Meredith woke up the next morning with a feeling, a really good feeling. Meredith liked and missed this feeling. She looked over at Derek who was still asleep.

I have to have him now.

Meredith began kissing Derek's neck. "Wake up."

Derek's eyes fluttered, "Go back to bed Meredith."

"Why?"

"Because I want to sleep, but I want you to lay with me." Derek said.

"Mmm….what I want to do could involve lying down." She whispered seductively as she began to lower his boxers. She pulled the covers off of him and took her top off. She began kissing his neck as he moaned. "That's right."

"Meredith…No..." He lifted his pants and pulled her off of him. "No sex."

"Why not?" She giggled and went to stroke him, but he stopped her with his hand.

"None."

"And I asked why not." Meredith stated.

"Because, we are not having sex. No sex until you talk about what happened." Derek said as he sat up.

"Excuse me." Meredith crossed her arms.

"You heard me. You had trouble even kissing me and now you again are acting like nothing happened." Derek reached for her arms, but she pulled away. "Meredith."

"No sex?" Meredith asked.

"No sex." Derek knew it would be hard, but he was determined to stick by what he said.

"Are you seriously going to do this?" Meredith became pissed. "What happened to leaving me alone about this?"

"Meredith, I was going to stop asking. But you need to talk to someone." Derek said. "I'm worried about you."

"This trip was about enjoying ourselves." Meredith said as she became more annoyed.

"This trip was also about no sex." Derek repeated.

"We talked and I closed my eyes." Meredith begged. She leaned down, "Now I want sex."

"Meredith…"

"I want passionate, kinky, dirty sex Derek." Meredith said as she bit his lip. Derek pushed her off of him again. "Do you get that I am trying to get sex? I am going to give you sex."

"No Meredith, I am serious. I don't care how much you beg or turn me on. No sex." Derek said.

"You realize that if this is really over me not talking, then we are officially fighting." Meredith said. "I talked last night babe."

"You need to talk more." Derek said.

"Fine." Meredith stood up and acted like she was okay with it.

"I'm glad you see it my way." Derek said as he crossed his arms.

"Yea." Meredith said with a smile.

"Care to talk now?" Derek asked.

This was so easy, she is going to open up.

"Nope." She got back on the bed. "I'm a little hot." She began running her hands all over her body until she reached her panties. She stuck her hand down there and began rubbing.

"It's not working." Derek said quickly.

"Fine." Meredith said as she stood up.

Damn it.

"Unless you want to talk." Derek said with his McDreamy ego smile.

"We're not speaking." Meredith replied as she stood up and walked into the restroom.

I'll get him to break sooner or later.

Meredith stood in the restroom. She looked in the mirror at herself. She had slept well the night before, but she still looked tired. She went weeks without sleeping a full night. Derek had been there for her. He had been great, but she needed him.

I don't need to talk

Meredith put some lip gloss then walked back into the bedroom.

"Ready to talk?" Derek asked with a cocky smile.

Meredith walked to her bag and grabbed her magazine, then left the room.

"Meredith where are you going?" Derek asked suddenly realizing that she still didn't have a top on. He got up from the bed and followed her to the hallway. "Meredith, just come talk please." He stopped for a moment hoping that she would stop.

Meredith rolled her eyes and went to the back door. She opened it and walked up to the beach.

"Meredith!" Derek shouted as he ran over to her. "What the hell are you doing?"

Meredith didn't say anything. Instead, she sat down and opened her book.

"Meredith, get inside." Derek said as he crossed his arms with a smile.

Meredith looked up then back to her book.

Two can play this game. He isn't going to win.

"Meredith are you listening to me?" Derek asked again. "I said go inside."

Meredith looked up from her book, "In case you haven't noticed, I am not a child. You don't get to tell me what to do."

"I thought you liked it when I get bossy." Derek said as he scooped her into his arms.

"Derek stop it." Meredith said. "You're so annoying."

