I watched her hold her ground. No one has ever said those words to me before… and held their ground. It was one of the most shocking things I have ever heard. I actually felt bad when she slammed the door and I heard her sobs going down the stairs.
But I would never let anyone know that. I would act angry at school tomorrow. I would say that I broke up with her and she stormed off crying. Yeah… that'll make it better.
What if the truth gets out? No. That'll never happen. I'll make sure of that. Everyone knew I cheated on her. Everyone knew I really loved Kikyo. They never told her or her group though. They kept it silent because they thought that the balance could never be broken. They think that all of the popular groups should be tied together by me and it doesn't matter how it happens… it doesn't matter how many hearts are broken or faces are punched in for it.
The balance has to stay.
Hmp. So… I'll pretend like nothings wrong. Kagome knows that the balance has to stay in tact. She would never break that. She'll keep pretending to be my girlfriend. She'll keep fawning. She always does. She probably knew deep down in her heart that I was sleeping with Kikyo. She probably knew that I was cheating on her. But, she loves me too much and she defiantly wants to keep that balance. She wants Shikon High to stay the way it has been for the past four years. Balanced.
She wants to have the perfect world. Oh what the hell…
I let me body fall limp onto my bed and put my arms under my head.
Tomorrow is going to be one of the hardest days of my life.
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I packed up my backpack after getting my homework wet with my tears. Tonight was the hardest thing I've ever done. I've never been that strong since my father was alive. I've never screamed harder than I did when I heard Daddy burned in the fire… I never hurt as much as I did when I found out he was gone. I was never strong until now and I have to say… I'm glad I did what I did tonight. I actually think that my father was with me tonight giving me the strength to scream my heart out and be strong and determined. I'm not weak anymore and tomorrow everyone will see that. I know that he cheated on me all of the time but I needed comfort and security. I know that it was with that slut Kikyo. I know that nobody told me because they had to keep the "balance". That is just bull. I'll show them balance. Now they will see the truth in everything. They will see that Inuyasha and I are no more. We are now officially over… for good.