My breath is leaving condensation on the phone receiver; tears drop into my lap and silence remains unbroken.
Ten minutes of this had already made me feel like shit but I wasn't about to say anything.
"I'm sorry"
I almost laughed; oh I'm sure you are, I'm so damn sure you are!
"For what?"
He sighed; he knew I wasn't going to make this easy on him.
"I'm sorry for doing it, I didn't mean to! It wasn't planned I didn't wa…"
"You didn't what? Didn't mean to? Was it an accident?" I smirked, "Humour me here babe, you were just casually strolling along and suddenly her lips appeared in front of yours and touched then, you accidentally slipped your tongue in and wrapped your arms around her? Hmm? Is that what happened?!?"
By now I was screaming, I didn't care, I wasn't going to lower my voice.
"NO! That's not it at all!"
"What then? Spare me the details I don't much feel like emptying my stomach right now." My voice was cold, calm, I had lost the tone I used in my break out, and it was sinking in now.
I could tell he was shocked, I had never been cold to him before, I was incapable of it, I could yell and scream but I could never be brutally cold.
"I-I was in my room, reading, she came in, I was already kind of pissed and she sat on my lap, I saw your face, your eyes. Maybe it's was because of how much you had been on my mind, I missed you so much." I smirked suuuure. "But she thought I was interested, I wasn't, I thought it was you and that I was about to be told off for getting drunk. I think part of my mind knew you were still hours away from me asleep in your bed but I pushed it away, I was so desperate for it to be you so I gave in to illusions. She came onto me, pushed into me, I only saw your hands and only felt your lips." His voice was frantic, he was sobbing in between words.
"I woke up and realised what I had done, it hurt so much I felt so stupid. I-I'll understand if you hang up, if you don't want me anymore."
Silence, I hated that silence, his voice sounded so resigned now, like he was accepting I was gone already.
"You know what's funny? Even while you were telling me that I was thinking the whole time, when we go on our next date, if he complains how little I eat I might have to guilt trip him with this." My voice was shaking, DAMN why can't I be strong now, only now, and be strong…
"I can't imagine life without you, but it's gonna be hard for me to get over this, you better give me time."
Silence again.
………."Does this mean we're still together?"
"Ah just one thing Sasuke?"
"Yeah?"
"Why Ino?"