He woke up feeling a hand over his chest and someone sleeping her head against his shoulder. The clock was almost ten a.m. It was her bed they were sleeping in.
Her hair curled funny over the slight blue pillow and he just had to touch it. She had beautiful, long, black and thick hair like her cousin had. Maybe he had a thing for the dark hair, he thought. She moved and mumbled in her sleep, until she rose her head up.
"…ups…" She said smiling a bit.
"…Yeah… ups…"
Mobile phone rang somewhere on the floor where their clothes were in a one big bundle. She craned to the floor to find it and pulled her self back to bed. "…Hellou…?" She said forming an O at her mouth. Rikimaru could hear the one on the other end. It was Jin calling.
"Oh, you are alive…! Where the hell are you? You know it was so close we didn't file a missing person note of you… Is he with you or should we get worried all over again cause you're answering his phone…? Ayame…? Are you there…?"
She had given he phone to Rikimaru.
"…I'm fine, Jin. Let us get some sleep, will you, I'll call you later, okay…" He closed the phone and trop it on the pile of clothes on the floor.
"…Weren't that just a bit rude, we were suppose to meet them…?" She said while she was pulled back to his arms.
"Nah, Jin has made me wait for nothing for so many times, this is only fair."
"And Dan and Tatsu?"
"…I'll think of something to explain…"
"I was afraid you'd think of something…Shouldn't we get up? "
He was completely happy having her by his side. "Why…?"
"…Because…We might -slip- again…"
"And would that be such a bad thing?"
She laughed desperately. "…No… If we make a promise never to -slip- again?"
"…Fingers crossed…?"
---
They were cleaning up their two o'clock breakfast as the doorbell rang. She was eating an apple and eyeing the newspaper as he washed the dishes. Both freeze like the last time and he asked. "…Who is it?"
They went quietly to the door and she peaked trough the door eye. "It's Kiku…!" She whispered in panic. "I completely forgot that she was suppose to come over today… What are we going to do?"
The door bell rang again and it hurt to their ears as they were standing right next to it. Both winced and Kiku rose and eye brow.
"…Just a second…!" She yelled as they tried to make signs whit their hands.
"…You, go in the shower… I stay here…" She practically pushed him there and waited for some time, hearing the water running already. She opened the door wearing Rikimaru's shirt. "…Hi!"
Kiku sensed something strange in the air, but didn't let it bother her as she wasn't sure what it was. "…What took you so long?" She asked stepping inside. Ayame turned away and thought something to say that would have sounded less suspicious.
"…You walked all the way? Wasn't your dad suppose to pick you up from the class? Did it went well?"
"…He brought me, but as usual was too busy to come and meet you… I think he's afraid of Rikimaru now…"
"Afraid? Why on earth?" She laughed.
"Well, no reason, he's just my dad and the way he is… Is Rikimaru home?"
"…Hmm yes, he's in the shower, I think… come to the kitchen, you want cocoa?"
"Thanks… Isn't that his shirt you are wearing…?"
Kiku sat over the table while she stared boiling water.
"Yeah… He borrowed it to me… all my clothes are dirty…"
"…Go figure…" Kiku said quietly reading the text on the shirts back, she was obviously wearing it the wrong way. "Viagra-exciting men" Kiku could just see Rikimaru laughing his ass out to it.
"Huh?" Ayame looked over Kiku.
"…Nothing, so what have you been doing, I haven't seen you since ever…"
"Oh you know… Work, work, work… You didn't say how the class went?"
"Great, we have this new teacher from Italy…So absolutely the greatest dancer on earth…!"
"…Ou, he's teaching you new dances…"
"Well not really, but he's just better dancer, smooth… and stuff… Hi Rikimaru…"
"Hi Kiku…" He said towelling his hair and went to continue on the dishes. Kiku looked at him puzzled.
"…So… You went to the shower in the middle of the dishes…? God you two are weird…"
They looked at each other smiling bit by bit. Ayame started putting the cups on the table. "Yep… Aren't we…?"
---
Clock was 7 p.m. on the day and Rikimaru sat alone in a bar desk. He looked at his drink and played with the cherry on it. Strange, he thought, how things didn't seem so complicated and dark anymore. Maybe things were really starting to brighten up for him. What had been so magical about last night, about in her? Maybe he realised he wasn't alone in the world and neither was she: They would all ways have each other at least. Thought it was shame they couldn't make it work in a long term.
