a/n: Sorry it took a little longer than it expected. I didn't know what to do with it. I'm not even sure if i like it. I need feedbacks peeps.

disclaimer: I don't own anybody except Brian

Chapter 10: Out of my Heart, into your head

Later that night while Derek was in his room he got a knock at his door. George came in the room and closed his door. When ever George closed the door Derek knew that there was something serious.

"Hey, Dad what's up?" Derek asked.

"Nothing really just wanted to see what you were doing, how life is." George said.

"Uh, no, that's not what you came in for. I know from past experiences that when you some in my room and close my door there is something serious." Derek said.

"No, that's not true." George said.

"Oh really, when you told me that mom was leaving, you closed the door, when you told me that Nora was moving in, you closed the door, when you-."

"Okay, okay I get it." George interrupted.

"Tell me what is wrong." Derek demanded while folding his arms

"Well, the principal called Nora and me in her office today at Lizzie and Edwin's school. Well I don't know how to say this, but the principal said that they were kissing. Now I was shocked and Nora is down stairs crying. But, when we came home earlier today we noticed that you and Casey were gone." George said.

Derek's face went pale. The color drained out and George noticed it.

"Yeah, I kind of figured there was something going on. You know Derek, we used to talk. We kept no secrets. Now I don't even know have the things you do now a days." George said taking a seat next to Derek on his bed.

"Well, I kind of knew that there was something going on with Lizzie and Edwin." Derek added.

"Yeah I know that you know, they told me everything. Even the little party that you and Casey sunk out to." George said sternly.

"Um, dad about that-"

"It's okay Derek I just want you to tell me the truth. I don't want anymore surprises. I want to know everything. I mean you and Casey sneaking out at night, Lizzie and Edwin going to senior parties. I mean Derek you have about a month left of high school and then regardless of how you want to put it you are going to be an adult. You're going to face some difficult decisions. You can't keep acting like a child or blaming Casey for all of your problems. Now I'm happy that you guys are getting close and everything, but its best that if there is something going on, you tell us now." George finally said.

Derek took a deep breath and tried to think thoroughly in a couple of seconds. Okay yes, I like Casey but I don't want to ruin anything. I've ruined enough. I have no friends, I have know hockey team, I don't even know if I'm getting into college, and I don't even know if Casey even likes me. What am I going to do? Alright, If I get with Casey, then I can kiss goodbye this house, my friends, and everything goodbye. But, if this continues I'll probably go crazy and hurt another girl. Just go with what you don't normally do Derek. Don't lie, tell the truth.

"Okay dad, well I do like Casey and I've liked her for a while. But I don't know what to do. This is the first time that I've dealt with a girl that doesn't like me. Its

torture." Derek said throwing himself back on his bed. He was now staring up at the dent in his ceiling. He remembers how it happened too. Last year Casey was pissed off

at him and came screaming in his room because of some lame test that she got a 82 and he had gotten an 83. She proved that she was better than him and said that she could

jump higher than him on the bed. They were in some weird jumping duel then she hit her head on the ceiling and collapsed. He laughed so hard. She just cried. Dude why are

you such a fucking girl? You never acted this way. You never said sorry to anyone. Now I find myself saying that all the time. She's changing me. And I don't even know if it's good or bad. All of this shit started happening the night of that party, when I admitted to her looking hot. She's like a curse.

George was thinking as well. He threw his head back on Derek's bed. How was he going to tell Nora? What advice could he give to Derek? Tell his son to go after his step sister. Or tell him to stay away from her? "Derek all I can say is to do what your heart tells you to do. I don't know if you'll listen to me, but what I tend to do is listen to my heart. Try and talk to Casey. And yes, she's scary believe me she's a miniature Nora. But that's all I can say. But you do know that I have to tell Nora right? Or else she'll be pissed at me." George said turning his head to Derek who had his hands rested on his face. George took one last lingering look at his son and slowly got up and left.

