A/N: Thank you to everyone who reviewed! i know that was a bad way to end the last chapter, but! I am the Queen of Cliffhangers!!! hahah!!

This next chapter makes me want to cry real bad. I suggest you all download CANCER by MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, as it is in this chapter. That song is my favoutite right now, and it is so beautiful. I think its very fitting for this part in the story.

In the last Chapter when Ben was blocking Edward during soccer it was originally Tyler and then i was like.. wait a second... hes all beat up and sick!! haha.

So I replied to some people who asked how Bella is sick, and Now I'm going to list the possibilities here.

Bella might have a low immune system, something like HIV/AIDS. Then, once she got sick, it just sort of... was really bad. But thats not it because I dont know how she would've contracted something like that. Although, I have a friend who has a very low immune system anyway, and going to school is bad for her, she misses a lot (going to my school is bad for anyone. we've got asbestos!!)

It could be pneumonia, which is fatal, but that isnt hidden for a long time and IS beatable. Also, Menangitis is hidden in flu like symptoms, and also involves neck pains. You see, her neck hurting after the accident isnt from the car, its from her illness. Menangitis IS fatal, recently people have gotten it aroudn here.

Leukemia and Lupus (I think) are kidden in flu like symptoms and can do a long time without being detected. They're also fatal. But I really don't knwo what it is. I think for now its safe to just say 'Cancer' but not which one. Leukemia, maybe, but I don't know.

Chapter Twenty Two: Decisions

I sat by her bed, my hands under my chin, staring at her. Just staring at her eyes. I wanted to know the scond they opened and it was possible for me to be here. I would wait years for her if I had to. She was worth it. The short beeping of the heart monitor kept me in the room, kept me from punching out a wall or the next face I saw.

After she had collapsed I ran out of the school without any notice to anyone. Some people in the gym had watched me go, but I ran as fast as I could to my car. She was out cold, no response at all. I put her in the back and strapped her in before racing out of there and down to the hospital. I called Carlisle on the way.

"Hello," he answered.

"Dad," I nearly yelled. I needed him to be my father now, I didn't know what was wrong. "There's something wrong with Bella, I'm bringing her in. She just collapsed, can you be ready for her?"

"Not a problem, just get her in here quickly," I hung up my phone and pushed on the gas as hard as I could. I was at the hospital in no time.

I nearly kicked down the door when I ran up, Bella was secure in my arms. I ran past the front desk and into Carlisle's ward. I could hear his thoughts and knew exactly where to go. When I ran into the room Carlisle and two nurses were waiting. I laid Bella down on the bed and took my first real look at her. Her hair was stuck to her face and she was pale. Not her usual, beautiful pale. It was sickly pale. I shot a look at Carlisle.

"Go and get yout things together, I'll have the school called," he said. "There's nothing you can do now. I'll let you know when anything happens." I nodded and took another look at her before running back out to my car. I didn't want to be away from her anymore than was necessary.

I burst through the doors in the gym and ran as fast as I could in front of the humans down to the coach. I quickly explained to him what had happened and he let me go. I changed out of my gym uniform and back into my ivory sweater and jeans. I ran, vampire speed, to Bella's spanish class and entered without knocking. I went straight to the teacher and told her what happened. When I went to pack up Bella's things Angela gave me a worried look.

"Bella's in the hospital," I whispered so that no one else could hear.

"Can I go see her?" she asked. She looked very worried and upset. I smiled at her to maybe make her feel better but I knew my eyes gave me away.

"Later on today you can, sure." Without another word I left. I was putting her books back into her bag when I noticed my name was written on the side of her excercise book. A habit I had gotten into recently as well.

On my drive back to the hospital I called Bella's house on the off chance that Charlie might be home. He wasn't. I wuickly dialed the police station.

"Is Chief Swan there, please?" I asked as politely as I could.

"I'm sorry, he's busy right now. Is there a message?" The woman was only doing her job but I really had no time for this.

"Tell him it's Edward calling about his daughter. He won't be busy then." I could hear her frustrated sigh and a few voices in the background before Charlie picked up.

"Edward?" he didn't sound too worried yet. "Is something wrong?"

"Bella's in the hospital." the phone was hung up.

Since then I've been sitting here. I haven't left once. Charlie has come and then gone to make phone calls. I wanted so badly for her to wake up. I was begging with her in my head. If only I had paid more attention sooner. The smell had probably been there for a while, the smell of a corpse.

Bella had completely changed now. She only held a fraction of her intoxicating scent and her body looked more weak to me then ever before. Edward, I could hear Carlisle's thoughts. We need you out here, please. I blew her a kiss and stared at her the entire time out of her room. The desk Carlisle and Charlie were waiting at was just outside Bella's room and next to a small waiting area.

"Do you know anything yet?" I sounded like a stranger to myself. My throat had completely dried up and it cracked when I spoke.

Carlisle looked from Charlie to me nervously. "We can't tell for sure what's wrong with her. It would be any number of things, like.. if she has a low immune system this flu could be ten times worse for her. It could be anything from pneumonia to menangitis to leukemia. It's hard to say right now. But there is one thing I know..." he hesitated. "She isn't going to make it through the night." Charlie let out a loud sob and turned to look into the room at Bella. Then he collapsed against the wall and cried. I clenched my eyes shut and put my hand over them. I felt Carlisle pull me into him and rub my back.

"I'm so sorry, son," he whispered. I broke away from him and went back in to sit next to Bella, to continue staring and waiting. I heard Charlie get up minutes after and call bella's mother. I could hear her pained voice yelling and crying at Charlie.

She can't go. I can't live without her.