What was in that anyway? They were best friends, who knew each other better than anyone else, they had fun between the sheets occasionally, but it wasn't enough. They tried it once and nearly started to hate each other. He looked at the clock on his wrist and wondered what was keeping Jin and the rest.
Actually they had dated twice in a proper way. First in high school but they soon noticed that both had a huge crush to the football team leader, who in his highness ignored both geek freaks. Second time was when they were a bit older and living together. Both knew from the start that it would never work but after the painful two weeks no-one couldn't make them question their only-friend-basis relationship.
A hand grabbed his shoulder as Dan sat next to him. "Hi, stranger…"
"Hi, where is the rest?"
"Ah, you know Jin and his dress up crises, Tatsu stayed there to help him… poor-guy…"
"…You left them alone… wait, I mean, you left Tatsu alone with Jin? …You know he's just trying to get…"
"In his pants, yes…?" Dan waved his hands up helplessly. "…But who cares a shit, I don't. …Now where were you and Ayame last night? We came to pick you up and no-one answered…"
He sighted and looked to his drink. He had promised her to take care of it.
"…I know… I heard you…"
"What? …Why didn't you open the door?"
"…Couldn't… She had me… on the floor by then.. And what can a man do when she has made her mind… Dan, she raped me…"
Dan looked plank. "…Honestly now… What were you two doing…?"
"Is it so hard to believe… Oh, just what she told me… no use to make a report no-one wouldn't believe anyway and she's is a cop for crying out loud…!"
The bar tender looked at them strangely but only Dan noticed it. "…Come on now, were you two robbing the bank or something…Seriously??"
"…No. I just told you… We had sex…"
Dan didn't know what to believe. Honestly why had Rikimaru seen the trouble to educate himself as a lawyer when he could have gone to the Hollywood.
"…Since when have you been straight…Rikimaru?"
"Since never… I just swing…" It sounded so stupid he had to smile.
"Really? I haven't noticed, but hey… welcome to the club."
"…What? You too?"
"Only Jin knows… I don't know why is it so hard to be BI, usually my boyfriends have looked at me squint after I told them… But you and Ayame? Are you…"
"Together, no…" He saw Tatsumaru and Jin walk in. "Dan… If you wouldn't mention this to Tatsu, I think I have miss led him a bit and I need to tell him this myself or he'll never trust me again…?"
"Sure…"
Jin looked a bit sour in where Tatsumaru looked uncomfortably troubled. Jin wore his usual strange combination of stripes in different colours. Tatsumaru instead trusted in dark colours, jeans, T-shirt and a leather jacket. He looked careless, stylish, mysterious and damn good looking with his long black eyelashes and a little bit of black make-up on lower eyelids.
They both seemed to want as far away from each other as possible. Jin walked next to Dan Tatsumaru following.
"Look…! He's alive, he's alive!" Jin shouted around the bar. "You got some explaining to do… Bartender…! He shouted out climbing over the desk. While Jin was busy with that Rikimaru asked Tatsumaru if they could talk.
Jin had got his drink and leaned on the desk next to Dan who was sitting. He saw the two talking after they were in a safe distance. "…Oh man…!" Dan looked Surprised at Jin. "…Don't tell me they are together now… I'm just a jerk…"
"Didn't went well with him…? Didn't fall for your little act, huh?"
"Oh… Shut up, Dan…! …Did he give an excuse?"
Tatsumaru seemed strange today. Like he was in half sleep, Rikimaru had noticed but didn't regard it too peculiar to be him.
"Sorry about that I snapped at you yesterday… You mad at me?"
"…No…" He tilted his head lazily. "…Is something bothering you… Why didn't you come with us last night…?"
Rikimaru looked at the wall behind Tatsumaru's shoulder. This wouldn't be so easy to explain. Maybe it would have been better if Ayame could have done it, but she was with Kiku for the evening.
"…I… Lied to you." He blurted out. Tatsumaru didn't seem surprised even thought he was more awake now.
"…or technically I wasn't… because we hadn't… as roommates… befor…-as this year…" He stopped before he could make it sound any force.
"…So, you are sleeping with my cousin too? Is that what you are trying to tell me, Rikimaru?"
The other tried to get a word in between but Tatsumaru interrupted him.
"Don't bother…! I don't wanna hear anything about it…" He turned around and started walking.
"…Tatsu?! …Come on, don't be like that…?" He took a few steps but Tatsumaru turned quickly.
"Don't you tell me how to feel…! And don't fallow me, I go home to sleep…so you don't have to worry…!"
And he left. Dan and Jin walked past Rikimaru who stood in the middle of the floor if not a bit stunned.
"…Real smooth, my boy…" Dan said and sat down to a table. Jin joined him. "What a charmer…and I thought he didn't like –me-…" he laughed away.
"I should go after him…" Rikimaru said staring at the door. Dan grabbed his hand and pulled him down to a chair.
"No you should not. …If he's gona act like a immature teenager…Let him. He'll come around…" Dan said.
"Immature teenager? …You know they are cousins…? Tatsu n' Aya…" Rikimaru blurted out another thing.
Dan seemed to have lost for words as Jin seemed interested.
"Really? They are…? Wow… Hey I got it. Maybe your are not BI, Rikimaru… You just got confused which one was which…"
"Not funny Jin…" Rikimaru still looked at the doorway.
---
Hours slipped by quickly as the night became darker and more people came to spend their night in this club. Tatsumaru was forgotten after two happy hours mindless dancing.
It was more of a club than bar and the room was divided in two different spaces. The one by the door where they had been earlier was meant mostly for undisturbed conversations in small table parties. The ceiling was low and less techno was played on this side. There was a clear opening to the other side which reassembled more of an aeroplane storage hall judging by its size. There were two floors, three bars, huge dance floor in the middle and few tables here and there. It was like a stage to the other side of the club.
The three friends were dancing and unfortunately also singing. Take on me had been playing for some time now and the song brought up some memories.
Take on me, take on me
take me home
I'll be gone,
in a day or two
That's how the song really went but not the boys. They sang:
Take on me, take on me
take me home
I'll be good
Tutu I won't do…Luckily no-one else heard them the music was too loud for that, but all three laughed for the others too. The beat changes as another song started to play. Another one of the classics Rikimaru would have sighted if not he hadn't been so happy and drunk like a bear in circus.
InsomniaHe changed his mind about the song being old and worn out as he got hold of the steady beat. Faithless just knew how to make damn good piece to dance.
Insomnia
The place was as full as it could be. If you were dancing in the middle of the floor you barely had room to move. So the three danced in the edges of the floor. Rikimaru let his look slip over the place. Colours filled the darkness and some of the people. Funny how the place looked so different in a different kind of a lighting. What was he looking he asked himself and remembered Tatsumaru. Some part of him wished to find him in the crowd, coming back, forgetting the stupid quarrel they had. His eyes finally found something familiar, but not what was he looking for. It was him. When he realised that it really was him, his mind sprung somewhere over the roof and screamed smacking back to the floor, crushing his brain. What was he doing here, he thought and looked away, but it seemed to be too late as he was looking right back at them, drinking his bear smugly. His heart squeezed a part inside his chest and blow up on the walls of his ribcage. He looked again but couldn't see him. A doubt came to his mind: Had it even been him, he thought bit panicking. This certainly wasn't a place where he'd enjoy his stay.
I
only smoke weed when I need to,
And I need to get some rest,
I
confess, I burnt a hole in the mattress,
Yes, yes, it was me, I
plead guilty,
And on the count of three I pull back the
duvet,
Make my way to the refrigerator,
One dry potato inside,
no lie
Not even bread, jam,
When the light above my head went
bam!
I can't sleep, something's all over me,
Greasy, insomnia
please release me,
And let me dream about making mad love on the
heath,
Tearing off tights with my teeth.
But there's no
relief,
I'm wide awake in my kitchen,
It's dark and I'm
lonely,
Oh, if I could only get some sleep,
Creaky noises make
my skin creep,
I need to get some sleep,
I can't get no
sleep...
He looked madly around himself, looking to the people in the big hall, trying to see to the small side and finally looked at the second floor, doing all this while he kept the rhythm the best he could. He could swear his legs had gone to jam the second he'd seen those eyes stare at him. No, he screamed inside his head, he can not have that effect on me anymore, not like that, not anymore.
InsomniaHe hated what this did to him. Insomnia Why now when he finally had some light in his life? Insomnia Dan grabbed his shoulder and leaned closer to say something. Insomnia
"…Can you see Jin anywhere…!?"
Insomnia
Quickly Rikimaru looked around them not really looking for his friend all thought he noticed he couldn't find even him. He shook his head and looked over to the small side where he thought he had seen Oni before. Dan pulled Rikimaru from the floor and they walked pass the crowd. "...Come on…Let's go and find him!"
Another song started to play eventually and it sounded much more peaceful than Rikimaru felt right then. They finally found Jin ordering a drink on the bar desk. "..Jin…! Where the hell did you disappear…?!" Dan asked of him.
"…I thought I saw Tatsu…!"
Jin got Rikimaru's attention. "…Really?! Where?"
"Oh… It wasn't probably him or I lost him…! Damn here's awful lot of people here tonight…?!"
Dan kept on talking to Jin about something, Rikimaru didn't even bother to pretend to be listening. Had Tatsumaru been here and was he still here, he thought. What if he'd confused him to be Oni? How much had he already drank, too much? Or was he loosing his mind? It was totally possible to confuse the two, right? Get a hold of your self, Rikimaru lectured inside his head.
"…Does any one else feel like… tequila?"
After a few shots they dissuaded to head back to the dance floor. Dan was going in over circuits and first to reach the dance floor. He was usually the most responsible of the three or four if Ayame was with them. Rikimaru followed by Jin closed on him laughing until…
"Rikimaru…?"
He nearly froze and looked up for the familiar voice that had wiped the smile of his lips. And there he was again, Oni. For what Rikimaru could tell in his very drunken stage, Oni hadn't changed a bit. He still was that seemingly unreal, kind a hell of a gorgeous man, who nearly could have made his ice melt if he had not right then remembered all the nights he'd made him cry for him. Seeing his face brought only pain now. Jin walked past them to catch up with Dan. "Excuse me…ee" He stumbled past.
"…Fuck off Oni…" Rikimaru said and turned to walk away, but Oni grabbed his arm trying to start a sentence. Rikimaru might have been drunk but he pulled his arm free quickly.
"Don't fucking touch me! …My God, I could just…!"
"…Sorry." He bite his lip as if not to say more. "…I -am- sorry…"
"See if I care, fuckface…!" He spread his arms as if to shout it out to whole word. "Walk away!" And he staggered a bit.
"…Don't you think you had enough for the one evening?"
He laughed drunken clint in his eyes. "…What's me, asshole…!"
Rikimaru got back to the dance floor and found his friends. Jin asked: "Who was that handsome devil?!"
"Fucking self centred, know it all, prick, who thinks he can have whatever he wants…!!"
"…okay…?"
"…is he still there?"
"…No, I can't see him… No… he's there, looks at us… Can I wave at him, he's cute…?"
"No…! I just told you he's…!"
"The biggest prick on earth? Yeah, why do you think he looks so hot…!
"Jin!?"
"Fine…!"
Dan game to them smiling wildly and shouting something that made even Rikimaru smile. It wasn't often you could see Dan in this state.
"Oh my God!" Jin shouted as another song started to play. "This is so the best song ever… I love Murphy!!"
"Huh?!" Rikimaru and Dan wondered.
Oh
my god
Becky, look at her butt
Its so big
She looks like one
of those rap guys girlfriends
Who understands those rap guys
They
only talk to her because she looks like a total prostitute
I mean
her butt
It's just so big
I can't believe it's so round
It's
just out there
I mean, it's gross
Look, she's just so black
I
like big butts and I can not lie
You other brothers can't
deny
That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
And a
round thing in your face
You get sprung…
Unbelievable song, unbelievable place, how could they play just anything and people still danced it trough like it was the latest thing. Rhythm was fast or maybe not, it just seemed to go faster and faster by the second as it sank in to your blood. He simply loved to dance.
…I'm
hooked and I can't stop staring
Oh, baby I wanna get with ya
And
take your picture
My homeboys tried to warn me
But that butt
you got
Make Me so horney
Ooh, rump of smooth skin
You say
you wanna get in my benz
Well use me use me cuz you aint that
average groupie
Dan was doing something strange in the dance floor and it looked fun so Rikimaru followed. Jin was dying in laughter.
I've
seen them dancin'
The hell with romancin'
She's Sweat,Wet, got
it goin like a turbo vette
I'm tired of magazines
Saying
flat butts are the thing
Take the average black man and ask him
that
She gotta pack much back…
They were drawing quite a much attention as Rikimaru was doing his own thing with his hips; he started to member the lyrics of the song. And why did it felt so perfect? Because Oni was watching or because he was hell of a drunk?
