Author's Note: Well I managed to type it up really quickly! It's longer too! Yah! Well thanks for everyone that read and reviewed! So thanks;
or-chan - Group 3... -sighs- and to think things are only going to get even worse... Thanks for reviewing!
DancerInTheDark101 - I think I was in a descriptive mood when I wrote that chapter hope this ones okay. The evil cliff hanger... Yes...It shall be arriving...Rather soon! -cackles evilly!- Thanks for reviewing!
Irn2 - Well...That would be telling! He's emotional in this chapter though calms down by the next one, kind of! That's really all I will say, anyway thanks for reviewing!
kavbj- I have no idea why you have caps .; Thanks, and thanks for reviewing!
white light horizon - lol, thanks I try to keep them...In character or rather keep in mind that they have to have some of the same personality traits as the older D-boys. Thanks for reviewing!
Cailany- No Kai can't -sniff sniff- Who knows maybe it's just something about him? Anyway thanks for reviewing!
Chapter 24
Kai was crying, out loud, walking quickly to his room, he still couldn't understand what had happened. What had he done to make everyone think that – had he not been kind enough?
"I can't believe…that they thought…" Kai murmured as he walked through the empty corridors, he just hoped that he wouldn't be stopped by a guard or worse – some one else from the Abbey.
His thoughts were flooded with emotions he never thought possible, he just felt numb again. "Why does no one ever trust me?" Was it because he didn't know how to talk to people without them starting the conversation, or was it because he was just so different.
Kai choked back as much feeling and tears as he could, but it just made the tears fall quicker, he decided he would use this time to go to the indoor arena. Which would be covered in snow. At least then his whole body could feel numb, just so it wasn't the inside where he felt empty and cold. "Is it my fault?" Was it the fact that he had not tried hard enough, he had tried – maybe he was a failure like his Grandfather had said.
"Does everyone…think that I would do that?" Did everyone that even saw him, mistrust him because of his looks, his personality – or was he meant to live alone, was he meant to feel like this? Had he done something bad when he was younger and was cursed with this horrible feeling. The misery and loneliness would not leave him, it followed him like his own shadow.
"Why would they let me hang around with them…If they didn't trust me?" It didn't make too much sense, last week everything had been fine, he had felt alive for once. Now, what had happened – had he said something, laughed at the wrong thing?
"I'm so confused…" He couldn't really tell when he had walked all the way around the Abbey and came to the one place he had wanted to go. He felt no joy that he had came to the door to the cold outside. Kai sniffed, hoping that no one else had ventured outside. Crimson eyes looked around wondering what his alternative place to go would be if someone else was already outside.
There was a huge oak tree, one that almost reached the dome roof, and Kai decided he would do something he had always loved to do. Climb.
Bryan grumbled, as a headache began – he had noticed that since they had grown up a little, everyone was getting soreheads from stress and tension. Whatever the Abbey really was, it wasn't to help children with health. "Kai!" Bryan had looked around, but had found that Kai always wanted to be alone when he was crying so where would he be? The only place no sane person would go.
"What do you want?" An answer came from up above, on a large branch Kai sat hugging his legs wondering if he should have even answered the other boy.
Bryan looked around and soon found that Kai was in the tree, and quickly walked over to it wondering how the boy had managed to climb so high up. "To speak with you?" Bryan was frowning and had his arms folded, he was slightly annoyed that it was he, that was getting blamed for everything.
Kai called back not interested in what Bryan was going to even say. He would have talked to anyone else, just not Bryan. "You're wasting your time if you are going to ask to be friends again." Kai looked away from Bryan, and turned his vision to one of the other trees that were barely covered with leaves.
"I was never really that close to you… though Tala was." Bryan looked down at his feet, he had never really had to say sorry to anyone, it just wasn't something he was used to doing.
Kai shrugged and turned his attention back to the boy on the ground, who had in turn looked up at him. "I don't care about any of you anymore." Kai's voice was blunt and cold, just like he was feeling – cold and empty, filled with nothing but hate and sorrow.
"Can you really let go that quickly." Bryan frowned, shouldn't he still be mad, or crying? He knew he had began crying when he had walked out because they all could hear him sniffing as his footsteps got further away.