Derek took his hand off his face and looked around his room. He can't talk to Casey, he was too scared, a chicken.

"Derek my friend, you are a pansy" Derek thought out loud.

The next day when Derek woke up, he was surprised that Casey wasn't up yet. It was 8a.m and everyone was out. He tried so hard last night to avoid his family. After his dad had a talk with him, Derek just tried to sleep.

Derek scratched his head and went into the bathroom. He used the bathroom then turned on the shower. He just wanted to get away from everybody. He just wished that he could pause the whole world and avoid all of the problems that he had. Yeah, his dad was right, he is becoming an adult. He can't do the classic Derek Venturi anymore and run away when things got tough. But it was hard since it was so easy to do. He got in the shower and just thought. It's been a long time since he's done that. When he got out he was surprised to see Casey sitting on the lid of the toilet seat with her head down. Okay now it seems like the bathroom is me and Casey's hiding spot. Edwin and lizzie have that closet and me and Casey have the bathroom.

"What's wrong Spacey?" Derek asked trying to make his voice sound as neutral as possible.

"I've just been thinking."

"Well aren't you always."

"I miss Sam. I miss him a lot. And hanging out with you and having such a fun time just made me remember back when I had a boyfriend. It's not even Sam. I just missed having someone. And it just sucks that my step brother that guy that I hated all the way up until last week has been there for me like on one else has. The only boyfriend that I had that was some what okay was Sam. I guess because you guys are some what alike. I don't know if I still might be in love with him." Casey said.

Derek just stood there still naked. He grabbed the nearest towel and wrapped it around himself. Casey then looked up at him.

"What the fuck Casey, so you're just going to fall over Sam, who was in fact on a date with Emily and go out with him. The guy that hurt you?" Derek assumed.

"You know what Derek I thought that you would understand me." Casey said.

'Well obviously I don't. To be completely honest. I don't know anyone that would make that type of dumbass decision.

"What the hell is your problem who do you think you are. You've made some pretty messed up decisions yourself Derek. Every decision you've made has led you down the wrong path. You'll never do anything right." Casey shouted.

"You know what yeah you're absolutely right. Cause falling for you was a bad decision. I shouldn't have even looked at someone like you. Too stuck up and prude."

Casey jumped up and smacked him right across the face and stormed off downstairs. He ran into his room and threw on the nearest t shirt and jeans. Then he heard Casey's jeep starting up. He ran downstairs and outside into the cold Canada air.

"Casey stop!" Derek shouted

Casey looked at him with sad eyes as she was pulling out of the driveway. Derek jumped in his car and was speeding after honking the horn doing all that he could to get her attention. Derek banged his head on the steering wheel. Stupid, stupid, what is your problem? Derek you're a fucking idiot Wrong thing to do is to put your head down while you're speeding down the road. Derek crashed. Okay well not a huge crash. Just enough to dent the front of his car thank god. The air bag blew up in his face. His car hit a stop sign right near the end of the road then swerved off backwards and the back of his car hit a near by tree a little in the forest. Derek tried to regain conscience. But really couldn't move because of the fliping air bag in his way. He tried to smack it away and succeeded. Only to find that his nose was bleeding a little bit. He heard a familiar annoying scream and knew that it was Casey. She ran over to his car and pried the door open.

Just as she was about to grab him, he grabbed her and pulled her into the car. He then closed the door locking it. He wiped the blood from his nose with a napkin that had been in his pocket. Casey looked at him. Just as she was about to say something Derek pulled her into a kiss. She resisted and pulled away.

"Derek what are you doing?' She asked.

"I don't know." He said then kissed her again. She didn't resist this time. She just let it take her over completely. And so did Derek. Whatever he was feeling, it was real this time. He knew it in his heart. He didn't care about anything he didn't even think about anything. He loved her and that's all that mattered. Derek pulled away from the kiss and looked into her eyes.

