Chapter 8: I Am Not Afraid To Keep On Living
Kadaj woke up alone. There was a slight depression in the mattress where Cloud had slept. The teen stuck his nose in the sheets to breathe in the blonde's scent. (How depressing.)
He stood, stretched languidly, and stumbled off to the shower, finding it still wet from Cloud using it. Scowling, Kadaj scrubbed himself clean. The warm, wet heat of the water was different than the heat of another body against his.
The silver-haired remnant was suddenly restless, and jumped out of the shower without drying off. Instead of the boring, casual clothes Cloud had set out for him yet again, he found his old leather uniform, and pulled it on. The soft, black leather fit like a second skin, but it comforted Kadaj little. He could feel himself twitching. (What's wrong with me?)
He stepped out feverishly into the hall, stalked down it's length and shouted, "Cloud, where the hell are you!?"
The blonde appeared at once, eyes cold and accusing. "You ate my muffin."
"And...?" Kadaj arched a thin silver eyebrow and crossed his arms.
"That was my last muffin." He said with a cold gleam in his eyes, and took a menacing step forward.
All of the sauciness drained out of the teen as he backed away fearfully. Cloud matched each backward step with a forward one until he had Kadaj backed against a wall. He pressed himself against the thin, leather-clad body and growled, "You know you're going to pay for this, don't you?"
Kadaj nodded silently, anticipation brewing inside him as he ran his hands down the blonde's chest. The predatory glare in the older man's eyes excited him, made his blood alternately freeze and boil.
In the next second he found Cloud's lips on his own, the blonde's fingers digging pointedly into his ribs. Cloud smirked internally as he felt Kadaj's moan hum down his throat. He pushed his tongue into the younger man's mouth, wanting more, taking more.
One of the blonde's hands slipped from the slim waist, danced lightly over a round butt-cheek, and settled on the back of a firm thigh, squeezing and kneading gently. Kadaj let out a low growl, and Cloud began nipping and licking his way along the remnant's jaw until he caught an earlobe between his teeth. Kadaj groaned as the blonde sucked lightly, his hands snaking around the older man's shoulders.
Cloud licked the boy's earlobe one last time with the tip of his tongue and, feeling him shudder, snarled, "I want you."
Panting weakly, Kadaj glared at him with green eyes darkened with lust. "Take me, I'm yours."
The blonde balked slightly at the younger man's enthusiasm, then kissed him again with increased fervor. Somehow, they managed to get to the bed without breaking apart.
Kadaj only noticed the change in scenery when the backs of Cloud's knees hit the edge of the bed, making the blonde topple over onto the mattress, the silver-haired teen sprawling on top of him. The blonde laughed lightly at the bewildered look on Kadaj's face. They took a moment to arrange themselves into a more comfortable position, and Kadaj claimed Cloud's already well-kissed lips as his own again. Cloud responded with complete enthusiasm, one hand pulling Kadaj's head closer, the other pressed firmly to the small of the teen's back.
The remnant purred and rubbed his lips against the column of the blonde's throat, kissing and biting when he thought it necessary. Not matter how calm or collected he appeared, he was on fire inside. Small red dots swam in the corners of his vision and his cheeks were hot and flushed. If something more interesting didn't happen soon, he would most likely explode.
"Mmm...Kadaj..." Cloud groaned happily and tilted his chin up, more than willing to let the teen have his fun. There was time enough, and he was more than willing to wait for the conclusion, which would no doubt leave both of them quivering in ecstasy and gasping for breath like fish out of water.
Kadaj's thoughts were getting more and more fuzzy and unfocused. A thousand different wants and needs rushed through his brain at hyper-speed, confusing him as to what he should do next. He wanted to feel Cloud's tongue lapping lightly against his own, needed the spiky-haired blonde to touch him—everywhere.
He wondered in the next moment if Cloud could read minds, because those wonderful fingers of his were traveling down Kadaj's spine, teasing the sensitive patch of skin on his lower back, urging him onward. The remnant shuddered, squeezing his eyes shut and letting everything but the massaging fingers fade away for a moment.