"Yes. It's easy once you get your whole school killed." Kai said it with a blank of emotion, one that made Bryan wince slightly at the very thought of what Kai was saying to him. Was this the reason why Kai was so reserved?
"What?" Bryan came closer to the tree, in case he had misheard something – he hoped he had misheard what Kai had said or else he may have a very guilty feeling boy even more miserable.
"Voltaire hated my school. It made me cry… Which is a weak emotion…" Kai muttered though they just seemed to float down to where Bryan was standing, and he heard them as clear as anything. "So he killed your school-friends?" Bryan could remember his school vaguely, although there was some people he hated there was also some people he liked more than he did Tala.
"I've never had any friends." Kai shot a glare in Bryan's direction, and even though Bryan was sure he was the first one to know what had happened to make Kai so cold he was simply too engrossed in the details to care about Kai's feelings when he was speaking about it.
"Is that why you didn't know how to play games when we were younger?" Bryan stopped frowning, he now knew basically why Kai was so cold – he probably thought that Voltaire would come in and kill everyone if he should some sort of emotion. Then again Bryan had made Kai cry so would that mean he was going to die?
"It's why I am the way I am." Kai was no longer concerned about Bryan being there, he was sure that he would not climb a tree to try to be friends with him, he just wasn't that desperate. There was a short pause, then Kai decided he couldn't bare the stare he was receiving.
"Now leave." Kai put it very bluntly, it was obvious that Kai was not even wanting to acknowledge that Bryan was even standing below the tree.
"I still want to talk to you." Bryan would not leave until he had said what he wanted to say, even if it wasn't a huge sorry and get-out-of-Abbey-free card.
"You had years to talk to me Bryan. You are a bad chooser of time." Kai glared back down at the other boys, though Bryan was not as affected this time and decided that he would just continue to talk even if Kai didn't want to hear him.
"I was the one that turned Tala and Ian on you." Bryan watched as Kai looked at him as if he was bored, there was something in his eyes that told Bryan different. He was hurt beyond words.
"I know." He stated simply, the simplicity of it shocked the other boy below. Bryan swallowed a huge lump that had suddenly came at the back of his throat.
"How?" He was a little confused on how Kai could have worked it out completely, Bryan may have accused him but Tala had also given him information on why.
"You never have liked me Bryan even if I did try to make friends with you." Kai wasn't really sure why Bryan frowned at that.
"I had my reasons." Bryan rolled his eyes not really wanting to be there. Kai knew that he was just doing this so he could be on the good side of Tala again. Bryan winced at the hissing tone Kai used. "Jealous was one of them…" Again Bryan gulped, he knew that it wouldn't be so easy to convince Kai to be friends with Tala and Ian again, even if Kai just made friends with Ian then Group 3 would be back to normal just as quickly.
"I guess you aren't as oblivious as you seem." Bryan walked forward, wanting to see Kai's face as he had moved to another branch. Kai stayed silent for a minute and tried to think of something else to say.
"My mum once told me to always say less than what you know." It was okay advice, he would have the upper hand on every situation if the enemy thought he were stupid and underestimated everything that happened and everything that Kai would do. "Sometimes it's better if you get ignored." Ignored, Kai knew that word to well, his family hadn't been the greatest people alive, and even his…Even his friends had decided to ignore him.
"Kai – make back in with Tala and Ian. They didn't really mean to fall out with you." Bryan knew that it was stupid to keep repeating himself, and he also knew that it was almost pointless to even try to convince him, they hated each other, why would he take his advice? His pleads?
"I won't for three reasons." Kai jumped down a branch so he was staring right at Bryan. They both stayed still. "Which are?" Bryan narrowed his eyes, glaring back at Kai's intense look.
"One – you managed to persuade them into falling out with me, which means they had to believe that I was going to do something behind their backs. In others word they didn't trust me fully to start off with." Bryan could see how he came up with that and so let it pass, if there another one that didn't make sense then he would pull him up for that. Though Kai, in his own mind was making perfect sense.
"Two – you are only doing this because Tala will hate you since it turned out you were wrong. I want to see you suffer now, you made everyone doubt me. I will do the same back." Bryan blinked, a little shocked at the intensity of his words. Kai was not the one to speak and as he listed these reason Bryan could feel himself getting colder and colder. Finally realising that this was his fate – he was going to be the reason why everyone fell out.
