Thanks: My smile hides my pain...um...Charlie with Draco :) ... I dont know about that

Dear Journals,

Last weekend,　Harry had just reminded me why I bloody love him in the first place. He took me on holidays, I have not been alone with Harry for so long, it was just the two of us and nobody else, not a single person to bug or either stare at me like some kind a evil carnation who trying to corrupt their hero. It was so amazing; however it didn't started off smoothly. Plus during the little weekend with Harry, I just realize something very important, my feeling for Charlie had somehow change but I with tell you about it a bit later.

On Friday night Harry had scared the hell out of me, he came in the bloody night and pretended to kidnap me! I did not even know that was Harry, it was only the following morning that I realize it was him. The bloody basted had scared the shit out of me and he had the gut to tease me about it.

I didn't found out in a good way either, the git had bloody had me tired up and place on the bed and blind folded. I think he has some kind of bondage fetish. When I woke up I felt someone was feeling me up, at first I demand the person to stop touching me but he only remove the blind fold after I started to shacked and screamed. The worst part was that I was afraid that Harry might not want me anymore if some stranger had me first. I really to hate the amount of power that Harry has over me.

I felt like a loser when I notice that the stranger was only Harry. I couldn't believe I was reduced to tear by a game, I was so angry at the time. When I did clam down he took my hand a drag me to the front door and to my surprise I found myself looking at the beach.

I was so shock; I didn't notice when Harry had his arm around me. He had gently whispered in my ear "happy birthdays". I couldn't bloody believe it. Harry had taken me to beach for by birthday, he remembers that I told him that I alway wanted to go to the beach for my birthday this year but never had the chance. I was so happy to know that he had been thought about me.

I wanted to stay mad but I couldn't, instead I turn around and kiss the hell out of him. We spend the morning just talking, playing, and insulting each other. It was the first time in a long time that Harry didn't try to push for anything more, he was like the Harry that I got to know at the beginning.

Around noon Harry took me to the local market, I much admit I was afraid at first. I don't know what to expected, it was my first time going to a muggle shop. It was strange everyone seem so friendly, I'm use to people being afraid of me or sucking up to me. I end up buying a few things for my friends. At first I was sure how Harry wants to act in public but he was the one who hold my hands.

The following day, we watch the sunrise at the beach and it remind of the first time Harry had shown me the sunrise. I complete happy at that moment. I was relax and enjoyed every minutes that I was with him. The only thing that surprise the hell out of me was that I was thinking what it would be like if Charlie was with me. I have no idea why I was thinking about Charlie at all.

When Harry and I return to Hogwart, at first I couldn't wait to tell Charlie about what Harry did for me however when I was with Charlie I find myself unable to tell him. This is the very first time this happen. I alway thought Charlie as my older brother, he was my other Asher and for some reason I can not put them in the same category. I think my feeling for Charlie had slowly change and this scare me the most. I wonder what I should do, I not even sure what the feeling had change into.

The only thing that I know for sure is that I still love Harry. I hope this feeling for Charlie is just a closer family kind of bond.

Draco Malfoy