"Casey I want no other girl but you, I need to have, you, I need to feel you. Case, without you I'd be lost forever." Derek said panting. All he could hear was them breathing together and the faint sound of the police. Casey climbed over him and got out the car. She met up with the officer who was outside near her car. After saying a couple of words to him he walked over to Derek and taped on his window. Derek realized and got out the car.

"You okay there?" The officer asked.

"Yeah I'm fine I was just driving and I hit the stop sign and I swerved and ended up in the tree." Derek said.

"Okay I'm going to call the tow truck and the ambulance." The officer said.

"No offense but I'm just fine really. Stuff like this happens all the time." Derek announced. The officer shook his head and walked back over to Casey and said a couple of other things. She then walked back over to Derek.

"Derek get in my car, I'm going to drive you home and then the tow truck will be here so we can go." Casey said solemnly. Derek followed her in her jeep. She drove back home into the drive way and turned off the car but stopped and looked at him.

"Why Derek, why would you love me? I'm stupid and prude like you said." Casey said.

"Well-"

"Fine if you want something like this to happen you have to make some changes like, your jacket."

"What! No, not my jackets please Casey!" Derek pleaded

Casey started up the car again and drove to the super market about 10 minutes away. The whole way Derek was pleading. They finally arrived and Casey looked in the back of her car and there was Derek's jacket there.

"Derek I can't believe that I'm thinking about this. Yesterday at the rink my feelings did change for you. I saw you as the most amazing guy ever. But I knew that we could never love each other. You love that jacket and I love Sam. And so I had to change and I thought about it the whole night and cried about it. I love you. I really do. And I have thought of you in that way for a while but I kept denying it. I thought that if I called you bro, or something I would be able to label you with that in my mind and the thought of you and me would go away. Now, if I give up Sam I thought of it I can, then you can give up the jacket." Casey said.

Derek thought of it. They both got out the car, Derek grabbed the jacket from the back seat and they walked to the donation box.

"Casey, I can't!" Derek said looking down at his jacket.

"Derek I thought you wanted to do this." Casey thought.

"I do, but I want the jacket, its been with me everywhere, my first date, my first kiss, my first 'everything' Casey."

"Fine whatever Derek." Casey then turned around walking back to her Jeep. She didn't even want to bother turning around and looking at him. She was done with him. Casey got in her car and drove off back home leaving Derek.

A couple of hours past and Casey took a shower. Derek still wasn't home. She went in her room after a while and fell asleep Casey had a terrible dream about Derek. He was out in the cold in his leather jacket. And Kendra was there. Derek had walked away from Kendra because of a fight and he walked into the middle of the street and didn't see the car coming, and it hit him. She saw Derek go down and Kendra just stood there. She had no expression on her face. Casey then woke up out of her dream. She looked over at her clock on her dresser which read 5:30pm. She was sweating and seemed to be screaming in her sleep because she heard running up the stairs. It had to be Lizzie. When the door opened, it revealed no other than Emily.

"Casey are you okay?" Emily asked.

"Em, what are you doing here?" Casey asked

"Well, I came here to apologize. Look Casey I'm sorry. Me and Sam weren't on a date. We were pretty upset about how things were. I was missing you in school and whether he wants to admit it or not, he was missing you and Derek. He came up to my locker asking about you guys and I told him that we weren't talking. Then we talked at lunch and decided to go and see a movie. And that's what happened. So Casey I'm sorry if it looked strange we're just friends." Emily stated.

Casey couldn't hold a grudge. She reached across to her best friend and gave her a hug.

"Now, honey please tell me why you were screaming. I thought there was something seriously wrong with you."

"I was having this weird dream that Derek got hit by a car. He was wearing his stupid leather jacket. "

"Wow, that's serious and strange." Emily added

"And today, he kissed me. Derek likes me and I don't know what to do. Emily you know me and I usually know what to do in these types of things but I don't know now."

"Well I do no that you like Derek." Emily said smirking.

"Uhh, I hate when you know everything. I didn't like him before."

