Titanic -The Heart Never Lies HL Griffiths
Wheres Jack? - Chapter 4
Rose
Swaying, my body gently rocking, I was floating.
Hey, Hey "a rough voice called. My reluctant eyes flickered, seeing nothing but bright lights. " Whaaat?" I murmured.
"Bloody hell! She's alive, I thought she was a gonna, hauled her out the water and she was so still... " A mans voice exclaimed and faded away.
"Come on dearie" A soft female voice floated above me, a wet clothed soothed my burning head. "Wake up your safe"
My eyes flew open, I saw a Nurse standing over me, an angel panic grabbed me and I say bolt upright, the room spun. I was dreaming, dreaming, and fell into darkness.
When I opened my eyes again, the Nurses was still stood by the bed her face was not swimming too much, she had a smile, and rosy cheeks, I was lying in bed in a small hospital room, tucked in with warm blankets.
Was she an angel? Sent to me by Jack?? Oh I was so cold, even under the warm bedding, my limbs heavy and still. Was Jack still as cold as me??
Jack!!! My heart leapt my eyes dialated.
The cold water, his hands in mine, his eyes shining with love for me. Then closing as the iciness drained his spirit. Images stacking up in my head. Jack kissing me, our plans,
Everything came flooding back. I sat up, my throat constricted and sore.
"Jack?" I questioned "Where is Jack?" I squeaked my voice tiny and cracking. I couldn't swallow; my head thumping.
The Nurse frowned. "Jack?" she echoed, "Look Love I am so sorry you were the last picked up in the boat, you are a lucky girl, you could have died of hypothermia. " she hesitated and said very softly "I am sorry I guess this Jack didn't make it" and stroked my head with the flannel sympathetically
My vision blurred, hot scorching tears welled up, a hot flush rose through my body, my poor confused mind rebelling at her words, I lashed out knocking her hand aside.. She gasped and jumped back
"Jack, Jack" "Where are you?" I yelled my cries high and hysterical. I heard guttural screaming, like an animal in pain.
I faintly heard the Nurses firm commands "Quick sedate her, she's lost it"
It was only the needle going in my arms that stopped the hysteria that had possessed me.
"Jack he cant be dead, it's a lie" my battered brain shouted before the blackness returned
Hours later I awake, I couldn't speak, and confusion fogged my brain. Jack was gone, I was hot then cold. I was running a fever, my bruised body tender and burning, my heart cold and heavy, grief resting on it like a slab.
In my brief conscious moments the Nurse whispered that I was on Carpathia, that I had been dragged from the sea by one of the last boats to come back, they'd seen me tumble from the door into the water and the splash had alerted them. Only I was rescued.
The Nurse also double-checked the list of survivors but Jack was not named.
Where was he? It hurt to think. He'd been holding my hands and telling me not to let go. I fought to gain understanding, to order my senses
"I want to be with you, let me die with you, you jump I jump, I'll follow you to the gates of hell. I can't go on, not without you"
My heart was broken; I was too gutted to cry. I only whispered my name "Rose" to the Nurse when she asked. Ruth Dewitt Bukater had died on the ship! I was that spoiled snobby girl no longer.
The Nurse wanted to sedate me and told me just before in soothing tones that we were heading to New York and would dock in a couple of days
"Jack I am coming with you when we dock" I heard my resolute voice, our excitement, the depths of our kisses, his strong arms round me. Rose and Jack forever.
"You'll find your family maybe dear; in harbour to care for you?" The Nurse surmised and slipped the needle in my vein, I felt my self going under
Tears stung my eyes. No family; only Jack and he was gone. I wanted to die with him How could I go on.??