..I just can't help myself
I'm actin like an
animal
Now here's my scandal
I wanna get you home
And
UH, double up UH UH
I aint talkin bout playboy
Cuz silicone
parts were made for toy…
Someone put his hand to Rikimaru's waist and it took some time for him to notice that it was Dan's.
…I'll
keep my women like Flo Jo
A word to the thick soul sistas
I
wanna get with ya
I won't cus or hit ya
But I gotta be straight
when I say I wanna --
Til the break of daw…n
Sure, he thought grinning and slapped his mate on his butt. Dan answered laughing and pulled him closer.
..But
I'd rather stay and play
Cuz I'm long and I'm strong
And I'm
down to get the friction on
So ladies (yeah), Ladies (yeah)
Do
you wanna roll in my Mercedes (yeah)
Then turn around
Stick it
out
Even white boys got to shout
Baby got back
(LA face with the Oakland booty)
Yeah baby
When it comes to
females
Cosmo ain't got nothin to do with my
selection
36-24-36
Only if she's 5'3"
Jin couldn't keep up and disappeared somewhere but the remaining two didn't notice it much. Now that there were only them left they danced more together and couldn't help the fact that it was getting a little bit intimate. Dan was a good dancer but if he hadn't been it doubtfully would have much bothered Rikimaru. And what was the better way to get his message trough to Oni than to have fun with someone else. He didn't care to look was his message getting trough and if it was he shouldn't be here anymore.
So
your girlfriend throws a Honda
Playin workout tapes by Fonda
But
Fonda ain't got a motor in the back of her Honda
My anaconda don't
want none unless you've got buns hun
You can do side bends or
sit-ups, but please don't lose that butt
Some brothers wanna play
that hard role
And tell you that the butt ain't gold
So they
toss it and leave it
And I pull up quick to retrieve it
So
cosmo says you're fat
Well I ain't down with that
Cuz your
waste is small and your curves are kickin
And I'm thinkin bout
stickin…
Was he here? Had he left in the middle of the show? Well that was what he was after, right, he wondered.
…To
the beanpole dames in the magazines
You aint it miss thing
Give
me a sista I can't resist her
Red beans and rice did miss her
Some
knucklehead tried to dis
Cuz his girls..
"…I think I need a drink…?!" Dan shouted.
"…Okay!" Rikimaru shouted back. "…You first…!"
Was the atmosphere getting more packed or did he just imagine it, Rikimaru thought. He saw a clock on somewhere and thought how could it be so late already. It was an hour till the closing time. Dan ordered something to them that was coloured in screaming pink. Rikimaru was leaning his back at the desk and looking around the bar, managing to look past the one person he was looking for. Dan poked Rikimaru's side saying: "…There's your drink… I go to look for Jin… Wait here?"
Rikimaru nodded and just as he was about to take the drink from behind him someone came to his side also leaning on the desk. "…Excuse me…!?"
He had got Rikimaru's attention.
"You happen to know the time?!"
"Um, it's something over three? I don't have a watch…"
"…Okay thanks…"
Rikimaru remembered the drink now and took the slight blue class in his hand.
"…Sorry to bother you all the time…" It was the same guy.
"Don't mind…"
"You know which time the bar closes?"
"…Four…"
The man nodded smiling and Rikimaru tasted his drink, swallowing it down quickly. He didn't want to remember this night. He looked but all ways managed to miss the one dim corner where he was watched.
What was that chubby guy talking to him, Oni thought, did he think he had a change? Not in a million years and not even if he'd drank half of the bar empty. What was the guy trying? Oni then thought of something. He remembered the seeing the blond man with Rikimaru ordering two pink drinks and the chubby had a blue drink. But wasn't he drinking the pink one and Rikimaru the blue one just a minute ago. He looked to the bar desk again to see if he was right.
They were gone. Oni couldn't see neither one of them. He cursed himself for his sloppiness. Like he couldn't think while he looked at him, yeah right, he thought, still not seeing them. He spotted the men Rikimaru had been with before but no Rikimaru. They hadn't even noticed he was gone. Damn.
He put his pint to the nearest table and heated towards the exit but then thought maybe to check the bathrooms first. There were bathrooms in the second floor too but he didn't think the guy would have got so far by then. There was at least twelve cells most of them open and empty.
