Disclaimer; Well I guess this is unavoidable but ok I don't own Evangelion though I have watched it a lot I've recently got some reviews that have help me a lot with this story so thanks ( I'll say there names later.) Now on to the story.

The night came and went and it was now morning. today was different though it was not bright and such it was dark and gloomy. Shinji had been awake for about twenty minutes he sat there looking out the window. The weather outside matched Shinji's mood, today Shinji didn't feel good he felt awkward not sickly but gloomy and mad at himself again. The memories that Shinji had thought were silenced came back to him and tore at him like a knife. Shinji's mind raced but one thought came up to him what he did to Asuka when she was in a coma. His head slowly turned over to Asuka she had such a peaceful look on her face as she clutched Shinji's arm. Shinji's eyes widened as he looked at her and asked him self ' How could I do something like that to her.' Shinji thought as he began to feel himself shake. ' How could I ' Shinji kept thinking as he kept looking at Asuka's face ' She hates me ' Shinji thought as he looked at his hands that were trembling.

" I'm sorry I'm sorry please Asuka I'm sorry." Shinji repeated as he jumped up ad looked down at her. His mind once again went back to the hospital.

" No please I'm sorry." Shinji once again said as he ran out to the door. Asuka was wide awake and heard the ' sorrys' Shinji was saying as he looked down at her with eyes that tore at her.

" Shinji wait !" Asuka yelled but it was to late Shinji had already ran outside and was down the stairs. Asuka jumped up and only had time to put a coat on as she ran outside after Shinji. Shinji had not stopped running since he left he ran, tripped, and stumbled along as he kept on running. The thoughts kept hitting him.

" No stop." Shinji said as he rounded a bend. Shinji was planning on going only to one place the place where he used to go when he needed comfort, talked to people, or just to look at the view of the city. Now this place that had been left alone for so long seemed like the only place he could escape his thought prison.

Asuka was not sure which way to take one road left to Hikari's house and the other lead to she didn't know where. Asuka decided to go over to Hikari's house ' Maybe Shinji went there to talk to her' Asuka thought as she ran over to her house. Asuka was completely out of breath when she got to Hikari's house. She rang the door bell hurriedly a tired Hikari answered the door.

" Asuka what are you doing here it's to early." Hikari said as she looked at Asuka's worried face " Asuka what happened."

" Hikari did Shinji by chance come by this way." Asuka was finally able to say

" No he didn't Asuka what happened." Hikari asked in a worried voice.

" I don't know he just ran off this morning I don't know where he went. I tried to follow him but I lost him." Asuka said panickedly

" Asuka don't worry come inside we'll think this over." Hikari said as she let Asuka inside.

Shinji still was running up the hill to where he always used to go. He got up there it was raining hard and Shinji fell to the ground and clutched his head between his hands .

" No I'm sorry." Shinji said as his memories ravaged him.

" I'm sorry Asuka,Rei, Misato, Toji, Kensuke, Man...a." Shinji remembered the thoughts of her the first person he loved and she betrayed him she tricked him but even though she did his parting words were.

" I'll be waiting." That was the last he ever saw of her. Shinji had gone numb from the rain and fell back as he passed out from the cold.

" What happened to me I thought I was over this." Shinji called out in the dark space he found himself " Why did I do those things they all hate me I know it." Shinji said as he dropped to the floor.

" You know it's not true right." The same voice said as it turned into a figure.

" Yes it is I did it all it was my fault everything is my fault." Shinji said as he looked up at the figure that had turned into Asuka.

" Don't be such a baby." The figure said as it slapped him across the face. The figure then turned all black again and turned into Toji and punched him

" Sorry I had to release some of my own stress." It said as it then again turned dark " Is this what you want from them all you want them all to hate you."

" I don't care I hate myself I deserve it." Shinji yelled as he was once again beat down.

" You haven't noticed that you can't hate yourself it doesn't do anything." The figure said " You can't go fucking hating yourself the rest of your life." The figure said as it turned into Misato and slapped him. " Shinji stop it." The voice once again said as this time it turned into Mana and yes slapped him ( Damn our Shinji is taking a beat down.)

" Stop it..." Shinji said menacingly as he clenched his fist.

" What are you going to do about it you baby." The voice mocked as it went straight back to Asuka. Shinji grabbed the figure of Asuka by the neck and began choking it.

" DAMMIT STOP IT RIGHT NOW." Shinji said as he tightened his grip. The figure didn't fight back but simple stroked his cheek. Shinji let go and fell back.

" No not that please." Shinji said as he kept going back. The figure then turned into Shinji and crouched down and looked at him

" Then you stop it Shinji.. Shinji...Shinji." A voice kept going as Shinji finally came through and looked up . It was still raining and Shinji couldn't see very well but he made out a redhead but she had shorter hair.

" Asuka...I didn't ..know you cut your hair." Shinji said weakly as he tried to focus on what he thought was Asuka.

" hehe no Shinji-kun guess again." The girl said to Shinji. Shinji was in a site of confusion he kept trying to focus on her but he couldn't and if it wasn't Asuka then who was it.

" What Asuka don't kid like that." Shinji said as he kept looking at her.

