Meredith's Birthday continued…

Derek took Meredith to Serendipity for her birthday lunch. It was one of her favorite places to eat in both summer and winter. But now, it was spring and Meredith was enjoying her Chicken Club Sandwich and lemon ice tea. Derek had taken her to get her hair highlighted and to get her nails done. After lunch he was going to take her to see a movie and then they would go back to her apartment to celebrate. Izzie was busy getting ready and then all of their friends were going to come.

"Are you alright?" Derek asked as Meredith ate. She had been grateful, but mainly kept quiet.

"I'm fine, so please stop worrying." She said as she smiled. "I'm having a great time."

"Okay." Derek replied back.

Meredith kindly smiled back. "Was the sex that bad earlier? I'm sorry; I must be a little tired."

"Meredith, the sex was fine. I'm just worried about you." Derek said as he signed for their bill.

Meredith stood up and pulled him closer. She kissed him gently, "Thanks for lunch."

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After the birthday party Alex Karev and Burke sat and watched the game, then Alex left when his team lost. Callie and George O'Malley left shortly after cake and Miranda had to return to the Bakery. Izzie did the crossword puzzle.

Christina was on her way home with Burke and the kids. "Alright, well let me run them home and I will get dressed. I'll come right back here and then we will go to Club Inspire"

"Deal." Meredith said as she closed the door behind her friend.

Meredith walked into her bedroom to find Derek lying on the bed.

"So, are you going to get ready to go out tonight?" Derek asked as he sat up.

"Yea, I'm going to shower." Meredith walked into her restroom. She showered then blow-dried her hair.

Derek came into the restroom as Meredith stood in her red terrycloth robe. He pushed his hair to one side of her and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I love you. You know that right?"

"Yes and I love you too. Now, please just let me get dressed." She said with a giggle.

Derek patted her on the butt, and then left her alone.

She took a deep breath and began curling the ends of her hair. She did her make up and put shimmer lotion on her skin.

"Meredith come one!" Izzie yelled from the other room. "Christina and I have been waiting forever."

"I'm coming!" Meredith slid on her strapless shirt and jeans, and then slid on a black pair of pumps.

Derek drove Meredith, Izzie and Christina to the club. "Give me a call when you feel like your having too much fun. That should be the sign that you need me to come get you."

"Ha-ha. I love you and thank you for driving." Meredith kissed him through the car window then turned around.

They walked up to the bar of the club and Christina spoke, "Okay first shot of the night is to the birthday girl."

"Tequila!" Izzie yelled.

"Over the next hour and half Meredith had consumed eight shots of tequila and two rum and diet cokes.

Izzie and Christina were tipsy, but they watched as Meredith consumed a lot of tequila.

"Hey Meredith, don't you think you have had enough?" Izzie asked as Meredith took her ninth shot.

"I'm so fine." Meredith said as she stumbled and walked away from the bar. "This bar sucks."

"Derek's on his way sweetie." Izzie said as she held Meredith by the arm.

"I'm so over this place." Meredith said as she kicked the floor.

"No, I'm pretty sure you're enjoying." Christina chimed in as Meredith took a drink out of some random guys hand and drank it.

"Leave me alone." Meredith said.

They waited outside for ten minutes, and then Derek's black SUV pulled up. "Hey hop in."

"Hey baby." Meredith said while she kissed him and Izzie pulled her back to put her seatbelt on.

"Meredith sit still damn it." Izzie said.

"Fine." Meredith sat down. Suddenly Meredith began to cry. "Oh Finn called me."

"Yea, Izzie what happened between Meredith and Finn?" Derek asked.

"I don't know she never told me." Izzie said.

Meredith started crying. "I'll tell you why."

Izzie turned to Meredith, "Really?"

Christina looked at her, "Are you crying?"

Derek parked in front of the Meredith and Izzie's apartment. He came around and helped Meredith out.

She pulled her arms away and threw her clutch at Derek, "You want to know why? Why he hates me so much."

"Meredith you don't have..." Derek said as Meredith interrupted him.

"I got pregnant." Meredith said through her tears.

"What?" Christina and Izzie said in unison.

"Yeah, and he wanted to keep it a secret and surprise his family at the Fourth of July picnic. But a week before, I miscarried. I was thrilled to be pregnant and he was too. But then I miscarried and the doctor's said it happened. I was healthy and I don't have any issues. But that baby didn't stick. Then I miscarried and it all fell apart."

"Oh Meredith." Izzie said.

Derek watched in sadness as his girlfriend sobbed.