He came to a cell that was locked. This was a good idea wasn't it, he thought to himself, how the hell he was suppose to know who was behind the door. "…Rikimaru…?! Are you there? Rikimaru, answer me, please?"
It as quiet. Finally female voice shouted out. "…Fuck off, here's no Rikimaru with me…!" He didn't bother to answer. Fuck, what a waist of time. They had gone out for sure. He could only hope there weren't any free taxis.
He ran outside and leaned to his knees to catch his breath. There were a young couple stepping in to a taxi and two more taxis waiting. There couldn't have been a fourth one, now could there. Please, let there not have been a fourth taxi…
A couple on his right, passing on the street got his hopes up and not for vain. The chubby, clearly older male was supporting Rikimaru as they tottered on. He was talking mumbling something continuously sounding very enthusiastic. What did he think he was doing, getting on a romantic date, this made the anger rise in Oni. "Hey!" He rose up and started walking quickly towards them. He could see the chubby was hoping the roar wasn't meant for him. "…That's right! I'm talking to you, you bathetic shit!!"
The man looked behind him and after he saw Oni he leg go of Rikimaru and ran as fast as he could. Oni came to where the man had left Rikimaru. Any insult didn't seem strong enough for the occasion so he just gritted his teeth angrily.
He looked down at his feet where Rikimaru lay on his back looking very… sleepy. Oni couldn't quit figure his state of mind at first.
"…You… can you… call my mother and tell her that… that she … cooked… it was the… neighbours cat… didn't eat the… pie… Murray… I have no black hair in me… my mother should know…"
Oni kneeled next to him. "Rikimaru… Did you hurt you self when you fell down… Did you hit your head…?" he asked carefully and Rikimaru focused his eyes on him.
"…You… are not… Ayame? …who…?"
"Never mind about that… You think you can get up?"
"Hey…! You came back…! …I'm sorry I did it… or not… you have to… understand… I doesn't mean we have to… stop… it's not like we are… together… or anything… …why are… you so quiet…? You still mad? Stupid prick…"
"Okay, lets go…" He grabbed his hands pulling him up. He was gong to pass out in any second and he had to all most carry him if they were to get somewhere.
"…When's …? …Should I collect the old… comics away…?"
"Taxi!"
"…Don't… shout… that… hurts…"
Oni looked over to Rikimaru who just seemed to be more and more out of this reality. He spotted a taxi and it slowed down to stop.
"Okay, we are going to go in a taxi… You wouldn't mind shutting up?" He had seen the emptiness in his eyes and thought he had no idea where he was or what was happening if not even realised who he was whit. The whole situation made Oni feel uncomfortable. Rikimaru whispered to his ear all of a sudden:
"…I can make it up to you… babe…I wanna fuck you…"
"…Who-ho! You got the wrong picture there… Just get, in the car…?"
"…But I was going to the train… Fuck you…! I hate you!"
Oni sat next to him on the back seat and said the address. Rikimaru laid on the two seats as Oni sat on the other side Rikimaru's' feet at his lap. He tried to look out side and hoped the other would sleep already.
"…You think I don't know what you did… Oh but I do… you goddamn boy toy… I'll bet you'd fuck anything that moves if it just, wasn't just, a fast pray… you fucking sad n' old bitch…"
The taxi driver looked to the mirror. "…I don't have to listen up all kind of grab… shut up, will you. Or I'll make you walk the rest of the way…"
"What a fuck do I care…! …I have a job in the cleaning business…"
"…Just shut up…" Oni forced himself to say so at least the driver couldn't say he hadn't tried.
When they finally arrived to his place, Oni paid the taxi and carried the unconscious Rikimaru to his apartment. He tug him to his bead and sat next to it on a chair looking at him. He was so still, he thought worried and checked his pulse.
Maybe he should call his friend who was a doctor, he considered, but then Rikimaru turned a bit in his sleep and it seemed he was just in a deep sleep after so much dancing. And danced he had, he smiled his sad smile. Maybe if he would just stay here for awhile and see that he kept breathing.
He wouldn't trace the line of his face or take his hand to his and kiss it, he didn't deserve to be around him anymore. He was quiet and beautiful in his sleep. Didn't even notice who was next to him. No doubt that when he would wake up things would be rather different. He wouldn't be calm like he was now and his face would have that hard look again that he had back in the bar. But now when he laid there quietly he could all most dream nothing bad hadn't happened between them. Or rather Oni himself hadn't screwed things up by cheating.