" Hmm Shinji let me remind you of who I am." The woman said as she kissed Shinji " Now do you remember me." The person asked.

Shinji sat there looking at the odd person who was stroking his head. " No you can't be her." Shinji said as he kept looking up and thinking he knew who it might be.

" You kept your promise." The person said as she smiled at Shinji " You told me you'd wait and here you are out in the rain." The girl said as she kept looking at Shinji.

" I did..." Shinji said as he kept thinking. It hit him like a rock all the clues added up. " MANA," Shinji yelled as he jumped up but fell back down and began to back away.

" Shinji you remembered." Mana said as she jumped on Shinji and hugged him " I knew you would." She said as she squeezed him tighter.

Shinji was in a shocked moment he couldn't believe that Mana was here. He also didn't know what to feel he was already felling happy,mad,confused, and shocked because she was back. He did the only thing that he knew how to do he just let it pass. " When did you come back?" Shinji asked as he looked at Mana.

" I came back when I heard that NERV was destroyed and I heard you were hurt so I came back." Mana said as she unlatched herself from Shinji and looked back at him. " Shinji are you ok." Mana said as she looked at Shinji's hurt gaze.

" I just didn't expect to ever see you again." Shinji said as he looked away and looked at the view of the city.

" I didn't expect to see you here to Shinji I thought you forgot about me." Mana said as she looked away to.

" I can't forget about you... I never really could." Shinji said as he looked back at her. " Mana why did you really come back?" Shinji asked as his glance was made stern.

" Shinji I..I wanted to see you again I had to." Mana said as she scooted over closer to Shinji. " I wanted to start over again before it all happened." Mana said as she put her head on Shinji's Shoulder " I wanted to say sorry."

Shinji had nothing to say he just sat there thinking about those begon days. He loved her back then and she tricked him into taking her into NERV then when he tried to save her she went with somebody else and left him there. But Asuka was there even though she never showed it and she said horrid things about him she comforted him sometimes and helped him when Mana left.

" Shinji I never meant to hurt you. I really did mean everything I said I did love you." Mana whispered as she looked at Shinji's face he looked like he was about to cry he didn't say anything and just looked out into the city. Mana hugged Shinji again in a attempt to get him to talk.

" Mana ...I loved you to then. I just.." Shinji was about to speak more but he started to get up but was pulled down by Mana and she got on top of him so he wouldn't try and leave.

" Shinji don't leave...I need somebody by me right now." Mana said as she began to cry on Shinji's shirt

" Mana I... don't know what to do." Shinji said as he tried to get up.

" Shinji please just stay by me for a little bit please." Mana pleaded. ( You know I think this thing with Mana and Shinji has gone on undisturbed for long enough I think somebody should come by EVIL)

Asuka had been searching for Shinji for a long time and searched everywhere and was about to search there but over heard the two and hide behind a tree to see who it was. She kept a hard glance on the girl and was trying to make out who she was.

" She looks like...but no she can't be or.." Asuka tried to hear what they were talking about but did hear one word " Mana"

" Mana...no she..." Asuka was lost for words when she actually saw her face it was Mana. Asuka fell back when she heard what Shinji said

" Mana ...I loved you to then." Asuka didn't take time to listen to what Shinji was saying nor did she take in the noises she made. Asuka's eyes swelled up in tears and ran off. Shinji saw somebody moving but didn't know who.

" Mana...I'm sorry I... can only give you a friend. Asuka she was always there for me and I really can't." Shinji said as he looked at Mana she wasn't frowning she was smiling.

" Shinji that's all I need." Mana said as she wiped tears from her eyes.

Asuka kept running and crying until she got back to the apartment she swiped the card and ran inside.

" Hey Asuka where's...oh shit." Misato said as she ran after Asuka that had gone into Shinji's room.

" Asuka hey Asuka what happened." Misato asked as Asuka looked up at her . Asuka grabbed on to her sleeve and began to cry her heart out. Misato hugged Asuka and rocked softly as she tried to get the story out of Asuka. After about 20 mins she finally got it out and they sat on the table as she related the story.

Meanwhile

Shinji was walking back from where he dropped of Mana off. Shinji had his mind on one thing the person that was watching them and ran away he saw only one thing some red hair retreating away from them. He thought of many people that may have but his head kept going back to Asuka. Shinji was about to round the corner when Kensuke and Alena rounded the corner and pushed him up against the wall. Alena slapped Shinji hard against the face while Kensuke just produced a picture.

" Shinji don't forget she left you." Kensuke said as he shoved the picture in Shinji's hand and walked off. Shinji took a look at the photo it was the time he was at the Café with Asuka when they were sharing the ' lover special.'.

" Wait what's this supposed to mean." Shinji said as he began to run back to the apartment. Shinji was soon back at the apartment and busted inside he was greeted with nothing to nicely Asuka had a backpack on and was about to go outside she looked at Shinji with a hard stern glance that made Shinji look away. Asuka simply stared some more and walked out Misato was sitting at the table as she was waiting for him.

" Shinji I hear Mana's back." Misato said as she got up and went over to Shinji " Shinji I also hear that you found her today. