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Chapter 12

Dear Dairy,

I know I hadn't been writing in a long time but I been so busy lately. I guess the first thing I should say is that the final battle is finally over and the other important thing is, my relationship with Harry at the moment barley exists.

I guess I should start at the beginning, you would think there would be a big sign or some indication about the finally battle but there was none. It all happened about a month ago, I woke up that day thinking of about Harry as usual and by the end of the day I was fighting for my life. It just doesn't seem right.

Everything seems normal that day; nothing was out of ordinary until midday. Harry had realized what an ass he has been lately and had been paying attention to me all morning, maybe I should have took it as sign. Lunch was pretty much the same, Blaise had sit way to close to me and Harry was sending death glare at him. I was about to push Blaise away but suddenly Prof. Snape had stood up and scream his lung out as he grabbed his arm in pain.

I can still remember his scream, to hear the pain in his voice took me by surprise, I never though the Prof. Snape could feel pain. The first time I saw him was before I even enter Hogwarts, he was the one that inform my father about what his friend was doing to me. Sometime when I go to him with my problem he would kick me out off his office and told me to get over it. I'm not sure how to describe how I feel about him, he never offers any kind word to me but I always feel safe around him. He always seem like a strong person to me and at this moment his current lying on the hospital bed fighting for his life.

After Prof. Snape stood up he collapsed within moment and gradually the dark mark appear over his head. The hall became completely silence, as the teacher try to help him the student could only watch with shock expression clearly written on their face. Just when I thought it couldn't get any worst, Voldemort had somehow been able to project his voice though out the school and he had asked us if with like our present in the worst tone possible. You can even feel hear the smirk in his tone. After that everything went down hill. I was so afraid, I was afraid of dieing, afraid of losing Harry and afraid to lose the people I call friends. I couldn't move a single muscle until I heard the Headmaster order.

The head teachers was ordered to make sure all there student is safe secure in their common room and then report back to the headmaster. Blaise had reminded me that Prof. Snape was unavailable and that we better help the student. Unfortunately Voldemort had other surprise for us, before everyone headed toward their common room and few student from each house started shouting the killing curse. They didn't care if they were kill in the process, it seem like they were trying to kill as much as possible before they were stop.

I ended up killing two student from my own house, what make it worst is when I heard them apologies before they died. I know that it possible that the path they have taken was not what they wanted but killing your own class mate is never right. It was strangle to see the green light fly out of my wand and landed on them, I thought that I would have more emotion but I didn't feel a thing. All I could remeber that night was the fear in the student's eyes as the green light travel toward them.

Soon after that, Blaise and I try to get everyone to the common room as quickly as possible. I'm not sure how the other houses handle the situation; we had divided the house into small group of first to fifth year student. With the sixth year was in charged of protecting their group, and the seventh year student protecting the year. After everyone understood their duty Blaise and I went to the headmaster office.

As Blaise and I nearly reach the office I notice Harry and his two buddies were heading toward the same thing. When I was within hand reach of Harry, I wanted to hug him but I didn't want to seem girly in front of the others however Harry didn't care. He pulled me into his arm and told me not to do anything foolishly. What a hypocrite, out of the two of us Harry is all likely to do sometime stupid then me. I told him if he dies I will bring him back to life just to kill him again but the truth is I have no idea what to do if that happens.

When he releases me from his hug I simple stood beside him. I didn't want to be apart from him just yet. Weasel can't keep his mouth shut for long and said sometime dumb, I was so busy looking at Harry I didn't hear what his said but Blaise had punch him and broke his nose. I though Harry was going to defense his friend but to my surprise he told Weasel in a harsh tone that, "Draco my boyfriend…GET OVER IT". I just stood still and watch Granger fixes Weasel without a comment.

I couldn't believe that Blaise punch the Weasel for me, he doesn't like physical violent because of his family background. I found myself staring at him, until he smiled at me and say "Sorry I got a boyfriend already". I didn't say a thing, I just smile back and that moment I had realized that he had become my best friend, I just don't know when.

Before we could do anything else Chang and the bi# Lisa turn up with two other people from Hufflepuff who I have never really paid much attention to. Lisa came and stood right next to Harry, as if it was her spot. Stupid bit! As I was about to push that thing away from my Harry, the entrance to the office had open up for us. I'm not sure if it was a good or bad thing.

At first some of the teacher had try to prevent us from knowing what going on, they said that we're just children, boo who, they must really be slow. I don't know about the others but I lost my innocent a long time ago. There was no way I was going to let them kick me out of the office, if I'm going to be in a middle of the war, I have to know what was going on and of course I won the argument.