"I had miscarriage with his baby and then he looked at me like I was a horrible disgusting person. He acted like it was fine, like he felt bad. But then he told his mom over the phone with me in the room that I got pregnant and had my child aborted." Meredith was gasping for air in between talking as the tears tasted salty on her lips. "It gets better, don't worry." Meredith put her hand up. "Then he started to see her. Another woman and now he is getting married."

"Meredith, I'm so sorry." Christina said.

"Derek," Izzie said.

"He's marrying her because for the last two months that he was with me, he couldn't even look at me. He had the nerve to cheat on me with her. It's not even the girl he is marrying."

"Meredith?" Izzie chimed in.

"What about the bruises on your arm the night after you broke up with Finn?" Izzie asked.

"Izzie." Christina interrupted.

"Those weren't from working out were they?" Izzie asked.

"He said I got it easy. Less than what he deserved to give me." Meredith wasn't sure if she made since. "I deserved it."

"No you didn't." Izzie said.

Meredith went and sat on the stoop of her apartment and began to sob. Derek walked over and held her in his arms. Christina and Izzie went and sat around her, rubbing her back. All three looked at each other as Meredith sat crying. None of them were expecting the answer; they had waited so long to hear.

Derek looked at Izzie and Christina. They all had tears in their eyes as Meredith sobbed on the stairs of her apartment building. By now, the tipsiness that Izzie and Christina were once feeling was gone and replaced with worry.

Meredith was drunk and crying. But she was crying, because she felt pain.

Izzie stood up, "Meredith, how about we go inside."

Meredith was still crying into Derek's shoulder as she carried her into the building. He felt angry. Angry, because the woman he loved was in so much pain. He kissed her head.

"I can walk." Derek lowered Meredith as she spoke. She got down and stumbled onto the elevator. "I'm never good enough!"

"Meredith, you are good enough. You are more than good." Derek said.

"No Derek, I wasn't good enough for my father, my mother or Finn!" Meredith stepped off the elevator. "Izzie open the doors with your key!!!"

"I've got it Mer." Izzie said.

"Thanks Bitch!" Meredith said. "Haha…I said thanks bitch."

Izzie smiled, "You are funny."

"Meredith, Burke is here, so I have to go." She hugged her friend, then looked up at Derek. "Please take care of her."

"Hey Christina, do you think you and Burke could give me a ride to Denny's. I texted him and told him I was staying there. I think Meredith needs to be alone with Derek." Izzie said as she walked inside.

"Sure." Christina walked in as Izzie went to get her things. She looked at Derek. "Call us if you need anything. She had a lot to drink, so she isn't going to feel good tomorrow."

"Thanks Christina and Izzie." Derek nodded.

A few minutes later Izzie and Christina left. Meredith was crying on her bed, when Derek walked in with a glass of water. He sat next to Meredith and stroked her cheek. "Meredith Ellen Grey, don't you ever say you aren't good enough for me. You're perfect for me."

"Derek, I'm screwed up and Finn was right." Meredith said through her tears.

"No, he wasn't. Finn was an Ass." He pulled Meredith in for a kiss. "Meredith you are beautiful, sexy, smart and everything great. I met and fell in love you with seven months ago. I don't want anyone else."

"Really?" Meredith said.

Derek smiled. "Yes, I don't plan on finding anyone else. You're the only one I want Meredith."

"I want a baby Derek." Meredith said through her tears. "I want you."

Derek kissed her. "Lets focus on you sobering up before we make a life altering decision."

Meredith burst into tears again. "You don't want me."

"Shhh, baby yes I do. I just think you're drunk." Derek pulled her closer. "We'll figure the baby thing out later."

"Okay." Meredith sat up quickly.

"What's wrong baby?" Derek said as he rubbed her back.

"I'm going to be sick." Meredith ran to the bathroom and emptied the contents of her stomach. "Eww it tasted like tequila."

Derek came in and held her hair back and wiped her face with a wet cloth as she threw-up. "Baby, you've stopped getting sick. Why don't you get into something more comfortable and go to bed."

"Fine." Meredith stood up and went to the sink to wash her hands. She stumbled around Derek to get out. "Derek help me."

Derek walked into Meredith's bedroom to find her struggling with taking her strapless top off. "Lift up."

"You're so strict." Meredith whined. She lifted her arms up and Derek slid the top over her head. She struggled with the button on her jeans so Derek helped her. She wrapped her arms around him and had a goofy drunken smile on her face.. "Do you want to make a baby right now? We could make sexy dreamy drunkkkeeeennn babie's. Get me pregnant, please." Meredith began to tear up again. I promise I'll be careful. I want one. I promise to be careful. I didn't mean to let the first baby get away. "

"Meredith, don't blame yourself for your miscarriage. It happens." Derek said sadly.

