Beast Boy
6/9/05
Raven woke up today! She's been awake for a few hours, and Cyborg's cleared her to go back to her room!
We talked for a lot of the day. She's been telling me all of the things that happened. Apparently she had to sacrifice herself to save me, and somehow she survived. I guess that proves that she really does love me. YES!
So, we spent a lot of time talking, and she said something about me and her having a connection now. She said it is a somewhat-telepathic one, whatever that means. It only works over fairly short areas, though, unless we're feeling really emotional. I don't really understand all of it, but oh well. She says that it's the 4th most powerful connection we could possibly have, and I'm the only person to ever come close to getting it. I feel honored, and I'm serious about that! I asked her what the other ones were, and she blushed and said she'd tell me later. Thinking back on it, it's pretty obvious what one of those is, at least…
After that, she told me about the battle in detail. Then we watched some TV. The Lord of the Rings. She likes those movies, and I think it's because they're like epic stories. She likes to read, so that makes sense. Maybe I should go get her a book or something… I bet she'd like that…
Anyways, it's night now. All the titans, except for me, are asleep. It's kinda weird not being with Raven. I've gotten used to her being here over the past week or so.
Raven
6/9/05
Cyborg says I'm free to leave. I have mixed feelings about that. Obviously I want to get out of this damned infirmary, but that also means I won't be with Beast Boy, unless we sneak to each others rooms… and, as much as I love him, I don't much care for that pit he calls a room. I don't think he really does either, but oh well.
We talked for a lot of the day. I told him about the battle and the sacrifice, but I also told him about something more important.
Beast Boy and I have a connection now. It's much stronger than the one I have with Robin, because this one is created by love, and it was created through death. We can use it to communicate to each other telepathically over short distances, among some other things. It makes it so I can show more emotion to him safely than I can to the others. Or maybe it's just he can see them more easily… I don't really know. I haven't completely figured all of this out.
I talked to Love. She explained how all of this works. I don't know for sure everything I can do with this connection. Apparently there are only three connections that are stronger than this one. I asked Love what they were, and she gave an evil sort of cackle that made me extremely nervous. Then she blushed and told me what they were, along with why they were important…
The 3rd most important connection, she says, is marriage. It doesn't have to be an official thing. It just has to be some act that connects us forever. Both of us have to understand, accept, and, most importantly, want this connection for it to work.
The 2nd most important connection is… uh… sex. I apparently blushed or something when Love said that, because she started giggling and blushing too. She is such a freak sometimes… actually, she reminded me a lot of Starfire…
Anyways, this is important, she says, because it truly connects the two of us into one entity, physically and spiritually. She says it has to be a meaningful experience for this connection to be created. If we're drunk, for example, and go do…stuff… then it won't count.
After that, the most important connection is when we actually have a child together… Now tell me that's not awkward for my emotion to be telling me that!
She says that's important because, in a way, it perpetuates our love. It is a "product" of it, and that makes it important.
Anyways, Love says that, as we "move up" through these different levels, our bond gets stronger. We are able to communicate more easily and over much farther distances, and we can also do some other things. I have no idea what those other things are, and neither does she. Her comment was "as things are going, you'll probably find out soon anyways". Well, I guess we can hope… did I really just say that? I have changed!
Well, Beast Boy asked me what the other connections were. I blushed and said I'd tell him later. I talked to him for a little bit a second ago, using our new bond. It's night, and all the others are asleep. It wasn't much, just telling each other that, if we need anything, we're here for each other… It just struck me that we haven't really told each other that we love each other… at least not much. I guess we aren't really comfortable with so blatently saying it. Or maybe we feel like we don't actually need to say it… I don't know…