From what I learn, Voldemort was attacking everywhere. His goal was to bring fear into the heart of everyone and he did a very good job at that. The headmaster had a hard chose to make between protecting the school or the wizard world. At the time Voldemort has not sent any deatheater to the school but is full out kill of the parent of the student. This is where we made the biggest mistake that cost us more life then necessity.

Thinking that the school is safe at the moment, the headmaster decides to help the people outside the school and left Prof. McGonagall in charge. As soon as the headmaster left the alarm bell went off indicating that there been trouble in each houses. Blaise and I quickly ran to our common room, lucky no one was injured. By dividing the house into small group everyone was able to look for any sign of any other traitor among the group. When Blaise and I enter the room we saw two other house members bounded and wand less.

Within ten minutes Charlie and enter the common house and inform me that Harry and the dream team had left the school and there has been report and there Voldemort and plan to attack the school until the next hour. Knowing that I couldn't possible find Harry, I decide the help protect the school. I don't know why I couldn't walk away.

The only good thing about the battle was all the student work together. All the walls that keep the houses apart simple disappear that night. I was surprise that most of the student had listened to my instruction. The teachers were in the front line but we know that it possible that some deatheater might still be able to enter the school.

Before the battle started Lisa came up to me and told me, if I die she going to have a hard time helping Harry gets over me. The way she said it make me want to kill her off during the battle. What make it worst is that she actually on Harry side. Too bad she survived the battle. I still hadn't got her back yet.

What surprise me during the battle is that the DA members were listening to me. Apparently, before Harry left the school he told his DA to fellow my instructions. He believes in me and there no way I was going to let him down. By the end of the days, I had killed more people then I could count on my fingers and I had nearly died countless time too.

I was so happy when I relise that the attack on the school so over. Lucky for us the school was not on top of the list. Voldemort learn that Harry and Dumbledore had both left the school and had told the deatheater to retreat. However the happiest didn't last, we had lost thirty students in total and many more has gotten hurt during the battle.

After everyone was look after, all I could do for the rest of the night was waited and pray at Harry was safe. It was about two hour later that I learn that Harry had final kill Voldemort but his currently in a very bad condition and has been sent to a secret location to heal.

I still can't believe it. They wouldn't tell me were Harry was located; I wasn't able to see, touch or hear anything from him for a month. If it wasn't for Charlie and Blaise I would have survive. So when I heard that Harry was going to be at the celebration party, I could wait to see him again but he didn't react the way I thought he would.

He was so indifferent toward me, he didn't hold me or kiss me or even say he miss me. He did nothing, he barley acknowledge me and it hurt. All he did was offered me a weak smile, we didn't even time to talk before he was drag away by the new minister and meeting other important people. I'm a bloody Malfoy who could be possible more important than me.

Merlin it hurt as I watch him walk away, fortunate I had Charlie my side. Blaise and Jason decide not to come, I guess that were making up for lost time. Jason was also badly injured during the battle and he was only release from the hospital yesterday.

On the brighter side I met Asher again, he was still the same old cocky bastard has he always been. What I didn't notice before was how good looking he was. I got busted staring at him and he made fun of me during the whole night. He had nearly everyone looking at him, boy and girls.

At first he scare the hell out of me, he grab him from the behind and pull me into a tight hug. The first thing he made me do was to turn around so that he could check of any injuries. It was embarrassing but I was happy that he still treats me as his younger brother.

He also thought that Harry and I broke up and Charlie was my new boyfriend. I couldn't help but blush and said that Charlie was just a great friend and I'm still with Harry. I don't know what going on in Asher mind but he keeps looking at Charlie with pity. I wonder what I missed.

From what I learned he had been a spy for Dumbledore and was order not to contact anyone. Jayna was busy that night and was unable to attend the party. I made plan to meet Asher and Jayna later. I can't wait to talk them properly again.

When the night came to an end, I try to look for Harry and see him for one last time but I couldn't find him, just as I was about to leave and Harry had pull me into a dark corner. He told me that he's sorry and promises that he will make it up to me. He said that he wasn't want people to target me because of him. He told me that he not fully healed yet and is unable to protect at this moment. He's truly an idiots, I fully able to protect myself but at least I know that he want to protect me.

He better live up to his promise because if he don't I really don't know what to do...

Draco Malfoy

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I hope that the grammer wasn't too bad...