"I just want a baby Derek. I want a baby with you. Please just get me pregnant." Meredith begged and it broke his heart.

I could kill Finn. He messed her up and now she blames herself for the miscarriage and everything that happened. But I can't give in while she is drunk off her ass and get her pregnant.

"Mer baby, I would love you. Because nothing makes me happier then the thought of starting a family with you, but you're too drunk to think right now." Derek stated as he took her over to the bed. "Now do you want to sleep in just your panties or do you want to put pajama's on?"

Meredith moaned. "I want to sleep in just my panties."

Derek smiled. "Okay."

Meredith got under the covers and took a sip of water. "Derek, will you stay with me tonight?"

Derek hadn't planned on spending the night anywhere else, so he said, "Of course Meredith."

She kissed his cheek then laughed. "I'm shitfaced."

"That you are." Derek laughed. He kissed her on the lips. "Happy Birthday Meredith Grey."

"I love you Dr. Derekkkk Shepherd." Meredith said slurring her words like she had all night."

They slept soundly in each other's arms.

The next morning Meredith woke up to the feeling of Derek's lips on hers. Suddenly when she opened her eyes she was hit with a piercing headache. "Oh damn it."

"I figured you would have a hangover from hell." Derek said as he handed her and aspirin and water.

Meredith sat up and took the water and swallowed the aspirin. "How bad was I last night?"

"How much do you remember?" Derek asked.

"I pretty much just remember taking my third shot. After that I couldn't tell you anything. Did I throw up?"

"Yea you did. You don't remember anything?" Derek asked.

"Nope, I didn't do anything stupid did I?" She asked in a concerned tone.

"No." Derek smiled as he realized she didn't remember everything she admitted last night. He made a mental note to tell Izzie and Christina that she didn't remember it. For now, they needed to avoid talking about it with her.

"This is the worst hangover Derek." She dug her head into the pillow.

"I'm sorry Meredith."

"I would feel better if you would lay with me." Meredith held her hand out.

"Alright." He smiled and wrapped his arms around her. "I love you."

"I love you too." She said as he smelled her hair.

Eventually Derek knew that Meredith would need to talk about what happened with Finn. It needed to happen when she was not under the influence of alcohol. She needed to know that the people who love her the most, knew what had happened.

Meredith woke up from her post-hangover nap a few hours later. She felt a hand dancing on her stomach. "Derek, why are you running your fingers along my stomach?"

Derek smiled. "No reason."

"Okay." Meredith smiled.

"Do you want a baby?" He asked bluntly. He felt like it was almost word vomit. He just spit it out, but now he wanted to know her answer.

"Why do you ask that?" Meredith questioned as she sat up and grabbed a t-shirt from her drawer. "Did I say something in my sleep?"

"Answer my question first. Do you want a baby?" Derek said with his dreamy smile.

"Yes." Meredith said back trying to hide her grin and the light in her eyes. "I want a baby."

"Really?" Derek asked. "When?"

"I don't know. I guess when the time is right, but Derek…"Meredith said nervously.

"I know Meredith." Derek interrupted. "Izzie, Christina and I know."

"I told you about the baby didn't I?" Meredith said as she put her head down. She looked up with tears in her eyes. "How much did I say?"

"We know Finn hurt you, we know about the affair he had and we know that you had a miscarriage with a baby that you wanted." Derek said as he took her hand in his. "Meredith, are you alright?"

"Yea, I am." She said as she leaned her head against his shoulder. She let out a cry, "I wanted that baby really bad."

"I know." Derek hugged her tighter. "You did the best you could."

"I was three and half months along." Meredith said. "I had a small bump and I was going to break the news to my friends that afternoon. I was going to tell them, to avoid telling Finn. He wanted to tell his family first at a get together."

"I'm sorry Meredith." He squeezed her hand and kissed her forehead.

"I went to the bathroom and that's when I knew." Meredith looked up at Derek. "I called Finn at work and he couldn't come. So I went to the hospital alone and they told me."

Derek kissed her head again.
I can't believe my Meri, went through this.

"They sat there is nothing permanently wrong with me." Meredith said. "So please don't leave because you think I might miscarry again."

"Meredith, I am not leaving you." He kissed her on the lips. "I'm going to be with you through everything along the way. I promise."

