It had been almost three hours the gunshot had been heard and Derek felt like it had been ages.

"Dr. Shepherd?" The nurse repeated. "I'm here to update you."

"I don't even know what to ask." Derek said to Burke. "Meredith? What happened?"

"She's still unconscious." The nurse said. "The doctors looked her over and they think she is going to be just fine, when she wakes up."

"If she wakes up?" Derek asked in fear of hearing the answer.

"Yes."

"Where did he shoot her?" Derek wanted to know.

"He didn't. As he was getting ready to shoot, one of my men had to take him out." The cop said as he walked up behind the nurse.

"What did he do to her?" Burke asked. He wasn't quite sure how she was injured.

"He knocked her out with the gun. It looks as if he was planning on…" The cop was interrupted.

"He was trying to rape her wasn't he?" Derek asked with fear.

"I'm sorry sir, yes he was. It looks as if she began to wake up and he hit her with the gun a second time." The cop said.

"And the baby?" Derek asked again. "She's pregnant. She's about three months along.

Oh the baby...please.

"There is a strong fetal heart rate. So if she wakes up soon, the baby should stay fine." The nurse said, "If you follow me you can see her."

Derek didn't say anything and just followed the nurse. He had walked the halls of the hospital a thousand times before, but they seemed so unfamiliar at the moment. When the nurse stopped he walked into a hospital room, where another nurse whom he recognized was monitoring Meredith. The nurse looked up, "I'll leave you two alone."

As the nurse walked out Derek walked a little closer to her bed. She looked so small and fragile lying under the white covers. Derek saw the stitches on her head, they were so close to her hairline, but luckily they didn't have to shave her head.

"Mer, its me." Derek kissed the other side of her head. She didn't move or flinch. Derek was a doctor, but he felt so hopeless. The love of his life was lying in front of him and she wouldn't wake up. Derek removed his shoes and carefully slid into bed with her. He made sure not to touch the area where she was in pain. He kissed her again as he put his hand lightly on her stomach. "Meredith, I'm here. "

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"Okay Pinkie, I know what happened was scary and hurtful, but please wake up. He's gone and he can't hurt you." Derek kissed her cheek. "Meredith the baby is fine. You know what kind of miracle it is? The baby is healthy and you're going to be alright if you could just wake up. Meri please wake up." He kissed her again. "Meredith I love you. I love you more than anything in this world. You and our baby, you're it for me. I just.." Derek began to tear up, "Meredith, its crucial that you wake up in the next twenty four hours. You're fine right now, but its not good for you or the baby if you don't wake up soon and I can't live without you. If you're not here then I have no reason to be, so please wake up Baby."

Derek rested his head on the pillow and rubbed her stomach as he fell asleep. The fellow Doctors must have come in and out over a few hours, because when Derek woke up, the sun was beginning to go down. He looked at Meredith's face. She was still out the same way she was before he fell asleep. He kissed her cheek.

Please wake up Meredith.

He stroked her hair and a little while later he heard her mumble a few words. "Meredith?"

'Mmmmph Der…." She mumbled and Derek couldn't catch any of it. She began to cry as she moved her head but kept her eyes closed.

"Meredith, you're okay, you're alright." Derek said as he stroked her hair and held her closer. "Its okay shhhh it's okay."

"Derek…" She slowly opened her eyes and realized the pain in her head and began to calmly cry. "Ouch it hurts."

"I know, but you can't take anything." Derek said. "That's the downside of being pregnant."

"Is the baby okay?" Meredith asked weakly.

"The baby is just fine." Derek kissed her cheek. "I love you."

"I love you too." Meredith returned to keeping her eyes closed, because it hurt less. "I want to go back to sleep."

Derek kissed her head. The doctor in the doorway came in and examined Meredith. She fell back to sleep shortly after and Derek stayed with her. He at the moment, didn't want Meredith out of his sight.

Thank you for letting me keep my Meredith.

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Meredith had been in New York General Hospital for four days. The doctors were waiting to release her until she could keep feed down, which was hard with the morning sickness. So they had to be sure that she was better by marking what time of day she got sick, so than they could tell if she was improving.

Christina and Izzie sat and watched as their friend slept. They had gone to see her everyday and tool her presents. The flowers that people sent were all over the room and there were plenty of sweet treats from the bakery.

Meredith slowly woke up, "Why does everyone stare at me until I wake up now?"

"Good morning." Izzie said with a smile.

"How are you feeling?" Christina asked as she handed Meredith some orange juice.

"I still have a headache the size of the Snoopy float in the Thanksgiving Parade." Meredith said as she took a sip. "But that's okay."

Izzie smiled. "So guess what?"

"Yea?" Meredith asked.

"You get to go home today." She answered with a smile. "Christina and I are going to help get you all packed up, then we will take your stuff to your house, then Derek is going to take you home after he finish's with his surgery."

"Thank god. I am so sick of being here." Meredith sat up in the bed. "I just want my stuff and my bed."

"Oh yea, I know that feeling." Christina said. "Although by the time you get to the third kid it becomes more like a resort stay."

Izzie laughed and Meredith smiled. Izzie began packing up some of the gifts that people had brought Meredith.

"Hey there beautiful." Derek said as he walked into the room and kissed her gently on the cheek. "How are you feeling?

"Fine." Meredith took her covers off and Derek helped her stand up. She put her arms around him.

Derek kissed her head, "I better get into surgery. They only need me in there to protect the spine, so we should be out of here soon."

"Okay." Meredith repeated back.

Derek kissed her one last time. "Izzie, Christina are you two sure that you can get it back to the apartment?"

"Yea." Izzie answered, "Derek, Chris and I will be there for a while, but I am going to sleep at Denny's. Unless you need me."

"No, I think we'll be alright." Derek replied back.

A little while later Izzie and Christina left. Meredith sat in the hospital room with the last of her things. Izzie brought her a change of clothing and she put on her yoga pants and a light jacket. She didn't know what made her do it, but she wandered out of the room. Nobody stopped her, because by this point they figured she just needed to get out of the room. She walked passed the nurses station and stared at a door. It was the door to the room where Finn Dandridge died. The door to the room where Finn Dandridge held her captive and put a gun to her head.

"Finn, please just stop."

"If I can't have you then, I am going to kill you."

"Stop it please."

Meredith closed her eyes as she tried to get the images out of her head. But it didn't seem like they were going anywhere. It was closed and she thought about going to look, but she heard a voice behind her.

"Hey, you ready to go home?" Derek asked as he walked up to her. She didn't respond, "Meredith?"

Meredith snapped back into reality, "Oh yea, lets go home."

"Honey, stop looking at the door." Derek turned her around. "You'll feel better if you don't."

"Right." Meredith said as she began to walk with Derek. She held onto his arm, because she was still weak from being in bed so much.

Meredith walked away praying that the images would leave her head, but it just seemed as if they were haunting her.

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