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-I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
handfull of anger, held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it's better I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you-

-Nobody's Listening By: Linkin Park

-Chapter 18-

-Flashback-

"Hisoka!"

"What is it Tsuzuki?"

"Let's go out!"

"What!!!!!"

"Yea! Let's go out together! It'll be fun!"

"Do you have any idea what you're asking?"

"Ummm... to go out?"

"Exactly"

"What's wrong with that?"

There was a silence...

"OH!!!! Not like that Hisoka."

"Then what do you mean?"

"Let's leave the celler"

"You know I can't do that Tsuzuki."

"Yes you can. I talked to Watari while you were still sleeping and he's willing to cover for us."

Hisoka didn't respond, then asked "How can he cover for us?"

"That's a secret." Tsuzuki said with a smile.

Hisoka shook his head.

"Please!!!!"

"Please!!!!" Tsuzuki begged.

"Alright..." Hisoka said reluctantly.

"Yea! Hisoka's going out with me!"

WHACK

"What did I do now?"

-End Flashback-

Currently Tsuzuki and Hisoka were walking around a park near the Kurosaki household. Tsuzuki was trying to get Hisoka to talk, but Hisoka was busy focusing on everything around him. Hisoka had not been out his cell in a very long time, let alone outside amoung people. He was just trying to take everything in.

Tsuzuki seemed to understand because he started pointing out different things,and Hisoka finally started to pay attention to Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki was just happy that Hisoka was enjoying himself, with him no less. As they continued to walk throught the park they came across a playground, where young children were playing. They stopped to watch the kids play.

Tsuzuki just smiled at the children playing tag, while Hisoka seemed out of it.

"Hisoka?" Tsuzuki asked, worry evident in his voice.

"I'm fine." Hisoka replied abruptly.

Tsuzuki didn't repond for a moment. It was Hisoka that spoke.

"I never had friends when I was young. I had to train all the time to become a proper heir...soon after that my parents found out about my abiltiy and I... I guess you know the rest."

Tsuzuki nodded in understanding as they watched the kids play for a little longer. Soon the parents came over and ushered the children away, apparently it was time for them all to leave, leaving the park strangely empty.

"Would you like to play?" Tsuzuki asked Hisoka.

Hisoka just looked at Tsuzuki like he crazy. "What?"

"No one's here so there's no reason to be embarrased, so how bout it? Do you want to play with me?" Tsuzuki asked, sounding just like a child.

Hisoka just shook his head.

"Please Hisoka! Please!!!! Please Soka! Please!!!!" Tsuzuki begged.

Hisoka was becoming embarrased and finally gave in.

"Yea!" Tsuzuki cried as he grabbed onto Hisoka's hand and drug him towards the playground.

When they got there Tsuzuki jumped onto a swing and began to pump his legs smiling at Hisoka. Hisoka sat down on the swing next to Tsuzuki; he wasn't sure what to do.

Tsuzuki stopped himself and turned to Hisoka.

"Come on Soka, swing!"

"I don't know how, remember?"

"Oh yea... Don't worry it's really easy. Watch. You move your legs like this." Tsuzuki said as he began to pump his legs.

Hisoka turned away and started to imitate Tsuzuki's movments, finding that he still wasn't moving, he became frustrated.

All of a sudden he found himself moving. He turned to look for the reason to his sudden motion and noticed Tsuzuki behind him, pushing him. His eyes met Tsuzuki's, and Tsuzuki let out a smile.

"Now try moving your legs." Tsuzuki said and Hisoka complied without argument.

Before he knew it he was swinging all on his own, as Tsuzuki moved away and began swinging on his swing again.

After the swings came the slide, the see-saw- which Tsuzuki fell off of, the monkey bars- that Hisoka mastered and Tsuzuki could only do a few before once again falling, and the tunnels- which Tsuzuki got stuck in and Hisoka had to push him out.

"Tsuzuki it's official you're too big for the playground." Hisoka said as they began to walk away.

