Bring Me To Life

"What seems like hours...they're minutes...what seems like days...they're only hours...and what seems like a lifetime...can be the end of everything. You can lose your entire world in just a matter of seconds. You have to rethink your world sometimes. Rethink your heart and mind's decisions. I have to rethink...everything...I have to rethink it all...am I crazy? No...I'm sleeping...my blood isn't moving...my heart isn't pumping...I'm sitting at a computer waiting for everything to flow out into a blog that will float around cyberspace for eternity. I'm sitting here...rethinking...while my Casey lies comatose in a hospital bed...the baby inside her is gone, she killed it...she succeeded with the drugs...my other baby...no one knows where he is...and Deb...Deb is sleeping. On my bed. She's sleeping. The only girl in the entire world who, whether I liked it or not sat there and forced me to do something other than the fucked thing I was working on. Deb...my first love...I'm scared...that I might still love her...I'm scared it might be more than my love for Casey...I'm just...scared." With a click of a button, a sigh, and a ding the blog was posted and Derek Venturi signed out of the blog window he'd been so preoccupied with. To be honest he was still an emotional train wreck. The kids were living with Derek's grandparents on his father's side...he never knew his mother...well he'd talked to her on the phone a few times...but...With a jolt he stood up, knocking the chair down, his mother...the lady on the 911 one phone call had sounded so...familiar. "Oh my god..." He said slowly. Reaching for the phone he dialed 911.

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"911, please state your emergency." Abby Transton stated matter-o-factly. Her mind had been down so many different roads in the last two weeks due to a certain 911 call she'd recieved...from her ex-husbands house. Her mind had been racing, her heart beating too fast. Her son...she could swear that was him on the phone, the way his voice was terrified yet commanding, the way it had sounded when he fought with her. Begging her not to leave him, Edwin, and Marti, her begging George for a second chance...apparantly he'd give her too many because soon she was in her '98 firered pinto driving to a shitty apartment clear across town.

"Abby Transton?" The voice on the other line questioned. Abby sucked her breath in as she tracked the call, recognized the number...the voice.

"D..Derek?" She asked shakily. He confirmed. "Oh my god...it's you...my baby..." Derek again confirmed it.

"I need help Mom...I...my girlfriend is comatose, one of my baby's died and the other one ... no one knows where he is or where his mother's mom is...I need help. My heart is a train wreck...my drug addled mind is fucked up...George and Nora...fuck if I know when they're ever coming home...help." He said through racking sobs.

"I'll be there soon baby." She stated hanging up the phone. Grabbing her purse and keys to the old pinto she tossed the dispatch headset to the relief on call and ran to the car. 'dear god Derek...' she thought before climbing into the car and beginning the two hour journey.

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Derek dropped the phone shaking...his mom...Abby...was coming back. Deb had woken up and was leaning against the wall still sitting on his bed.

"Your real mom?" Deb asked slowly "She's coming back?" Deb hadn't seen Derek's mother since she'd left either but had been just as close to her. Which Mrs. Sanchez was pretty pissed about.

"Deb..." He said slowly, getting up and sitting against the wall next to her, taking her hand. "Are you scared?" He asked.

"Of what exactly? The fact that my child and my mother are missing? That the guy I'm still in love with is in love with a girl whose comatose and drugged her unborn child to death and that he might never see me like he did a long time ago? No I'm not scared...I'm terrified." Deb said, tears trickeling down her cheeks. "Do we still know each other like we used to Derek? Is anything still there?" She asked through her tears. Derek sucked in his breath and let it out slowly, putting his fingers beneath her chin and lifting it to his, staring straight into her eyes. Her eyes held something he hadn't seen in so long, not in Corinne (the fling)...not even in Casey (the girl). Only Deb had that for Derek...that look like she knew. Because she did. That look that could see straight through his asshole, player, dickhead disposition...right down to what he really was. And it was scaring him...scaring him that all of it...him and Deb...was still there...still real and incredibly raw...and that all he'd felt for Casey...might not be what he thought it was. His head spun and his heart was too confused.

Wake Me Up "Everything's still there Deb..." Wake me up inside He said before crashing his lips into hers. I can't wake up Her soft pink/brown lips pressing back wake me up inside in a passionate kiss save me that was unreadable. call my name and save me from the dark..no words could describe it wake me up or the emotion in it. bid my blood to run "Everything.." He whispered and pressed his forhead to hers. i can't wake up She nodded, biting her bottom lip. save me from the nothing i've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.

"Derek...I'm...I think I'm still in love with you." -All of this time I can't believe I couldn't see- She said quickly. Tears still trickeling down her cheeks. Derek sucked in a breath and waited for a moment, -Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me- trying his hardest to sort through all the emotions and thoughts in his head. -I've been sleeping 1000 years it seems-Finally coming to a conclusion he stood up, his back to Deb. "Wh..where are you going?" She stuttered quickly. He turned and pulled her up by her hands, pressing his body as close to hers as it could get and kissing her, one hand on her waist the other on her neck. -I've got to open my eyes to everything-Kissing her hard. -Without a voice, without a soul, don't let me die here- And for the first time in all the drama he was caught up in he felt his frozen blood flow again, his icy skin warm again...his real senses waking up again. -there must be something more..bring me to life-

"Deb...I .. fuck... I think...I think I'm in love with you too...I think I always have been..." -Wake me up inside- He said slowly. -I can't wake up- He saw her eyes glance at the picture of Casey and back at him. -Save me..call my name and save me from the dark-"You're waking me up from a dream Deb...but that's because I think when we're together...our reality is better than that...but I'm scared." -Bid my blood to run, before I come undone-She pressed her lips to his before pulling away. -save me from the nothing I've become-

"Ditto Venturi...I think...we'll have to see what happens." The sat on the bed and lay there, doing nothing but holding on to the one thing they had left.

Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie.
There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
Without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.

(All of this sight,
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me)
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
(Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here.
There must be something more).
Bring me to life.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie. There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life