Rating: T
Author: Freeing Alys
Disclaimer: I don't own HSM or any of the charectors that we already know. Anything that you don't regonize, I own.
Summary: Kelsi was always the quiet and distant one. The only thing she has going for her is her composurers. And maybe the guy she always wanted. Kelsi centric. Trelsi?
CHAPTER THREE
Kelsi hung over the edge of her bed and tightly pinched her eyes shut. This wasn't happening. It couldn't be. She thought to herself over and over again, but she knew it was. Her parents were splitting up, and she'd probably never see her Dad again. It was the end of her perfect family. She always did think that they were a perfect family. When she was younger she never had to pretend she was anywhere else, she loved right where she was. Sighing Kelsi flung herself up on top of her bed and rolled her eyes at her surroundings. Her nightstand was full of family pictures and short poems about her parents. Standing off of her bed she walked over to her nightstand and swiftly ran her hand across the pictures, causing them to knock over and crash on the floor.
Feeling somewhat better Kelsi walked from her bedroom into her bathroom and shut and locked the door behind her. Groaning in anger she slid down the wall and fell onto the tiled floor. Tracing her fingers in the cracks on the floor Kelsi let her mind swirl with all that was happening. It was falling apart. Her family and life was just like the floor she was tracing, slowly cracking waiting to completely fall apart. Closing her eyes again, Kelsi felt her life spin out of control. It was all a big mess. She was falling for a guy she could never have. Her parents were splitting up. She couldn't write a great song for the musical for the life of her…it was falling apart.
Feeling her stomach growl Kelsi pushed the feeling away, food was really the last thing that she wanted. Indulging herself in food just reminded her of what she couldn't have, and she hated that feeling. So she pushed the feeling of the hunger away and stood up off the floor. Not wanting to leave the calmness of the bathroom Kelsi stared at herself in the mirror and tried to plot a plan to make her life more bareable.
"Kelsi!" Mrs. Nielson yelled through the wooden door, interupting Kelsi's thoughts with the loud knocks.
"Yeah?" Kelsi asked not bothering to put any emotion in the question. Her Mom really didn't deserve to know anything Kelsi was feeling, splitting up her family wasn't the way to get onto Kelsi's good side.
"Dinner." Mrs. Nielson told her daughter and Kelsi heard the clicks of her Mom's shoes moving away from the door.
Sighing Kelsi walked out of the bathroom and headed into the kitchen. Eating was the last thing that Kelsi wanted, but she knew her Mom's temper would only rise if she didn't go to the dinner table. Sitting across from her Mom Kelsi took in her Dad's empty spot and shook her head at no one inpediticular.
"Your Dad is coming by tomorrow to say bye." Mrs. Nielson said taking a bit of her caserole and carefully chewing it.
Kelsi shrugged her shoulders and tried to not show any feelings to her Mother. "Great." She said and turned her gaze to her Mom's face. She was perfectly made up, makeup on her face and not a hair out of place. It was the way she always was when she was trying to impress. Kelsi shook her head again, not really seeing why she needed to impress anyone. It was stupid.
"You're not hungry?" Mrs. Nielson asked Kelsi and she carefully shook her head, trying not to knock her bowler hat off.
"Not really." Kelsi answered staring at the food and turned it into her enemy. Food was for people whom wanted to reward themselves, or indulge in something great. Indulging was the last thing Kelsi wanted to feel her stomach full of something and her heart full of nothing wasn't what she even needed.
"Okay." Mrs. Nielson nodded her head and took another bite of food and swallowed it. "How is your music going?" She asked Kelsi knowing she got asked to supply more music for yet another musical at East High School.
Kelsi looked up into her Mom's gaze and shrugged her shoulders. "Horribly actually." She answered and saw her Mom nod her head.
"I'm sure something will come, you have that way of being able to write something sooner or later." Mrs. Nielson said while scooping more food onto her fork and shoving it into her mouth.
"Yeah…" Kelsi retorted while taking her Mother's features in. Kelsi was always able to get something inspirational from her Mom from time to time. Even with all the fighting and family separating going on, inspiration was never far when Kelsi really talked to her Mom. "Thanks." Kelsi told her Mom feeling grateful for her. "I've been stuck for awhile, I wrote something yesterday, but it kind of sucks." Kelsi confined in her Mom and she saw her nod again.
"Just keep going at it, you'll get there." Mrs. Nielson told Kelsi finishing her food. "Well if you're not going to eat, I'll clean up." She stated and stood out of her chair.
"I think I'm going to go write." Kelsi said scooting out of her chair.
"Have fun." Mrs. Nielson said as Kelsi walked out of the room.
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Kelsi's phone rang in her room, interupting her song writing process. Sighing Kelsi walked away from her keyboard and picked up the phone casually, hoping with all her heart it was Troy. Twenty four hours without him was twenty four more then she wanted. "Hello?" Kelsi asked into the receiver.
"Kels?" She heard Gabbi's voice in her ear and Kelsi's heart sunk.
"Gabbi, hey." Kelsi replied sitting lightly on her bed, Gabbi was most likely calling to apologize once again for being mad at her.
"Troy called me and told me about you staying at his house. I just wanted to make sure you're okay." She said quickly, rushing the sentences by like she was scared to say them.
Shaking her head Kelsi started to pick on the edge of her mattress lightly with her fingers. "Yeah Gabbi, I'm fine." She answered slowly and casually. "What did Troy say?" She threw in and regretted it right away. Feeling guilty for her feelings and asking his girlfriend about them, it was horrible and wrong. I'm turning into something bad. Kelsi thought as Gabbi cleared her throat to answer.
"He just told me about you showing up at his house and asking to stay the night. I think he was a little worried about you. So he called me when he found your note." Gabbi stated and Kelsi shook her head. Worried, it was a pretty light feeling. It wasn't anything real or personal, it just was.
"Oh." Kelsi let out lamely and she mentally kicked herself for being so lame. "Okay." Kelsi tried again, but failed once again horrible.
"Look Kels, I'm really sorry. I can just get mad and then be like the biggest bitch ever. Sorry. Let's hang out tomorrow." Gabbi told Kelsi and she smiled to herself. As much as she hated her small fall outs with Gabbi, she still wanted a best friend.
So she let Gabbi in every time she wanted to be back in.
"Okay, sounds like fun." Kelsi answered. After making plans to meet at Gabbi's after her shift at the mall food court Kelsi hung up with her.
Hanging up the phone Kelsi laid back on her bed and stared at her ceiling. No matter how much Kelsi really didn't want it to be happening she couldn't deny it. She was falling for her on and off best friend's boyfriend, and it wasn't a good thing. Sighing, Kelsi pulled her large comforter over her body and stared into the darkening room. Troy was someone she'd admired from afar since they both entered the ninth grade, but being around him since last year, she couldn't hide her feelings anymore. "This isn't happening." Kelsi whispered in the dark room, hating the fact her life was taking the turn that it was.
TBC