The jade eyes flashed open when Cloud's fingers drummed impatiently on his back. It seemed as if he, too, was ready for the next move to be played. Kadaj stripped off his gloves with his teeth and tossed them away feverishly. He rubbed his palms lightly over Cloud's chest to get rid of the sweat that had appeared there and pulled the zipper of the blonde's shirt down slowly, attempting to calm the leaping flame of desire and excitement in his mind. Cloud watched, a provocative smile gracing his lips, as Kadaj pushed his sweater aside and stared in open appreciation at his body.
"A gil for your thoughts." The blonde's smile widened and his eyes glittered.
Kadaj's saucy grin had reappeared. He traced the well-defined muscles with a possessive hand and purred, "Acres and acres and it's all mine."
Cloud chuckled and followed suit, unzipping the silver-haired teen's leather shirt and letting his fingers brush softly against the milky-white skin. Kadaj gasped at the warmth of the blonde's fingertips as they cavorted over the firm planes and faint scars of the teen's bare chest. Cloud then proceeded to rid the remnant completely of his shirt, tossing it carelessly to the side.
Stripped of his shirt, Kadaj lounged on top of Cloud, pressing light kisses to his lips and neck. The swordsman let Kadaj have his way, wrists crossed above his head, squirming a little as the silver strands of hair tickled his cheeks.
Kadaj traveled down Cloud's chest, lips barely brushing the warm skin. He came to the blonde's navel and licked it slowly, looking up with a slightly startled smile at the blush traveling over Cloud's cheeks as the man tried to suppress a laugh. "Ticklish." The blonde managed to choke out, trying to provide an explanation for the quirked silver eyebrow.
The remnant only shook his head with a smug look, diverting his attention instead to Cloud's pants. Deft fingers unbuckled the belt without fault and went on to the next button in the way. Kadaj stilled as the blonde's hand covered his own. He looked up into the blonde's cobalt-blue eyes, finding them full of that marvelously sensual glitter.
"My turn." Cloud hummed, answering the unspoken question in the snake-like jade eyes. Kadaj groaned, not wanting to move, and then inhaled sharply when Cloud bucked avidly beneath him, feeling their crotches rub against each other for the first time.
And then, dizzyingly fast, he found himself hitting the mattress, Cloud's lips crushed against his, almost bruising him. They were pressed together, chest to chest, groin to groin, and suddenly Kadaj was suffocated by the older man. All he could do was wrap his arms around Cloud's shoulders, rock his hips against him insistantly. The scorching pace was terrifying and strangely satisfying at the same time, and it was exactly what Kadaj had been waiting for.
Cloud broke away from the kiss, opting instead to nip at Kadaj's neck, biting rather hard and leaving red marks on the pale skin. The younger man hummed out a quiet moan, and the blonde had the pleasure of feeling the sound against his lips as he kissed the defaced skin. "Nnng...Cloud...!"
Cloud could feel Kadaj's erection pressing against his stomach, and he couldn't help being tempted by the urge to hurry up, a whisper of urgency flashing through his mind. But it would be more fun to tease the younger man then to get busy right away. Kadaj squirmed as the blonde flicked his tongue down the younger man's neck. His breath left him in a hiss through clenched teeth and he arched against Cloud when the older man bit down into the soft skin above his collarbone.
Cloud lingered there for a moment, suckling, pleased by the way Kadaj snarled, trying to wriggle away, rub himself against the blonde, anything to relieve the building pressure in his groin—and Cloud wouldn't let him. Though to be kind he moved away from the teen's collarbone, pressing wet kisses down his chest. He stopped abruptly, flashing Kadaj a devious grin before latching onto a pert nipple, fingers idly stroking the remnants side.
Kadaj jerked into Cloud's touch, the lips and teeth on his nipple sending electric shocks down his spine. The silver-haired young man exhaled sharply as Cloud nipped at him before slowly swirling his tongue around the now-hardened flesh. It was maddening for Kadaj to be worked up like this. He wished that Cloud would hurry up just a little, but when slender fingers brushed the waistband of his pants, his voice fluttered in his throat like a dying butterfly. His thin chest heaved as he tried to catch his breath.
