AN: Thank you to all those who reviewed last chapter and for all the advice, I will try to apply it to thins chappie. I think I did portray Meyrin as too much of a love sick fan girl in the last chapter so thank you for pointing that out The WayFarer 2000

Sorry it took so long to update.

LOVE LIKE WINTER

Chapter 2: What I Wouldn't Give

Song: Listen To Your Heart by DHT (Techno version goes best. But other version is ok too)

The ArchAngel was now heading for space. Meyrin had decided to stay and follow them. She now saw the other side of this war, the side that was truly seeking peace not just saying they were. The crew was now being briefed in the hangar but Meyrin did not have to attend since she was "technically" not part of the crew. Earlier that day she had seen Athrun and Kira talking, and as they walked by her she thought that she had seen Kira smile at her but she wasn't sure.

She was happy that Athrun was doing better now. He was now a Captain in the ORB fleet. His skills seemed to be recognized better here then in ZAFT. She had also noticed that Kira had been promoted to Admiral. Every time she saw Kira she got this funny feeling in the bottom of her stomach and he hadn't even truly spoken to her yet. She was somewhat disappointed that he had Lacus Clyne as a girlfriend, Lacus was perfect in every way there was no way that Meyrin could compete with that, right?

THE DAY BEFORE

Just before they left for space Meyrin had been exploring the ship and she was about to come around the corner to a viewing area when she had heard Kira's voice followed by a nasty remark made by Lacus. They were fighting over the war and what they should do. Kira wanted to help ZAFT but Lacus was arguing to not take a side.

From what Meyrin heard the argument escalated into something more then just the war but she wasn't quite sure what they were talking about. She heard the word 'ultimate' and then something about giving up on dreams. Lacus seemed very upset while Kira was trying his best to keep his anger in. She had never heard Lacus say such things, and Kira had always seemed so kind. This surprised Meyrin, after a couple minutes of more yelling she heard a loud bang like metal hitting metal. Worriedly Meyrin peeked around the corner, Kira's fist had hit the wall, no where near Lacus but still Lacus had gotten the point. There was a dent in the wall where Kira's fist had connected and his hand looked a little red. Lacus had a look of fear on her face, "Just leave." Kira had stated his face was hidden under his unruly locks. Lacus was almost in tears she turned and ran the other direction. After Lacus was out of site Meyrin saw Kira slide down the wall until he was sitting, he was crying. Meyrin wanted to go to him but she wasn't sure if she wanted him to know that she had heard everything.

She took a deep breath and walked around the corner, "Kira?" Meyrin asked timidly. He looked up at her, his eyes were full of sorrow and pain, but she wasn't sure if the pain was from his hand or from what Lacus had said. "A-a-are you ok?" She managed to stammer out.

"Yeah ummm I'll be fine." Kira replied almost in a whisper. He tried to wipe the tears away from his eyes but to no avail.

"Here let me look at your hand." Meyrin knelt down on the floor next to him. Kira shied away at first but then reluctantly held his hand up a little to let her have a better look. Meyrin was surprised that there was only a small scratch on it, his knuckles were only a little swollen but it almost looked like nothing had happened. "You should probably go to the medical wing to have it checked."

"It'll be fine; all they'll do is make a fuss about it." Kira said trying not to look at her face.

"Do you need to talk? I'm here for you if you do."

"You heard?"

"Most of it." Meyrin said solemnly. Kira turned away, somewhat embarrassed and sorry that someone had to hear Lacus and him fight. "But its ok, everyone needs to let their anger out sometime, I'm sure she'll forgive you." Meyrin smiled down at him. He looked at her with doubt written all over his face.

"I don't know about that, I said some pretty awful things."

"These are stressful times, who wouldn't get a little angry. If she doesn't forgive you she's not worth it."

Kira was shocked that she said that, she was a little shocked herself. "I-I mean if someone wouldn't forgive you for something like that then……..ummmm……well she doesn't really care about you." Meyrin tried to correct herself but she didn't know what urged her to say such things. After that Kira didn't say anything he just seemed to be deep in thought. After a minute turned into five Meyrin didn't know what to do. "Well I can go find Athrun maybe you can talk to him about it."

She was just about to get up when Kira caught her wrist. He shook his head, "no don't get Athrun, I'll be fine." Kira started to get up with Meyrin's wrist still in his hand. "Thank you, but next time try not to worry so much ok?"

Meyrin shook her head up and down. She couldn't speak; Kira's eyes were so intense, and they were baring down on her. Meyrin was about to say something but Kira released her wrist and walked off in the other direction. He hadn't seemed that happy that she had heard him and Lacus arguing. Meyrin started to wonder if she should have ever walked around that corner to help him. He probably thought less of her now. 'This is just great' Meyrin thought after a long drawn out sigh escaped her lips.

BACK TO THE PRESENT

The ArchAngel had launched and was now heading for the lunar base on the moon. Kira and Lacus still were not talking to each other, at least to what Meyrin could see. Meyrin was in the mess hall everyone else seemed to be rather busy with the ship so she was all alone again. But just as she was about to get up and get a re fill on her water Kira walked through the door. Meyrin just stayed seated and watched as he picked up a tray of food and walked over in her direction. To her surprise he sat right across from her. "You don't mind if I sit here do you?" He asked.

Meyrin shook her head, 'why can I never talk around him damn it just say something you dim witted baka.' Her mind screamed. "Is your hand feeling better?" She finally managed to ask.

At first Kira just looked at her with a confused look and then it dawned on him what she was talking about. "Oh yeah, just a little bruise, doesn't hurt any, so no worries." He smiled at her. She smiled back. It was mostly quiet the rest of their meal. They exchanged a few words, and talked about what they did before this war broke out. Meyrin was glad she talk so freely with Kira. He was always willing to listen to what she had to say even if it sounded completely idiotic. He would laugh occasionally and then tell her a story about some dumb thing that he did to make her feel better. A half hour turned into an hour then an hour turned into two hours. Time seemed to be flying, but all good things come to an end.

"Kira can I talk to you for a moment." A voice interrupted them, Kira turned to see Lacus standing in the door way.

He looked back at Meyrin and smiled, "It was great talking to you, hope we can do it again sometime." With that Kira got up dumped his tray and left Meyrin sitting at the table alone once again. 'What I wouldn't give to be yours.' Meyrin thought to herself as she watched his retreating form. Meyrin got up and dumped her tray and then walked out and headed back to her quarters.

On her way back she heard Lacus, "I'm so sorry Kira, I don't know why I said such things."

Then came Kira's voice, "No Lacus it's all my fault." Meyrin looked around the corner of another hall that joined with the main walkway. There was Kira and he had Lacus in his arms. Meyrin could feel her face flush and there was a feeling of pure jealousy in the pit of her stomach. She didn't stick around long enough to see Kira's and Lacus' lips meet in a passionate kiss, she didn't want to see that and she defiantly didn't want to think about it. Meyrin ran as fast as she could back to her room, 'all he will ever see me as is a friend. Who would want to give up Lacus Clyne if they had her?' she thought hopelessly as soon as she got back to her room.

AN: Way shorter then the first chapter I know but I plan on making the next chapter pretty long. I'm not sure if I want Meyrin to hook up with Kira before or after the last battle. I'm leaning more towards the after the battle and after Lacus becomes Chairwoman and Kira becomes a commander in the ZAFT army.

But if you think he should hook up with her before the battle just say so in the review and please state why.

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I will try to put the next chapter up by the end of this week but no promises.