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-There's a place so dark you can't see the end
Skies cock back and shock that which can't defend
The rain then sends dripping / an acidic question
Forcefully, the power of suggestion
Then with the eyes shut / looking thought the rust and rot
And dust / a small spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and its dark again
In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up-
A Place For My Head By: Linkin Park
-Chapter 9-
A little later that night…
-Hisoka's dream-
He was running, from someone he couldn't see, and didn't know. He fell onto the ground and tried to get up, but was unable to. He fought an invisible enemy, a man, but to no avail.
Hands were everywhere at once, touching, and pain. There was so much pain.
"Help! Someone! Anyone! Please, make it stop!" he cried.
Then it was gone and he was alone.
He looked around frantically, searching for the presence he had come to know and accept. That's when he saw him.
"Tsuzuki!" he cried as he tried to go to him, but found he was unable to move. He was being held back by thousands of invsibles hands, the same hands that had been touching him. There was the same pain that flaired all over his skin.
"Tsuzuki!" he cried out again, but the angel turned and walked away.
Hisoka was crying, wishing for the pain to stop. There was no relief. And Tsuzuki slowly faded away…
"Hi…"
He thought he heard something, but that couldn't be it. There was no one there, he was alone again, with all the pain.
"Hiso…"
But he heard it again, a noise that called to him, reaching out. The hands tightened their hold on him, trying to keep him there, burning his skin with their hold.
"Please, help me!" Hisoka cried. "Tsuzuki!!!!"
"Hisoka!" he heard before his eyes flew open.
"Tsuzuki…" he whimpered out.
"I'm right here Hisoka."
Hisoka looked up at Tsuzuki, the angel was sitting right next to him, with a hand on his shoulder.
"Are you alright?"
Hisoka couldn't answer, he only looked at Tsuzuki. Through the contact Hisoka was able to feel Tsuzuki's emotions. The kindness, comfort, worry, fear, helplessness, this was Tsuzuki.
"You're crying.." Tsuzuki said, as he reached out and wiped away one of the tears.
"Tsuzuki…" Hisoka mumbled before launching himself at Tsuzuki.
Tsuzuki was startled at first, but quickly brought his hands up to envelope the youth in a fierce embrace. Hisoka clung to Tsuzuki, hiding against the man, like the child he truly was. Tsuzuki just held him, knowing that words wouldn't help.
They stayed like that for a long time, until Hisoka began to calm down.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Tsuzuki asked.
Hisoka paused for a moment. How could he explain his nightmare to Tsuzuki?
"You can tell me anything, you know that, right?"
"I just… had a nightmare.. That's all." Hisoka said quietly.
"It must have been pretty bad. You know sometimes telling someone a nightmare makes it less scary." Tsuzuki said.
Hisoka thought for a moment. Maybe Tsuzuki could help him, but then again… he wasn't sure.
"Please Hisoka. I want to help you." Tsuzuki pleaded.
"It was… this pain. The there were hands all over me and Gods it hurt. I couldn't make it stop, they hurt so bad… there was a man, I don't know who he was, cause it hurt so bad… and then you were there, but you left me! I cried out to you, but you walked away! You left me!" Hisoka cried, before burying his face into Tsuzuki's shirt once again, sobbing.
Tsuzuki was stunned. Had Hisoka dreamt about what was going to happen? No that's impossible. Considering his past, the pain probably came from there, but me… I was there. And I left him. I thought that that was my fear.
"Hisoka I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere."
"Yes you are!" Hisoka cried all of a sudden.
"What do you mean?"
"It's been fifteen days Tsuzuki. In fifteen more you'll be gone and I'll be alone again." Hisoka replied, still crying.
Tsuzuki froze. It was true, he had to leave in fifteen days, but he planned on coming back, that is if Hisoka ever forgave him.
"I'm not just going to leave you Hisoka. I'm going to come back."
"You're lying…"
"What?"
"You're lying! You're going to leave me just like everyone else!"
"That's not true. I would never do that to you. I promise."
Hisoka looked back up at Tsuzuki. "You promise…?"
Tsuzuki let out a small smile. "I promise. Now, why don't you try and get some sleep."
Hisoka looked frightened for a moment.
"Don't worry I'll be right here the whole time." Tsuzuki said reassuringly but Hisoka refused to let go of Tsuzuki. "You need to let go if you're going to lie down."
Hisoka still didn't move.
Tsuzuki smiled as he played himself down, holding Hisoka to him. Hisoka snuggled closer to Tsuzuki, laying his head against Tsuzuki's chest.
Hisoka must have been very tired because he found himself quickly falling asleep. Tsuzuki's warm presence and emotions, were lulling him to sleep. And soon enough he was fast asleep.
"Good night Hisoka." Tsuzuki said, leaning over and giving Hisoka a kiss on his forehead.
Hisoka let out a small smile in his sleep, as if he knew what Tsuzuki had just done.
Tsuzuki then frowned, thinking about how similar his fears were to Hisoka's. The boy didn't want to be alone, and yet Tsuzuki knew that at the end of the month he would have to leave. It would be by force, but the hoped to be able to come back and visit Hisoka every now and then, but he wasn't kidding anybody. He knew that it was simply a lie that he told himself, and now Hisoka. He would try, he would fight to see Hisoka again, but there weren't any guaranties.
Tsuzuki watched Hisoka sleep. His face seemed so peaceful, without nay of the harsh lines, that normally dawned his face. He was like a sleeping angel. And he was young, so young it was painful to know what the boy had been through. He couldn't change the past, and he doubted he could change the future. There was nothing he could do, but that wasn't right, he could do something.
He had a month, or now fifteen days. He has fifteen days to show Hisoka how much he is worth, to show him true happiness. He wanted to give him that at least. But then what about when it was taken away. What would happen to Hisoka then…
Tsuzuki didn't want to think about it right now. He was too tired, and he still had time.
Yes, he still has time…
-End Chapter 9-
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