"I'm annoying?" Derek asked. He began kissing her neck as he walked up the steps on the beach house. "Is this annoying?"

"I don't know. Do I get sex?" Meredith moaned.

"Nope." Derek said as he lowered her to the ground.

"Then yes, it is very annoying." Meredith responded. Meredith walked back into the bedroom and went to her overnight bag. "I want to go home."

"Meredith if you just…" Derek spoke until she cut him off.

"Stop it Derek, seriously." Meredith shouted. "I'm not going to talk about it. I'm so sick and tired of being asked by everyone about it."

"Meredith.."

"No, lets just go home." Meredith walked into the bathroom with her stuff and shut the door.

"Fine." Derek said softly.

I can't give in to her yet.

Derek packed up the car, while Meredith finished getting ready. As they drove Derek spoke, "Do you want to stop and get breakfast?"

"Nope." Meredith spoke.

"Meredith you haven't eaten yet." Derek was just worried about her. "You need to eat."

"I will when I get home." Meredith spoke. "Let me worry about it. I'm a big girl."

"I know you are a big girl Meredith." Derek said. "But you experienced something traumatic. You need to be able to talk about it, before you jump into things. I mean just a few days you cried when I tried to shower with you."

"I thought this was about me eating breakfast." Meredith stated.

"It's about a lot more than that." Derek replied. "Meredith just talk about it."

"No."

"Yes."

"Derek shut up!" Meredith shouted. "I'm not speaking to you."

"You said that earlier." Derek commented.

She's so cute when she's annoyed.

"Well, I'm not now." Meredith replied.

"Oh you just spoke." Derek joked.

"Starting now!" Meredith said as she looked out the window.

The rest of the ride was quiet. Derek couldn't help but let a laugh out here and there. "Meredith come on."

Meredith said nothing.

He put his hand on her thigh and she pushed it off. "Meredith just talk. It will make you feel so much better once you can talk about it."

Meredith didn't say anything. She just pulled out her lip gloss and reapplied.

"You look very pretty." Derek commented with a smile. "Even when you're pouting."

Meredith glared at him then looked straight ahead.

I wish he would just leave me alone. I don't want to talk about it.

Derek pulled up to her apartment building. Before he could open his door, Meredith grabbed her bag and purse from the backseat and got out of the car. "Meredith…"

She leaned into the window. " I had a great weekend."

Derek smiled. "Well…"

"I suggest you stay at your place tonight." She said as she turned around and walked inside.

"Meredith!" Derek shouted, but she had walked into the building. He drove off, while thinking got himself.

I'll give her some time to think. She needs to think about talking.

Meredith went inside her apartment. Nobody was there, so she walked and put her bags in her room. She sat on her bed, when the tears began to fall.

Damn it.

Derek sat in his empty apartment. He worried about Meredith and whenever he called her cell phone she wasn't answering. He knew that this was something they both would get passed together. But right now, she needed to talk. He needed to make her talk.

Meredith sat in her bed thinking to herself.

Why can't I just do things my way?

She pulled the covers over her body and closed her eyes. Suddenly she felt the bed move and a body press behind her. She calmly turned her head to find Derek right there. "What are you doing here?"

"I couldn't not, show up here." Derek said as he kissed her head and sat up. "Meredith I'm sorry…"

Meredith began to cry, "You can't touch me can you?"

"What?"

"It bothers you doesn't it." Meredith said quietly, "The fact that I was touched by another man. I knew it."

"No Meredith." Derek said. " I just…Meredith don't cry."

Meredith stood up and walked into the restroom. She shut the door and started the shower.

Derek stood up and went to the bathroom door. "Meredith let me in."

"Go away." Meredith yelled. She got undressed and stepped into the shower.

"Meredith…Damn it." Derek turned the knob, but it was locked.

Derek went to Meredith's bedside drawer and scrambled for something to open the bathroom door with. He found a bobby-pin and went back to the door. He put it into the lock and finally the door opened. He pulled the shower curtain back to find Meredith washing herself with soap.