"But you had fun right?" Tsuzuki said, rubbing his arm from where he was stuck.

Hisoka didn't answer but looked away as a blush crept across his cheeks. Tsuzuki smiled and drapped an arm over Hisoka's shoulders. For once Hisoka didn't shrug them off.

Tsuzuki and Hisoka wandered around the village, exploring anywhere Tsuzuki drug them- Hisoka did get to see a lot of bakeries. At one of the bakeries Tsuzuki found out that the local school was having a festival tonight and of course began begging Hisoka to go. After making a scene in the bakery Hisoka gave in- like always...- and agreed to go to the festival.

-At the festival-

"Isn't this fun Hisoka?"

"Sure Tsuzuki."

Tsuzuki and Hisoka had made it to the festival a little before nightfall. There were many booths, ranging from games to vender stands. All the stands were run by the students f the school. Decorative lanterns lined the booths, making the place glow. There were a lot of people. It seemed that most of the village had come to the festival.

"I want to try this one Hisoka." Tsuzuki said, as he drug Hisoka over to a shotting booth- Whichever stuff animal you shot over you won. Tsuzuki dug out some money and paid for a few rounds...

and a few more...

and a few more...

and damn even more...

"Tsuzuki... maybe you should just give up." Hisoka suggested.

Tsuzuki turned and looked back at him "No." was his answer as he continued to shoot.

Hisoka watched for another moment. Tsuzuki paid for another round and was about to pick up the gun when Hisoka grabbed it first.

"Hey! Hisoka!"

"Shut up baka!" Hisoka replied, as he took aim and pulled the trugger, knocking over the stuffed puppy- the one Tsuzuki had been trying to hit for the past hour...

The man handed Hisoka the animal while Tsuzuki stared in shock.

"How did you... you hit it... first time... how?"

"I practiced archery when I was younger and I always had good aim. I guess that's why... and the fact that I wasn't worked up about not hitting a toy for an hour."

"Ohh..." Tsuzuki said.

Hisoka started at the stuffed puppy in his hands, what was he going to do with it? He looked up and noticed Tsuzuki was staring at him. He looked away, blushing, and thrust the animal into Tsuzuki's arms "It's yours..." he mumbled.

Tsuzuki was stunned. Hisoka had just given him a gift and it made him so happy.

"Thank you!!!!" Tsuzuki cried as he glomped Hisoka.

"Baka! Get off of me! People are staring!"

"But you gave me a present and I want to thank you!!!" Tsuzuki whinned.

"Then thank me by letting go!" Hisoka yelled, trying to push Tsuzuki off of him.

Tsuzuki reluctantly let go but was soon sidetracked by a pastry stand, of course.

-Later that night-

"Did you have fun today Soka?" Tsuzuki asked as they left the festival and were heading back.

"Yea." Hisoka replied.

"I'm glad." Tsuzuki said with a small smile.

Both of them knew what tomorrow was- the day- possibly their last day together. Neither wanted to bring up the topic, but it was evident that they were both thinking about it as they headed back. As they got closer to the Kurosaki house Hisoka visibly tensed. Tsuzuki looked at Hisoka worridly wondering what he could do.

Tsuzuki grabbed onto Hisoka's hand and pulled the boy into an embrace. Hisoka struggled at first but soon melted into the embrace. He brought his hands up and clung to Tsuzuki's shirt. He was afraid, more afraid than he had ever been, but it wasn't only because of what was going to happen tomorrow. Of course that scared him, it scared the hell out of him, but he was also afraid of Tsuzuki leaving. He hadn't told his angel that he knew this, but he wasn't sure what to say.

Words are just too real...

"Tsuzuki... I know..."

"I know you do."

Hisoka didn't know what else to say. He wanted to say something, to express what he was feeling, but he couldn't. He couldn't bring himself to be truly open, even as time runs out.

"Hisoka. I'm so sorry."

"For what?"