"And the third?" Bryan was thinking that maybe even his third reason would have a lack of logic and that maybe he could turn and twist his words… Though he couldn't with what Kai answered with.
"The third is because I will this way never be able to betray you. Therefore I will keep my word. For the moment." Kai glared at the end of his sentence, and Bryan was taken aback at the words he used.
"What do you mean for the moment?" Bryan hissed back, glare now fixed on the smirking Kai's face.
"It will depend on what my Grandfather offers." Kai rolled his eyes, he hated that he would – and he knew he would, protect them all even though he hated them. He just could not betray them. No matter what, but then again making Bryan angry was making him much happier than he was.
"So you really will betray us then!" Bryan was enraged to hear what Kai had just said. He was being hated by his friends because he had been supposedly wrong that Kai wouldn't betray them! Now he was saying he would! Kai bowed his head and again stated, with very little emotion.
"Only if it means… That it will save you."
Bryan was confused on what that meant, was there a hidden meaning or did he mean what he was saying? "What is that meant to mean Hiwatari!" Kai scoffed and shouted back, now annoyed more than he thought he could ever be. "I'm surprised you even know my last name."
Bryan sighed and rubbed his head, his headache was now worse, he had been ignoring it for some time, but now it was shooting pains all around his head. "Kai… You're annoyed – but don't fall out with Tala or Ian. They'll end up getting too depressed." Bryan was trying to persuade with emotional blackmail. Maybe if Kai thought Ian and Tala were going to get really sad he would come back, but Kai just shrugged.
"Then it's you're fault with they break. You could have just talked to me." Kai looked down again at Bryan, he was now showing no emotion, except his eyebrows were slightly lowered in a small frown.
"Look – I'm sorry, but I'm sure you would have done the same!" Bryan was now just tying to defend his actions. Kai on the other hand was having none of it. "The same? I wouldn't have done anything until you done something to be accused of!" Kai shouted, anger flaring in his eyes, he was now beginning to hate, to loath the boy before him. Bryan shouted back within an instant. "Like hell you would!" Kai was angry as was Bryan, and they both could not find a way to walk away from the argument they were having. Their very personalities clashing.
"Why are you angry? You got what you want. I'm out of the group Tala can be your best friend! Or maybe it was Ian or even Spencer that you wanted to steal back. Just because I'm not worthy of any of them!" Kai waited a while until he heard no reply. Then there was another silence, one that made the two boys a little calmer.
Bryan sighed, he had went off track, he hadn't come here to argue and get Kai to just get even more angrier. "This isn't what I came here for… just please fall back in with them." Kai said once again in a expressionless and emotionless voice. "No."
That answer made the older boy angry again within seconds, "I don't get you!" He shouted at the boy still sitting up on a branch in the tree.
"I don't care." Kai shrugged again, he just wanted to be alone. He wanted to just sit on that branch for all eternity and cry. Cry until he no longer felt the pain inside him, the numbing pain.
"I'm giving you a chance to get everything back to normal – why aren't you taking it!" Kai snorted and glared at the boy – so much that Bryan lowered his gaze.
"No, it won't. Tala will be extra wary between both of us, Ian will shut up whenever one of us turn angry instead of trying to break the ice like he usually does and Spencer will side with me more often. Not to mention Tala and Ian will also side with me more since they are on a guilt trip!" He hated that he knew what would happen when he came back – nothing would be the same anymore… Nothing.
"How do I know you aren't doing this on purpose?" Bryan frowned and waited for an answer. "I am." Bryan blinked, and looked at Kai with a confused expression while the cold mask stared back. "Is that what you want to hear?" Kai raised an eyebrow but nothing else moved, no other emotion leaked through.
"No." Bryan lowered his head, he didn't actually want to think Kai would betray them, it was just him being suspicious again.
"Just say so and I'll willingly go up to Tala and everyone else and tell them that I am doing this to hurt them." Kai mocked, a hint of cruel amusement came to his voice. He was angry he was hurt what else could he think of doing except tormenting his tormentor.