"Derek!" Meredith jumped when she saw him. "Get out!"

"Sorry, but I just needed to check if you were okay." Derek said.

"You thought I came in here to hurt myself?" Meredith asked stunned. "I can't believe you. Stop asking if I am okay and stop following me everywhere!"

"Meredith…"

"No Derek! I don't want to talk. I don't plan on talking about it today, tomorrow or in fifty years. Not right now." Meredith put the soap on the ledge. "I need to know if you are going to drop this."

"I don't think it is an issue that can be dropped right now." Derek

"Yes it can and it's very easy, because all you have to do is stop talking about it!" Meredith grabbed the shampoo and began lathering it into her hair.

"Fine! What do you want Meredith?" Derek shouted.

"I want to move on. I want to enjoy being pregnant." Meredith put her hands down to her side when the shampoo was out of her hair. "I haven't been able to and I'm missing out."

"No you're…"

"Yes I am Derek. I have to deal with what happened and I get that. But I don't think you understand that right now, my life is hell." Meredith said sadly. "You can't even touch me."

"Meredith, you know damn well that I can. I was ready to touch you and you weren't ready for it." Derek responded. "You can't just act like it never happened."

"Derek let me deal with this for once! I can't get any better if I'm constantly reminded of it!" Meredith shouted. She shut the shower curtain, "Now please let me have my shower."

Derek sat there for a few minutes, looking at the shower curtain. He then pulled the curtain back to find Meredith rinsing her skin. He stepped in behind her.

"Derek what are you doing!?" Meredith shouted. "You are fully clothed."

He picked her up and carefully stepped out.

"Derek!" Meredith yelled. "What are you doing?"

He carried Meredith over to the bed and laid her down. He got on all fours over her body. He bent his head down and began kissing her neck.

"Derek…what are you doing." Meredith moaned.

"You wanted sex, so you're getting sex." Derek said as he unzipped his pants and pulled his manhood through the opening of his boxer briefs. He kissed her lips and took her breast into his mouth.

"Derek…no…you…said.." Meredith moaned. "You…said…no."

"I did, but I can't get you to talk." Derek said as he nibbled back up to her lips. "So I'm just going to have sex…"

"Ok…okay." Meredith moaned as she roamed her hands down his body. She lightly touched his erection. "Please Derek."

As he entered a finger into her she burst into tears. "Damn it Meredith."

Meredith sobbed, "I'm sorry, please keep going. "

"No." Derek sat up and waited for his erection to settle. "This can't happen."

"I told you to finish." Meredith said.

"Finish?" Derek said. "Meredith you're going to see a psychiatrist."

"No, please just come on." Meredith cried. "I want to have sex."

"No you don't." Derek said as he took her into his arms. "We're taking you to talk to someone."

"No." Meredith wiped away her tears. "I'm fine."

"You're depressed!" Derek raised his voice. "Meredith, you'll be able to enjoy this pregnancy and see a psychiatrist."

"But Derek…"

"No…you and I are going to make out. But you can't have sex." Derek said sadly. "At least I can't do that thing to you for a while. The finger thing."

"I'm sorry." Meredith said as her tears slowed down.

"Don't be." Derek said. "You're getting better, I can already tell."

"Really?" Meredith said.

"Yes, but Meredith will you make me two promises?"

"Yes."

"Will you go see a psychiatrist willingly? And will you promise to take better care of yourself for you, me and the baby?" He asked as he took her hand in his.

Ugh…I swear.

"I promise and I promise." She said with a smile. "Derek?"

"Yes baby?" Derek said as he kissed her lips.

"Will you get in the shower with me so I can finish?" Meredith said with a smile.

"Yes." He kissed her belly. "Come on."

He led her to the restroom and finished removing his clothing. They held each other in the shower and for the first time in a while, they knew everything was going to be just fine.