t had been almost a month since Meredith and Derek had become engaged and began to try. They told their friends about the engagement, but felt they should keep their trying for a baby under wraps.

Meredith and Derek had fun trying for a baby. They tried anywhere and anytime they could. The tried in the bed, kitchen, car, the hotel they stayed in when they went to Chicago for a medical conference Derek had to attend and they even tried in a dressing room at a Target in Lower Manhattan. Needless to say, they couldn't go back there.

Meredith was supposed to go meet his mother and sisters in a week, because last time she was supposed to go his mother came down with the flu. So, now she was nervous. Meredith was nervous about meeting his mother and getting pregnant. She and Derek agreed not to get stressed over getting pregnant, but she couldn't help it.

When Meredith woke up she looked at the calendar. Her period was a week and a half late. She knew it would be the perfect time to take a test.

please let this be it.

Meredith walked to the drugstore that sat on the corner of her street. She walked in under the big Walgreens sign and headed straight to the feminine needs department. She looked at all of the options and it scared her. Back when she had found out she was pregnant with Finn's baby, she had gotten really sick and the doctor took blood to find out. She was new to the pregnancy test experience. She finally settled on an E.PT and took it to the clerk. The clear was an older woman who smiled when Meredith handed her the test. She put it in a bad and sent Meredith on her way.

Meredith knew that Derek was on his way over to her place, so she rushed back home. She sat the bag on the counter and nervously waited for Derek to come. She heard him come in and she walked to greet him with a kiss. "Hey."

"Hey you." He instantly took notice of how happy Meredith seemed. "What has you so happy?"

Meredith smiled and spoke, "I bought a test."

Derek took a deep breath and smiled. "Really?"

Meredith nodded, "Yes."

"You want to go take it?" He asked.

"Yea I do." Meredith said as she walked into her restroom.

"I'll be sitting out here." Derek said as he sat on the bed.
Please let this be positive.
Meredith sat in the restroom as she read the directions to her self then urinated on the stick. She washed her hands and came out with the directions. She handed them to Derek.

"We wait three minutes." He read from the small paper.

They sat in silence as they waited. They knew that their lives could change in three minutes.

The longest three minutes ever.

Derek looked at his watch. "Meredith, its time."

Meredith looked at Derek then at the door to the restroom. She had become so nervous that her body shook. "Okay."

She walked into the restroom and retrieved the stick. She came back and showed it to Derek.

"Okay, well let me see." Derek said as he read the directions. "Okay two pink lines is positive and one blue line is negative." He looked at Meredith then at the stick. He took a deep breath. "We have one blue line."

Meredith took a deep breath, "Oh well. We'll try again."

Damn

Derek watched as Meredith took the directions and the stick. She went into the bathroom to clean up.

She took that well.

A moment later Derek decided he should go check on Meredith. He walked in to find her tearing up the directions to the E.P.T. "Meredith?"

"What?" She asked fighting back tears. She looked up at him. "I really wanted it to be positive."

"I know." Derek said as he took her into his arms. "I did too."

"I'm sorry Derek." Meredith said as she began to cry.

"Why are you sorry?" Derek asked. He was worried that she was going to beat herself up over this.

"I just, I can't seem to get it right, you know?" Meredith said as she looked down. " I mean I've lost a baby already Derek. I'm not pregnant this time, what if this is a trend. I just.." Meredith began to cry.

"You're doctor told you that you were healthy and everything was in working order Meredith. What happened to you last time was just an accident. There was no explanation as to why. This time, the test was negative. The next test and the test after that might be. That's why it is called trying." He kissed her forehead. "We'll make this happen Meredith."

She smiled weakly and wiped away a tear, "You're not mad?"

"No Meredith, why would I be? I could never ever be mad over this." He kissed her lips. "We are in this together."

"Okay." She said as she calmed down.

"Besides, this just means we get to try some more." He kissed her lips passionately and tasted her salty tears. "The trying is fun, we like trying."

"We do like trying." She laughed through her tears. He hugged her as she continued to cry. She knew that everything would be okay, but she still cried. She stayed in his arms, "Why me?" She asked.

why did Derek choose to love me? Why did it happen

"Because I love you and you're the one my heart belongs to Meredith." He laid back on the bed with her, "You're going to get pregnant Meredith. I can feel it, but it might just take some time."

"I'll try and be patient." She said as she rested her head on his chest.

Maybe next time.