"For everything- for tomorrow, for not telling you that I'm leaving, for everything..."

"You can't be sorry for everything baka."

"I can and am"

"But I don't want you to appologize for everything."

"What do you mean?"

Hisoka blushed. "I liked spending time with you and Watari and getting to know you. Tsuzuki, not everything you do is bad alright?"

Tsuzuki smiled a sad smile at Hisoka. " I know but sometimes I just wish things would turn out alright- for once actually."

"It will. Things will be alright." Hisoka replied, without hesitation. He didn't beilieve his own words but he wasn't going to tell Tsuzuki that.

Tsuzuki held Hisoka tighter. He knew Hisoka was afraid, eventhough the boy would never admitt it, and he had every right to be.

"It's alright to be afraid Hisoka." Tsuzuki said.

"I'm not afraid."

Tsuzuki just shook his head. "Don't hide your feelings from me Hisoka."

"The same goes to you." was the reply.

Tsuzuki didn't say anything.

"Look... I'm sorry Tsuzuki. I didn't mean it."

"Yes you did, and it's true. But it's only because you shouldn't have to worry about me. You have enough things to worry about right now." Tsuzuki said.

"But I do worry about you. Every time you hide what you're feeling I know and it makes me feel like you don't trust me enough to share your emotions with me." Hisoka said, pulling away from Tsuzuki.

"You know that's not true Hisoka. I do trust you... I just don't trust myself..."

Hisoka looked back at Tsuzuki. "If you can't trust yourself, how can you trust me?" he asked.

"I don't know." Tsuzuki replied, looking down at his shoes.

"We better head back." Hisoka said after a moment.

Tsuzuki nodded and the two of them began to head back.

The two walked back in silence. Hisoka all of a sudden stopped and Tsuzuki almost ran into him, since he wasn't paying attention.

"You know I care about you, right?" Hisoka asked, not looking at Tsuzuki.

Tsuzuki looked at the blushing boy and smiled "Yea, I know, and I care about you too."

Hisoka smiled to himself before walking again.

Tsuzuki was confused by what just happened. Why would Hisoka ask something like that or say something like that... he didn't know... but he ran to catch up with Hisoka.

"Hisoka?"

"I'm fine."

"What's going on?" Tsuzuki asked.

"Nothing." Hisoka replied.

"But back there... you seemed... I don't know... what's really going on Hisoka?" Tsuzuki asked, grabbing hold of Hisoka's hand and turning him to face him.

"Nothing."

"Tell me Hisoka. I know something is wrong, please tell me."

Hisoka looked away from Tsuzuki's piercing gaze.

"Tell me Hisoka." Tsuzuki said, grabbing Hisoka's chin and bringing him up to face him. Tsuzuki noticed Hisoka was crying. "Hisoka?"

"I don't want to be alone again Tsuzuki... I just don't... I'm so afraid of being alone..." Hisoka trailed off.

Hisoka had just admitted a weakness- to Tsuzuki. It just says how much trust Hisoka has in Tsuzuki.

Hisoka grabbed onto Tsuzuki's coat and looked up at him with tearstained eyes. "Please don't leave me!" he yelled as he buried himself in Tsuzuki's shirt.

Tsuzuki held Hisoka. There was nothing he could say- both he and Hisoka knew that- but they could cry couldn't they? Eventhough it wasn't going to change the future or that Tsuzuki was leaving- it felt good to cry. Both of them felt the urge to say something to each other- to express how they felt, but neither could. What was the point- Tsuzuki would be gone and all that would be left would be a memory-then what? Nothing. In the end it was pointless, wasn't it?

They both stayed that way for a long time, neither moving or speaking. What else could they do? It was almost tomorrow and tomorrow was the end, wasn't it?

-End Chapter-

Sorry about the ramblings- I had a lot of trouble writing this chapter and it took me forever. I hope you liked it anyway. Thanks so much for reading and tomorrow is the big day- I'll update as soon as I can. Thanks again! Please review!