"Liar…and I could always tell that he liked you. It was obvious." Emily said grinning.

Casey flopped her head on Emily's shoulder.

"So what we will do is pig out at my house and you can crash there. Like old times." Emily says as she picks Casey's head off of her shoulder. Casey gathered her stuff and they went over to Emily's house.

George and Nora called a few times on Casey's cell phone just to check if she was alright. They got a little worried when Casey explained that she had left Derek behind. It was now about 9pm. Casey waited by the window of Emily's living room looking down at her house to see if Derek had come home, but he didn't. Emily was busy watching TV clicking through the channels when she came to the news.

"An unidentified teen was hit by a car a little late in the after noon by a drunk driver. Right outside Chino's Pizzeria-"the reporter stated.

Casey couldn't believe what she just heard, neither did Emily. They sat up close to the television hoping to get a glimpse of this 'unidentified' victim.

"The young boy was wearing a black leather jacket."

Casey and Emily looked at each other. Emily couldn't believe that Casey had a premonition of Derek's death .She couldn't believe that Derek was even dead. The guy that lived right next door to her, who never even noticed her, was dead.

Casey slowly got up and ran out of Emily's house back to her own house. She looked around, but nobody seemed to be home. Emily came shortly after and saw her best friend in distress.

"It's my fault Emily! It's all my fault. I left him there and now he's dead. The only brother that I ever had. The only person that I told my secrets too, the one that I trusted most is gone." Casey dropped to the ground. She became weak and helpless. What was she to do now? Derek is gone.

"Casey, I'm going to go back to my house and get your things. I'll make you some soup…okay?" Emily ran off in tears crying to her house.

"I can't believe that I would do this to him. I knew I liked him the whole time. Every single fucking year that I've lived in this goddamn house I've liked him. But I was scared. I was fucking scared and now he's dead. Why do I have to be such an idiot? Why did I force him to act like my brother? Why didn't I admit to Sam that I did have feelings for Derek?" Casey thought out loud.

The door opened again. Casey was too weak to turn her head around and see who it was. She was so happy that Emily was helping her out. That even though Emily had been in love with Derek for so long, she helped Casey.

"Casey, what's wrong?"

Casey's head then sharply turned around and saw him…Derek. She got up and ran over to him and tightly wrapped her arms around him. Wow, Casey leaves me in the parking lot of the super market 7 hours ago then gives me a hug? What did I do?

"Derek you're not dead!" Casey exclaimed.

"Casey why would I be dead?" he asked

"The reporter said that some kid was in a black leather jacket and got hit by a car. And I had a dream about it before it happened. It was your jacket and I thought it was you, Emily and I thought it was you!" Casey said through tears.

"I listened to what you said before about the jacket and I was going to put in the box when I saw this kid, well a nerd and he was on a bench sitting with his head down. Supposedly he had just got turned down by some girl so I talked to him a bit and I gave him my jacket and I –"

Casey reached up and kissed Derek. This time it was a kiss that she was sure about, a passionate kiss. Not like any other kiss, this was real. Emily just then showed up and peered through the open door and she couldn't believe that she saw there, Derek alive, and kissing Casey. She dropped the bag right near the door and softly closed the front door.

Derek stopped her for a second. "Casey I'm going to fucking rock your world."

"What?" Casey asked.

"Oh my god, I totally just said that out loud didn't I?" Derek asked.

Casey slowly took of her shirt and dropped it on the floor. Then went to her pants and dropped them too.

"Oh really?" she said her eyebrow raised. She ran upstairs into Derek's room closing the door.

Oh.my.god. did…Did…Did Casey do what I just…think she did?

Derek ran up the stairs in his room locking the door.

He jumped on her tickling her again just like old times. He then stopped. Casey looked at him.

"Are you sure?" Derek asked.

"I'm sure." Casey said.

"Wait…if I'm not the one that died...holy crap Brian's dead!" Derek realized