"Why would you do that?" Bryan said quietly, though Kai managed to hear it and decided to give the boy below his actual reason on why he hurt like he did.
"Because I hate you… I hate you all." Bryan winced again, "I want you to feel the pain that I went through as you stabbed me in the back with that small hidden dagger of yours!" Bryan could imagine a little of what Kai must have been feeling when he had been accused. "When people say words can't hurt their lying, because they know the pain that can be felt with a flick of a tongue, a stupid mistake of ignorance." Kai's was shouting, he just wanted the lavender boy to disappear and leave him in this tree forever.
"I didn't mean it okay. I was mistaken now come back." Bryan was now pleading, he didn't really like Kai. Though he didn't hate him, it was a strange friendship they both had. They couldn't really stand to be around one another – yet they did stay with each other and occasionally did something nice.
"No. You fail Bryan." Bryan frowned a little, not really understanding what Kai meant when he had said he had failed. Though Kai just seemed to pick up where he had left off and continued to speak, explaining what he had meant. "You fail as a friend…someone that I trust – you fail as family…someone I would never betray… you are no longer anything. You are nothing." Bryan blinked, Kai had considered him family? Even through the years whenever Kai referred to his Grandfather he would only ever say Voltaire, and he was actually family. Bryan now felt another pang of guilt rush over him.
"Kai… You can come back whenever…you want…whenever. No matter what." Bryan was just hoping that this would make Kai feel welcome, even if he did decide it three months later. Whenever Kai came back it would end up making Tala happy again. Which was the main reason why Bryan was even trying to get along with the blue-haired boy.
"I don't care Bryan." Kai turned away not wanting to show Bryan the new flood of tears that were about to start. However the slightly older boy seemed to understand a little and decided to leave it at that.
"I think you do." Bryan turned on his heel and left Kai to wallow once again in his own self-loathing.
Spencer had looked through the Abbey, looking for the small boy which he needed to talk to. He didn't really think that Kai of all people would be out in the cold, then again it would be certain he would be alone from anyone else.
The blonde quickly made his way over, where he could see some movement in the tree. He could see the hair that was two-toned and very familiar, Spencer sighed in relief, knowing that the lost boy was now found. He didn't know Bryan had already been to see him.
"There you are." Spencer smiled when the small boy turned around on the branch to look at him. Kai squinted his eyes, he wasn't really sure who it was – his eyesight had gone a little funny, maybe it was the cold getting to him. He didn't care.
"Spencer?" Kai was hoping it was, and if it was just some random person from the Abbey that wanted a chat then he would just climb higher, and hope the other person got the message that he wanted to be alone.
Spencer nodded and moved closer, wondering if he could climb the tree, but he decided against it – if Kai wanted company he would come down. "I think you should forgive them all." Spencer got straight to the point. He just hoped Kai wouldn't be hurt even more because he hadn't ask how he was. Though he was sure he would be feeling rather low.
"But they all…thought that I would hurt them on purpose." Kai decided that he was getting too lonely up in the tree and decided to climb slowly down it to meet Spencer on the ground.
"Bryan convinced them, it doesn't mean that they one hundred percent thought it." Spencer watched the small boy as he jumped and hopped between branches, getting closer to the ground in which he was aiming for.
"But I…" Kai started off then suddenly trailed off, his argument no longer made as much sense why was it whenever he talked to Spencer he felt inadequate. Spencer shook his head, still watching Kai climb down the large tree. He was hoping that Kai wouldn't fall.
"I'm sure when you met Tala you thought he was up to something." Spencer had noticed since day one that Kai was much more suspicious and more cautious than Bryan was. Which would make a good reason on why they both didn't like each other very much, they just didn't trust one another.
"Yeah but that's when I had just met him, he should have known I wouldn't do something like that!" Kai had never thought Tala would look so bored, so tired and alone. He had never went through a day without laughing and smiling, yet that morning he hadn't even looked as if he had eaten anything.
"Kai, it's your choice whether or not to fall in with them or not." Spencer heard Kai jump and land on the ground with a small thud. He quickly stood up and walked over to the eldest boy.
"I want to fall in with them I just…I just want them to hurt like I did…" Kai usually didn't like to hurt people, in fact he hated the feeling of wanting to hurt someone. Yet here he was trying to find a way to hurt everyone else the same way he had been.