"Okay, but Derek?"

"Yes Baby?"

"I think we should think about the baby thing." Meredith said. "We should think about whether or not we are ready."

"I think so too." Derek kissed her head. "But I have a question, would you rather be married?"

Meredith sighed, "I did the engaged thing. I mean, I just don't know. I think we could possibly get married one day, but I don't know if I need it to be before the baby. But I mean we've only been together eight months, we should wait a little bit of time before we make a choice on either ones of those."

"I think you're right." Derek smiled.

"But Derek, I don't want a baby with anyone else." Meredith said as she kissed him.

"Meredith, do you want to know the first time I thought about a baby with you?" Derek asked.

"When?" Meredith asked with a smile on her face.

"I knew the day I brought you all of the flowers, when you opened that door. You walked around the apartment holding Sadie on your hip and I knew. I knew that I wanted you and only you." Derek leaned over and kissed her passionately. "You're more than good enough Meredith."

Meredith smiled, "But I was a mess that day. I even had baby food smashed into my hair and shirt."

"To this day, I find it hard to believe you could get any sexier. I think the moment I see you with our baby, I won't be able to handle just how sexy you are." Derek kissed her again.

"Get me pregnant."

Derek almost choked. "Excuse me."

"You heard me." Meredith said as she straddled Derek. "This week we can practice. We'll keep practicing until we decide we are ready to get serious."

"That sounds like a plan." Derek pulled Meredith on top of him.

"Am I sensing that someone might want to practice?" Meredith giggled.

"No, I am just a man who wants to make love to the most beautiful woman in the world." Derek kissed her. He then whispered in her ear. "Do you want to take a big step?"

"What would that be?" Meredith asked.

"Come out to the suburbs with me. Meet my mother and sisters." Derek said.

"Really?" Meredith asked.

"I want them to meet you." Derek said. "I want them to meet the mother of my children.

Meredith smiled and bit her lip. The thought of meeting parents never sat well with her. It made her nervous. Meredith always worried about the impression she left on people the first time she met them. The first time she met Finn's parents, she knew that his mother never liked her. Honestly, she hated Finn's mom. But she loved Derek and wanted to be happy. "Okay."

Derek began kissing her neck and massaging her breasts. "Derek?"

"Yes?" He answered as he found a spot he wanted to become dedicated to on her neck.

"Since we are talking about babies can I be honest?" Meredith began to wonder.

"Yes, what is it?" He said as he moved a piece of hair out of the way.

"Remember when we had sex on the kitchen table a few months ago?" Meredith asked.

Derek stopped what he was doing and laughed, "Yes I do, why?"

"Well, around three weeks after that happened, I noticed my period was a little late. But I took a test and it was negative." Meredith said. "Are you made?"

Derek smiled, "No, but the idea of you even needing a test makes me excited."

Meredith laughed. "Well I was a little relieved , because we were still new to the dating."

"Yea."

"But now, I can't wait to tell you the moment I need to take a test. I want that excitement of waiting with you." Meredith said as she entangled her fingers with his. "We can have baby Meredith and Derek's walking around."

"It will be great Meredith." He kissed her passionately as one of the left over curls fell in her face. "But Meredith, I have two nieces and two nephews and I have never changed a diaper."

Meredith laughed, "I'll show you how." She kissed his lips. "After our baby is born."

They were comfortable with the decision they made. They were waiting a little while and wanted to see how things went. Derek couldn't have been more thrilled. "Okay. Oh and Meredith can I ask you something unofficially?"

"Yes?" Meredith said. "Unofficially."

"Will you marry me?" He asked. "Unofficially."

Meredith smiled and a tear fell from her cheek. "Yes."

They made love to each other and when they finished Meredith said, "Hey, so you feel like playing house?"

"What do you mean?" Derek asked.

"Well, I told Christina the girls could stay here this weekend. Izzie is going to Denver with Denny and Christina and Burke have their anniversary. So the girls will spend Friday evening through Saturday morning with me." She kissed his lips. "We could play house."

Derek kissed her soft lips. "House sounds fun. Do the Mommy and Daddy get to have a naughty roughhousing play date?"

Meredith laughed through the kiss, "If we find a quiet way to do it, while they are sleeping."

"That might be hard." Derek said as he nibbled at her ear. "I might need Mommy to punish me. Punshing me is sometimes loud."

Meredith laughed. "You're weird."

Derek laughed, "You love me."

"I know I do." Meredith wrapped her arms around him, so that their naked bodies we're touching. She just stared into his eyes and said. "I love you."

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