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This is going to be a rather... Adultish, dramatic chapter.

The food wasn't the only reason I wanted to stay. Gourry would soon find out.

We spent the day going for walks and just having fun. We've never done this before but we agreed on doing it again some time.

"Lina shouldn't we get back?" Asked Amelia "It's starting to get dark."

"Do you only care about your sex life?" I scolded she turned red and I could see the tears forming in her eyes. I felt guilty and like a hypocrite knowing I was going to head back soon for the same reason. "Lets go" I sighed.

Gourry was first to keep watch tonight and then it was Amelia. I was last. I waited in the tent for Gourry. He came in and had a dumber expression than I have ever seen on his face before but it quickly left and he came over to me. I was lying in the bed with nothing on.

He came over and looked into my eyes "Lina... are you sure you're ready?" he asked softly. I was more than sure.

"I love you." I whispered. He kissed me lightly and began to take off his clothes as well.

Very carefully he laid on top of me and Kissed me lightly but hungrily. Just like the first night I felt his hands move up my sides onto my breasts. He squeezed them lightly and I let out a small moan against his lips slowly moving my hand down towards his lower half. I hesitated, wanting to touch him but unsure he wanted me to, when I felt his hand take mine softly and moves it closer towards him giving me enough time to pull away if I wanted. I just hind of held him and sharply pulled away. He took advantage of this and kissed me some more moving down to my neck. I knew he was going for my breasts next and felt tears forming in my eyes. Was I ready?

"Gourry!" I gasped suddenly sobbing. I had just stoped him from taking my breast into his mouth.

"Lina? what's wrong?" He asked looking as though he was going to cry himself for what he had done to me.

"I-I'm not ready..." I whispered " I thought I was but-but I'm not. I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry." He was looking into my eyes again when he said this "I'd rather wait until you're ready than rush you into something you don't want." He kissed me lightly once more before he got off of me and got dressed.

He finished getting ready and headed out of the tent.

"Where are you going?" I asked

"I'll keep watch the rest of the night, probably best to leave you alone." He answered quietly and left.

I heard him say something to Amelia and cried myself to sleep.

I was up really early the next morning and headed out seeing Gourry wasn't in the tent. I got ready and headed out of the tent.

"Amelia! Zelgadiss!" I half yelled half sobbed when I got closer to the fire. They came running out to see what was wrong. When they saw, they stood there watching me cry on Gourry's dead body. He was lying face down with knife marks all in his back.

Amelia crouched down and rubbed my back. "Oh, Lina." She whispered "I'm sorry"

I threw her off me and rolled Gourry over. There were a few more markings on his front side as well. I threw myself on top of him kissing his cold lips repeatedly. Finally Zel came over and pulled me off him. I put up quite a fight but eventually gave in. He carried me bridal style to my bed. I just laid there and sobbed for a while.

"How could he do this?" I demanded

"Lina... You think he wanted to?" Zel began. I knew this was going to be quite an explanation "He loved you more than you'll ever know. By the looks of it, it was a surprise attack and he couldn't defend himself." I was now crying on Zelgadiss knees. He rubbed my back lightly. "Come on Lina, there's not much left to go to get to your parents" He helped me up and supported me the whole way, leaving Gourry's body behind.

When we got to my house I went to my room and slept for who knows how long. When I woke up my mother said it was abpout2 days but I didn't care. The only thing I cared about was the dream I had. Gourry was in it. "I'll always love you whether I'm with you physically or mentally" he had said "I'll always be in your heart. Just be happy and continue with your life" that was the last thing he ever said to me, whether it was a dream or not, he said it, and I treasured it.

Well that was a long chapter. Dunno why I wanted it to end like this. Just depressed I guess. Oh well. Hoped you liked it

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