When Cloud finally looked up, his smile was soft and warm and inviting. The teen was lost in it for a moment, but snapped quickly back to the present when the deceptively delicate-looking fingers unbuttoned his pants. He watched the blonde unzip the small zipper and slide the tight leather down, lifting his hip when necessary. Now the only barrier between them were his own sweat-soaked undergarments, and Cloud's own pants.
The blonde sat back and let his shirt slide the rest of the way off his arms, pants slung low on his hips, accentuating his toplessness. In any normal situation, the silence in the room would have been like a hot knife, cutting through the sexual tension like butter. But in Kadaj's case it was a more or less awestruck silence that made him twitch and whine with anticipation.
At last, he found his voice. "Cloud—" he began, jade eyes shining with hazy lust and fiery intent.
"No more talking." The blonde put up one finger and crawled over to the other side of the bed. The silver-haired teen waited impatiently for the couple of seconds it took Cloud to rummage through the drawer of a bedside table and find what he was looking for. Kadaj hungrily eyed the bottle of clear liquid dangling from Clouds fingers and growled, "Dammit, hurry up!"
Cloud responded with an eager growl and threw himself on top of the younger man. Kadaj surrendered to the hot kisses, his hands flying to the blonde's hips to slide down his pants. Again things were going at a pace the silver-haired remnant liked, hot and feverish though it was.
Kadaj all but ripped the older man's pants off as he felt his boxers slide down his legs. With a low snarl grabbed he Cloud's narrow hips and pulled him down to force their erections together, not even pausing to survey the other man's body.
Cloud moaned, his blood set afire by the impassioned noises being rent from Kadaj's throat and pressed harder against the silver-haired remnant, hands sliding under the curve of the teen's spine and shoving against the small of his back, forcing them to grind roughly together. Kadaj wailed, his vision wavering, sweat coating his skin. Cloud pushed his lips hard against the younger man's, causing their teeth to knock together painfully, tongues twisting and writhing around each other in an almost violent dance.
"C-cloud—!" Kadaj tore away, licking a spot of saliva from the corner of Cloud's mouth "Please..." he mewled pitifully, not acting like he usually would at all.
"Please what?" Cloud panted heavily, still teasing though he knew he was undeniably close to making the younger man his.
"Fk me." Kadaj hissed, jade eyes blazing with wild heat. He was trembling all over now, unable to keep the lust from his voice, fingers weaving through the short, yellow spikes at the nape of Cloud's neck anxiously.
The blonde nodded satisfactorily at the words, the heat in them washing over him, making him impatient and restless. He reached for the bottle that had been momentarily forgotten, pouring some of the contents on his fingers until they were wet and dripping suggestively. He opened his mouth to explain to Kadaj, who shook his head, cutting the blonde off as he lay back and spread his legs.
"I've done this before. I'm ready." Kadaj smirked at the look of surprise on Cloud's face and rubbed a foot against the older man's thigh to excite him further.
Interesting. Cloud was surprised that Kadaj's normally aggressive nature wasn't surfacing in the current situation, that he was letting the blonde dominate him without the slightest hint of protest. He stroked the remnants inner thighs soothingly, his eyes flickering across Kadaj's body. He adminstered a quick kiss to the silver-haired teen's knee before pressed a finger into him slowly, and paused briefly before adding the second one. He looking up sharply as Kadaj whimpered, arching his back and spreading his legs a little wider.
Cloud stopped for a moment to appreciate the blissful look on Kadaj's face, his hair falling around his flushed cheeks like a silver halo. It made his cock throb to consider just how blissful an expression he could make the teen have. He began to move his fingers in earnest, thrusting, scissoring, and stretching.
Kadaj arched his back with a yelp and pushed back against Cloud's fingers. The blonde bit his lip and added a third, feeling around for that one spot... The remnant threw his head back and cried out, white sparks bursting in his vision. By the time Cloud jabbed a fourth finger in, he was writhing with need, twisting erotically underneath the older man. "Cloud, I need you inside me, now!"
