulgar thoughts from various boys concerning a new girl in school. But, my zombie-like state made me too bored to pay attention to them.

I went into the cafeteria and sat down next to my siblings. Alice was singing a song she had had stuck in her head the entire day. Everyone's mind was blocked to me.

"Cigarettes and chocolate milk
These are just a couple of my cravings
Everything it seems I like's a little bit stronger
A little bit thicker, a little bit harmful for me

If I should buy jellybeans
Have to eat them all in just one sitting
Everything it seems I like's a little bit sweeter
A little bit fatter, a little bit harmful for me..."

I smiled. Her song was different, but very good. My eyes wandered around the cafeteria until they fixed on the table where a new girl was sitting. It was her. I swore in that moment my cold heart was beating.

"And then there's those other things
Which for several reasons we won't mention
Everything about 'em is a little bit stranger, a little bit harder
A little bit deadly..."

Her voice trailed off and I found myself moving across the cafeteria. I suddenly understood everything Alice had said about things getting better. And, I didn't care if she didn't still love me. I had to talk to her. I needed to. I was standing behind her. She looked different, but was still the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen. She still smelt delicious.

"Bella," I found myself saying. She stood up and turned around. Her expression told me she was actually shocked to see me. She blushed, making me grin. I'd missed that so much.

"Edward," She mumbled, but before anything else was said, before she could leave me again I bent down and kissed her exactly like I'd wanted to for so long. Her heart was beating erratically.

"I love you too," I whispered when we finally broke apart.

From this moment on I know
exactly where my life will go.
Seems that all I really was doing
was waiting for love.

Don't need to be afraid,
no need to be afraid.
It's real love, it's real.
Yes it's real love, it's real.

Thought I'd been in love before,
but in my heart, I wanted more.
Seems like all I really was doing
was waiting for you.

Don't need to be alone,
don't need to be alone.

It's real love, it's real.
It's real love, it's real.

Yes it's real love, it's real.
It's real love, it's real.

A/N: The song Alice was singing is called Cigarrettes andChocolate Milk by Rufus Wainwright and The song from this chapter and the last is Real Love by The Beatles.

I'd like to apologize for any missing spaces. since this spacebar doesn't work :S the next chapter will be upmaybe tomorrow, probably saturday,and then I'll spen all weekend writing for you... except I have to study for midterms. Basically, do not expect updates as regular as you've been getting since I'm trying not to fail at life.

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