AN: Enjoy.
Everything had gone black around them. They were in the middle of nowhere. Only the light from the moon cascaded down upon them, casting shadows against their faces, their bodies and the car. Tommy was concentrating on the flat land ahead of him, counting the silhouetted images of the cactus along the horizon.
Jude looked over at Tommy who was staring far off in front of him, his mouth was trembling, Jude couldn't tell if he was cold, or talking to himself.
"What are you doing?"
Tommy ignored her, determined not to let her get to him, or lose count of the cactus in his head, "71, 72…" he mouthed.
"Earth to Tommy," she persisted when she didn't get an answer.
"…73, 74…" he tried not to blink.
"TOM!" she finally shoved him on the shoulder causing him to fall off balance and glance away from the horizon.
He turned his head to glare at her, "God damn it Jude!" he huffed as he turned to look at her, "What?"
Jude growled, "God Tommy!" she yelled back as she got to her feet, "I am here because you insisted that I come, you are the one that wanted to work this out and you are the one that wanted to talk. Well look around you Tommy, there isn't anyone for miles, so talk… you have all the time in the world."
He didn't say anything, he couldn't say anything. The moon was the only light and it silhouetted her body hovering above him. He watched as she stood in front of him, here eyes glowing in the dark, her stare burning through his soul.
She laughed at herself, throwing her arms up in the air, "Yeah, that's what I thought," she sat down next to him again, her arm once again touching his, "This was all just a waste of time, why am I even here? Seriously, couldn't you have done with by yourself?"
Tommy stood up—he wiped the dust off his hands onto his jeans before making his way to the other side of the car. He couldn't stand to look at her, she made him feel so weak and small and he hated that feeling. He looked around him, there was no one; they were stranded there till morning if not longer than that. He took a deep breath, letting the clean air cycle through his body before he made his way back over to where she was sitting.
"If you want to leave, by all means," he pointed in the direction they had been driving, "No one is stopping you."
She laughed at his nonsense, "Yeah," she muttered.
"What? You don't want to be here, especially with me, so leave, I am sure someone will come along and offer a nice young lady like you a ride to wherever you are going."
"And then murder me…" she trailed off.
He shrugged, giving her that 'oh well' grin she knew oh too well.
"Bastard," she muttered.
A smile crept onto his face as she said this. He turned his head to glance at her just as she turned her face away from him. Trying to fight the feeling inside him he closed his eyes before speaking.
"I just don't understand," he turned away from her and stared at his trembling hands in his lap.
"Don't understand what?" she quickly glanced in his direction, her eyes quickly detouring to the vast darkness that lay behind him and all around them.
"Everything," he didn't take his eyes off his hands, "You. Me…" he looked up and at her, she could feel his stare on her and she brought her eyes back into focus on his, "…Us," he shook his head, his eyes stabbing her with every emotion one could muster up.
"What is there to understand?" she shook her head mimicking his movements, "We tried," she reached towards him, "We failed," her hand rested on top of his, "We move on," she intertwined her fingers with his, squeezing ever so tightly, never once taking her eyes off his.
"But what if I don't want to move on?" he retracted his hand, removing it from hers. The softness of her skin brought back painful memories of a time he wasn't sure he would ever get back.
She stood up, quickly brushing the dirt off her jeans she walked away from him and out into the vast lonely dessert. He watched as her figure got smaller and smaller and soon it became too dark to even make out her silhouette.
"JUDE!" he shouted, afraid of where she was going and what could happen to her in the middle of no where.
"I'm right here," she spoke softly, standing only a mere fifteen feet away from him. "I don't…" she trailed off, unsure of the right words to say.
He stood up and walked out towards her, under the moon she was even more beautiful than he ever remembered. The blue glow that surrounded them made her look like something from a world above.
"What did I do wrong?" he stared at the reflection of the moon in her eyes.
She shook her head, titling it a little so she could see him, nothing she mouthed.
"Then what happened?" his questions just kept coming, he couldn't stop them from spilling out his mouth, "What are you so afraid of?"
"Me?" she asked turning away from him, "I'm afraid of everything," her hands flew up at her sides before dropping again, she shook her head and continued speaking "I'm afraid of what I've seen, of what I've done, of who I am…but most of all," she turned around looking directly at him as she stepped forward, "I'm afraid of leaving this god forsaken place," she turned her head and glanced around, it truly was beautiful, even if she didn't want to be there, "I'm afraid of getting back home, walking away from this and never feeling again in my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you."
She shrugged as she felt the tears rising to the brim of her eyes. The first spilling over she leaped into his arms, letting his warm embrace protect her from this night. He wrapped his arms tightly around her, never wanting to let go, she fit perfectly against him and she was just the right height that her head rested perfectly in the nape of his neck.
She held onto him tightly, letting the tears flow freely, she had missed his touch for so long—she missed his warmth and his protection. She didn't have answer for why things were the way they were between them, as much as she wished to explain herself, the truth was there was nothing to tell. She didn't want to put the blame on herself, so she turned the blame on him.
"I've never felt so alone before in my life," she whispered into his neck, the warmth from her mouth sending chills across his body.
"Welcome to lonesome town, population two," he broke apart from her, taking a second to look at her and wiping away her tears before pulling her back into his arms, "So where are we right now? Where do we stand?"
She shook her head against his body, "I don't know, I don't know" the words rolled softly off her lips, "I am so sorry Tommy, if only I had known."
"It's okay," he rubbed her back.
She gently backed away from him, only inches from each other she looked down at her hand- her wedding ring sparkled in the moonlight. She twisted it so the diamond stood up straight.
He followed her eyes towards her wedding ring, "Jude," he spoke up, "If you want out…"
She glanced up at him, she couldn't barely see his face that was shadowed by the night, she reached for his left hand and took it in her palm, it rested lightly on top of hers, she brought his hand up to her mouth and gently kissed his wedding ring, "I married you because I loved you, nothings changed," she smiled as she rested her lips on his, he wrapped his arm around the small of her back as he felt the softness of her tongue against his.
They broke apart and he grabbed her hand in his, "Come on," he walked her back to the car, opening the passenger door she slid in on the red leather. He walked around the front of the car stopping to pop the hood. It took about five minutes before he slammed it shut and got in on the driver's side door.
"So?" she asked.
He glanced over at her, a devilish grin playing on his face as he leaned over and turned the ignition. The car roared to life and he quickly put it into drive, easing his way back out onto the open road, back towards a place they could both call home… together.