"You want revenge on them?" Spencer wasn't surprised, usually someone would want revenge in a situation like this, it was just normal that Kai was experiencing this. Though he probably didn't even want to feel like he had to hurt Tala or anyone else.
Kai mutely shook his head, he didn't really understand why he was so familiar with the concept, he too had used revenge only in a short amount of coming to the Abbey. Then again he had also gotten revenge on Daniil. "Sounds like it." Spencer noticed that Kai's usual blank face was twisted with emotion. The kid must have been incredibly confused on what to do.
"I just want them to know…How much pain I felt when they thought that. When they accused me…" Kai mumbled not wanting to go into too much detail since he was sure he would end up crying once again, and he would not cry!
"So you will become friends with them?" Spencer turned around and began walking, very slowly towards the door which was on the other side of the dome room. Kai sighed and thought about it. "Not at the moment." He just wanted them to know what a day without him meant, if it did mean anything at all.
"Think about everything Kai. Not just what happened this week." Spencer knew that when people were angry with others they would only think about negatives, and that was not what would help a friendship be sown back up.
"Tala had helped us all – Ian was just following someone he respected thoughts. Remember that most people in the Abbey are tricked into things." Spencer was wondering if Bryan had been asked to cause this, not in so many words – but id Boris had maybe talked to him, and 'accidentally' let something about Kai slip. Then Bryan could have had a seed of suspicion when near Kai.
"Do you mean that this could have been planned…?" Kai looked up, half hoping that it had been planned so then they could all just make-up and get on with beyblading. He happy since he had got Dranzer, though he was still a little obsessed with Black Dranzer.
"Who knows…Maybe." Spencer was now in deep thought about what could have caused Bryan to be so bold, usually he was the sneaky type that would only ask everyone else about something then conclude something on his own. This time he had just opening stated that he thought Kai would back stab them all.
"Why?" Kai was a little confused, what difference would it make if he left or fell out with everyone. He wasn't sociable and didn't have many friends – now that he thought about it, his only friend was Spencer.
"If you were to leave Group 3. Bryan would get ignored, with that Tala would break easily and Ian is still young and wouldn't be able to cope." Spencer wasn't really thinking that Kai would speak to him so openly, then again he had just fallen out with everyone expect him, so he probably was feeling much more trustworthy than usual.
"So I should forgive them?" Kai wasn't sure why he placed all of his trust into the older blader, maybe it was because he had helped him on many occasions or maybe it was just because he was simply older than he was.
"It's up to you." Spencer shrugged his shoulders and just hoped that Kai would end up being friends with everyone again.
"I've not fallen out with you Spencer." Kai looked around wondering if anyone else would come through the doors. He was thinking why Tala and Ian hadn't found him yet. Or where they just not looking for him? When Kai looked up at the blonde he noticed that he was smiling again.
"I know. I am grateful." Kai tilted his head to one side, something he had seemed to pick up from Tala. Kai was wondering why Spencer would say he was grateful. "Why?" Spencer chuckled he knew that Kai really wouldn't understand, he was smart but he was hopeless when it came to emotions.
"We're still friends." Spencer patted him on the head, and Kai finally understood that the reason Spencer was smiling was because he hadn't fallen out with him like the rest. So he was happy because they were still friends…?
"One question though… Would you never betray any of us? Not even Bryan." Spencer's smile disappeared and was replaced with a serious expression. Kai frowned as well thinking over everything.
"There is only one thing I would even dare betray you all for…" Kai sighed and thought about how he would explain it to the older boy.
"What is it?" Spencer was not liking that one thing, why would he betray them all after he had made such a ruckus over him not betraying them.
"To keep you all safe." Kai decided that it was time that he should leave and go back to his room, he still had a little while until his grandfather called for him again.
"To keep us safe eh?" Spencer frowned deeply, and wondered why Kai would even say such a think, usually people would say no or give a yes. Nothing like that, Spencer began to wonder, what exactly had Voltaire told him to do?
Author's Note: A little longer than the last one. I hope I will be able to update quickly through the week… Let just pray that school does not give me any homework… Anyway please review!