It was later when I heard Carlisle come into the room. Charlie had gone home for a while, school was almost out. Carlisle sat down next to me, his expression stonic.

"Edward, I will not see you this way" he said bossily. I was confused. "There is nothing this hospital can do, but you can." My brow furrowed in confusion. What was he getting at? "Change her." He said it so blntly I wasn't even sure he meant it.

"What?" I asked, checking to be sure.

"Change her, it's the only way you can save her. that's the only option I can give you; watch her die, or change her." Without another word he got up and left. There was an empty feeling in my stomach. He hadn't left me with any good option.

I looked over at her face, the most beautiful face I'd ever seen. What if I could never see that face again after today..?

Turn away, if you could get me a drink of water

'Cause my lips are chapped and faded.

Call my Aunt Marie, help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favourite colours...

Bella. She was the only person I ever met that I have ever loved, and I loved her with all my heart. She was the sun that lit up my day, I was nothing without her. To have her as a vampire...

My sisters and my brothers still,

I will not kiss you...

'Cause the hardest part of this is

Leaving you.

Bella, a vampire... The idea sparked many things in my mind. One, she wouldn't have that mouth-watering blood in her veins anymore, a prospect that would benefit both her health and mine. We would be able to touch and kiss without any worries of my going out of control. She would so much less fragile to me then.

And, she would be so much stronger. She wouldn't flal down anymore. I wouldn't have to help her run, we could be equals. I was getting excited at the thought of it. To be able to spend each and every day with her, and not worry about causing her any harm would be a miracle. To have her for all eternity would be a blessing.

But then I would be damning her completely. Would it be better for me to let her die like she was supposed to, or condemn her to a life sustained on bloodlust and killing? I think mostly I was being selfish. Wanting her to be with me forever was a big commitment. I'd just be killing her and not even knowing what she wants. What do I do? I can't live in a world without her.. but I don't want to damn her to my world either. I put my head in my hands and began to cry.

"Edward?" I heard her tiny voice call. My head shot up and I was staring into her eyes. "What's wrong?" My lip was quivering despite the lack of tears. I knelt down next to her bed.

"Bella..." my voice croaked. I sounded so pathetic. "Why..."

"Edward?" It sounded hard for her to talk. "Am I dying?" It took me off guard. I didn't trust my voice so I just nodded. I knew she could see the sadness in my expression. "Oh..." I choked in a breath and looked up to her. She was looking at the ceiling, tears in her eyes.

Now turn away, 'cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body, oh my agony.

Know that I will never marry, baby I'm just soggy from the chemo

While countin' down the days to go... It's just eleven, and I just hope you know...

"Bella?" she loked to me and smiled. "Carlisle said there's nothing they can do for you. Except... change you." She seemed confused. "Make you... like us." She looked a little more surpisred. "Would you want that? Would you want to be with us, forever?"

"I love you," she whispered. "So much. I would love to be with you, but you can decide." Her speech was becoming harder for her. She was falling back asleep. "I could understnad why you wouldn't want to change me."

I fell backwards, crashing against the cair, letting the dry sobs escapse. There wouldn't be any choice now. I couldn't let her die. I needed her, wanted her. No matter how much pain we went through now, there would be a life time, infinite happiness to come. This pain would seem insignificant in a few years, months even.

That if you say 'Goodbye' today

I'd ask you to be true.

'Cause the hardest part of this is

Leaving you...

"Edward..." I heard my sister's voice call. Alice opened the door and came in. "Edward, what are you waiting for?"

"Alice, I can't kill her... It's too hard."

"Edward! If you don't, she'll die anyway, and then she'll be gone for everyone!" She was getting closer and closer to me. I pushed myself up off the floor to look down at her angrily.

"Alice, it's because of me she's dying anyway. If I hadn't have let her come out in the snow she wouldn't have gotten this sick, she wouldn't be in this situation!" Alice was glaring at me angrily. I could see her hand flexing. She was trying to keep from slapping me.

"If it wasn't for you she'd be dead twice over." Her voice was laced with fury. "If you hadn't helped her in the snow she would've been more sick and have died already. If you weren't here, she'd be a bloody smear on that parking lot right now so DON'T tell me it is all your fault!" She was breathing in heavily, her face distorted with rage. "I knew this..." she mumbled. Something snapped into place.

"You saw this, didn't you." Her anger melted and she avoided my eyes. "Alice!" I couldn't help but scream at her. Before I realized it I had picked her up by the collar of her shirt. Her feet weren't touching the ground.

"I did, okay? But how was I supposed to know it would happen like this? All I saw was Bella as a vampire. I didn't know it would happen like this." I set her back down. She glared at me again. "Edward, you know I love you, but I love Bella too; we all do. Don't take her away from us, don't deprive her of her only chance. She loves you and would give anything to be with you. If you don't change her, then I will. You can't just let her die! You need her too. If she's not here, then you'll go mad." She put up a good arguement. "If she isn't starting the change in one hour, then me or Carlisle are starting it for you."

Then I was alone. Nothing but Bella's barsh breathing and the rhythmic beeping of the heart monitor. I was alone with my true love, and a decision that was ripping me apart.

'Cause the hardest part of this is

Leaving you.

A/N: Isn't that sad? I particularly like Alice in this bit. I think I did a good job of writing her a displaying how dumb Edward was being through her. Also, Edward over-analyses everything, so I think I wrote him pretty good too! ISNT THAT A GOOD SONG! It's not amazingly long, so you could read it during the story and not be tired of lyrics. and its so sad!!! ugh. The next chaper should be different. It will probably be up tomorrow!

BTW, i have the stry finished! Theres only two chapters left, and thats all! And, I'm too happy about the ending to be sad about this chapter right now:3

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