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Warning: Once again this chapter does not been beta. Since no-one complain about the bad grammer in the other chapter yet... I decide post other chapter.

Chapter 13

For the first time in my life I admit that I'm afraid. My relationship with Harry has hit rock bottom. I know that he's hiding sometime from me and I know that, what ever it is, I'm not going to be happy about it. He also had promised that he would try and make it up to me but so far he has done nothing.

I remember saying that I give Harry three months to say he love me and so far two month has past since the end of the war. I have the feeling that we won't make it. The first month, he was in a secret location to heal and in the second month he be busy interview and party plus there also final exam to study for.

We all been back at school for a month now and everything seems to be, going slowly back to normal but I just feel so miserable. Harry had become more famous than before and there are people out there that are trying to break us apart and the worst part is it working.

Every time someone asked Harry if he think his parent would have approve on our relationship, he would automatic answer yes but he wouldn't let me near him for one or two days. If someone mention about having children, he would go quiet and total ignore the question. I know that he want children but by being with me it impossible.

Well not total, I know that there a way for wizard to have a child but there only ten percent chance for the baby to survive for the full term and five percent of the bearer surviving. It a risk I'm not willing to take... just yet.

I notice that as each days past by, Harry becoming more and more stress. I want him to relax for a day so I remind him that he promised to make it up to me. He told me that he do anything I want. I just wanted to spend a whole day with him alone and he bloody agreed but the day just didn't go as plan.

He turns up late and started to yell at me about Charlie and Blaise. I really don't understand what going on in his mind. I didn't have a chance to say anything before he slapped me across the face and I don't bloody understand why he slapped me.

It's not the first time Harry hit me either and I don't believe it will be the last. I guess because he grew up in an abuse environment he does it without much thinking, I guess it not really his fault. After he slapped me, he had a shock expression on his face and he try to apologies but I walked away. I know that he's sorry but it doesn't take the pain away. The worst part is I have to hide it form Blaise.

Blaise hate physical violence with passion. He says it distasteful but I believe it more got to do with his family, than anything else. I remember Blaise mention that his younger brother died because he had been beaten to death. I know there more to that story however Blaise refuse to talk about it any further. I guess I afraid of how Blaise going to react, I don't want Blaise and Harry fight.

It hard as it is with Harry's friend not liking me, I don't want Blaise to try me break up my relationship too, even if he just trying to look out of me. I know that Harry shouldn't hit me but he only does it once in a while so it shouldn't really matter right?

I know some people been whisper thing in Harry ears, I don't know why his so insecure. I love the git but he really need to get over his fear about losing me or he will lose me for good. He confessed about being jealous of Charlie and Blaise which doesn't make sense to me. I know Blaise teases Harry constantly but Blaise got Jason and they been all over each other in public. As for Charlie, I'm at total lost. Why would Harry be jealous about him? Both he and Asher seem to think that there something going on with me and Charlie, did I miss something?

Before our fight, every single time I with Harry people keep dragging him away from me. First the minister wanted a word with Harry. The second time I find myself alone with Harry, the Headmaster needed him, the third time, nurse wanted to check up on him. Fouth, fifth time and everytime after that, his friend need him some reason. Never before have I feel so insignificant, Harry the first person to ever make me feel this way. I know that his friends are important to him but couldn't he spare a few hours a week for me.

I wonder why he didn't put up a fight or at least just once say he wanted to be with me. Just because I don't say the right word or act as if I need him doesn't mean I don't want to be with him. I'm not going to bloody beg him to stay with me, the only thing I got left from the war is my pride I don't want to lose that too but I know I will soon.

I hate the git, he doesn't have the time to be with me but he has the time to listen to ridicules gossip about me, Charlie and Blaise. Of course I'm going to spend time with them, they my friend, I'm surprise he not jealous about the amount of time I spend with Ginny. I remember this one time when I was with Ginny; she was playing chess with Lisa. I will just say the loser of that chess game is one very unhappy person. The huge smirk on Ginny face when she shout "Check mate bitch" and the pure horror look on Lisa's face make me happy every time I think about it. There's never a boring moment with Ginny.

Charlie had spot us later that day and was about to join until he saw the collar on Lisa neck. His facial expression when he read Lisa collar "Property of Ginny" was so assuming. He raised his hand and shocked his head and said his doesn't want to know what going on and quickly walk away.

I decide to follow Charlie, I not sure what Ginny other plans for Lisa was but I haven't seem Lisa since the bet. I remember I ask Ginny once about Lisa and all she had was a smirk on her face. I decide that this categories belong in the "I don't know" and left it at that.

I had asked Charlie if he was free to come with me to meet my mother. I was about to ask Harry to come along but after the slapped I don't want to be near him at moment and Charlie make me feel calmer anyway.

I am a bit nerves about the meeting tomorrow, but Charlie try to help me relax during supper. It did work for a bit until Harry out of the blue grab me and pull me out of the hall. Harry had seem so angry, I hadn't talk to since our last fight, I guess we both been busy lately.

From be relax, I was shock at Harry behavior. I was surprise when I notice that we were heading toward my common room. Harry pushed me onto my bed and pace around the room. Not know what was wrong I try to ask Harry but when I open my mouth, Harry was on top me within a second and had his tongue down my throat.

I try to struggle but Harry tightens his grip on me. When he broke the kiss he looked at me in the eye and in a possessive tone he whispered "mine" over and over again. I was scare me to the bone when I notice that his eye turn red. It reminded me of Voldemort.

I try to calm him down by saying 'your' to him. He seems to loosen his grip but wouldn't let go of me. He had attack my neck again I know there going to be a huge mark on my neck tomorrow and bruises on my wrist.

Harry seem to be hiding something from the about the final battle. I worried about him plus and there I'm also meeting my mother tomorrow. I hope that neither Charlie nor Mother notice the bruise or hickey that Harry left me with because I wouldn't know what to say. There too many things on my plate, I don't thinks I could handle them all.

Draco Malfoy