Still not JKR, still femmeslash.

Here's where it starts to go AU a bit. This story is my way of figuring out what I want/wanted so I am forever grateful to all reviewers.

Previous chapters were what actually happened to me, the following are what I should've done or want to do.

Thanks for reading, please R&R,

All my love, Kate G-P xxx

I hate the ebb and flow

The peak and trough

The ups and down

I've journeyed wide

Realised my dream

But what comes next

When nothing can prepare you for life

You rise and fall

Have highs and lows

But why?

Don't I deserve to be happy?

I hate change

But life wouldn't be worth living without it

Yes I've journeyed far

Seen a million things

There's just one that eludes me

And I can't do it on my own

My fear consumes me

and I don't know why

I'm screamed at to grow up

Am I ready?

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thud

Oww! Falling onto a stone floor from 10 feet up, not a good idea!

After my head stopped spinning and those weird cartoon bells, birds and stars went away I figured I was in the great hall. But when? I hope I haven't gone too far back…

19th August 2004…….not bad! Ok…….I'm at Grimauld Place now…..with her! This is great! I'll apparate.

With a pop I was there. The same walls, the same time and the same place I first realised my love for Hermione. Fighting back nerves I crept to the library and slipped the note between the pages of my favourite book , little women, where I knew I'd find It later……..hold on………..i feel weird…………………

Aug 20th 2004

Whoa! What the hell is this………….

Ginny

This is the most odd letter I've ever written so I'm just going to say it. Fight for Hermione. I know you're scared and you probably should be just go for it. Kiss her! don't let her back out. She's just as scared and worried about everything as you are. Don't hold back. Tell her everything. I can't tell you too much but you'll ALWAYS regret it if you don't. She likes you. She's confused about how much but if you show her how happy you can make her she'll come around. WATCH OUT FOR SNAPE THIS YEAR!! Do not trust him, not even because Dumbledore does OR because he's in the Order. He's still a death-eater at his core and will betray everyone.

You don't know what they are yet but the missing Horcrux is Riddle's grave. Slytherin's Locket is being protected by Snape. The Malfoy's have Hufflepuff's Cup in their safe at Gringotts. Bill will be able to get this for you. He'll just take some persuading. Dumbledore knows where the others are.

I hope life will be kinder to you than it was to me.

GW

Hermione what?! How does this GW know about any of that?

This is just ridiculous, Hermione would never……..

Fight for her? I don't know how.

She's gonna be here any minute. And she says she wants to kiss me. Just for practise apparently. Maybe there is something there. I can't be that bad to look at can I?

I have this really weird feeling like something huge is about to happen.

--

there she is, more beautiful than ever, the summer's been good to her

"hi" is all I can muster in her presence

"hi! Look, uh, Ginny, about that whole 'kiss' thing, I'm not really sur…."

I did it! I did it!

She pulled apart from me, shock on her face then grabbed me and kissed me back!

Wow, I've never felt anything so soft, so wonderful, so sexy before!

I love her. Really love her. Not a crush, not a whim, not a 'she's quite fit', I love her and this is going to be the start of something wonderful…until everyone finds out.