Cloud realized that he, too, was desperate to bury himself in the searing heat between the younger man's legs. He pulled his fingers out of Kadaj gently, earning a pleasured groan, and spread more of the clear liquid over his cock with a soft sigh and positioned himself for the next move. He gripped Kadaj's thin hips, and stared straight into the jade eyes. The teen took this as a hint and wrapped his legs around Cloud's waist, his arms around the strong shoulders, already panting.
Cloud felt a moan escape his lips as he took his time pushing into Kadaj, the force pressing down around him impossibly tight. The younger man whined deep in his throat, his legs tightening around Cloud as he was forced to stretch a little more than was comfortable. His fingernails scraped frantically at the blonde's back, leaving behind long, shallow scratches.
Cloud paused for a few moments to let Kadaj adjust before beginning to move, pushing gently as he rocked deeper inside the silver-haired remnant. He built a steady rhythm, his breath becoming shallow and ragged.
"C-cloud...aaaaggh...harder, faster...!" Kadaj demanded, bucking into the blonde's thrusts, almost annoyed by how slow he was moving.
Cloud obeyed, pushing harder and deeper into the heat, picking up the pace. He braced himself up on one arm and bent low over his lover.
His lover. The realization hit the swordsman and almost made him lose track of what he was doing. He loved this young man, who was even now moving with him in this heated dance, and there was nothing that was going to ever change that. Well then, he had better pleasure the boy as best he could. He brushed his lips in a heated caress against the teen's, his hand trailing down the slim, sweat-covered body to stroke Kadaj's erection in time to his thrusts.
Kadaj let out a spasmodic wail as Cloud began fisted him, the older man's hips still slamming into his relentlessly. His breath hitching as he arched his back, fingers tracing the groove of the older man's spine, holding on as if his life depended on it. He screamed and ground ferociously against the blonde when he hit the remnant's prostate, sending an impossible wave of pleasure over him.
Needless to say, Cloud noticed and angled himself so that he hit that spot every time, crashing his lover into repeated bliss. They were both close, and Cloud could feel Kadaj beneath him, pleading in broken cries and whispers for the blonde to make him come. He tightened his strokes...
Kadaj gave a broken scream of rapture, crying out Cloud's name. His muscles clenched almost painfully around the blonde as he climaxed, pulling the older man into orgasm with him. Cloud howled as he was thrown over the edge, filling Kadaj with his seed just as the evidence of his lover's recent release splattered into his hand.
Kadaj relaxed, flushed and spent as Cloud slumped against him, panting and smiling weakly. No doubt they would both be very sore in a couple of hours, but the act had been near perfect in itself, all love and heat and passion rolled into one. Their bond had been strengthened and they had shared something incredible. That was all that mattered now.
Cloud pulled out of the silver-haired teenager as gently as he could manage, causing both of them to let out quiet moans. He let himself collapse on the mattress beside Kadaj and pulled the younger man against his chest. Kadaj sighed softly and nuzzled the blonde's neck affectionately. They just laid there for a while, not talking, but not needing to.
"What's going to happen now?" Cloud asked softly, voicing an unspoken question that had risen in both of their minds within the last couple of minutes.
"I...I don't know. I guess I'm an orphan now." Kadaj didn't look at him, his voice low and rather forlorn. "My brothers, Yazoo and Loz...they're probably dead."
The older man pressed his lips together and curled his body protectively around the teenager's. He thought for a short while. (I want to be with him. For some reason...he's everything to me now.)
"I have an idea." He said suddenly, cobalt eyes sparkling triumphantly. "You know I've been living with orphans, right? Denzel and Marlene?"
The remnant nodded silently. "Those kids. Yeah."
"And you're an orphan. So...maybe you'd like to live with me?" Cloud smiled at the shocked expression on Kadaj's face.
"I...I would love that. Do you think...your friends. Would they accept me?" For a moment it looked like he was on the verge of breaking out in a happy grin.
"They'll have to. I'm not going anywhere without you." Cloud said confidently, though he did have some doubts. Tifa...well she'd have to be dealt with. It was about time he set her straight in any case.
"So that's settled then?" Kadaj's voice broke through his thoughts. "Do you really want to share your life with me?"
Cloud smirked and answered his lover the only way he knew how.
FIN
Notes: So that's that. Again.
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Took me a couple hours to revise and stuff...
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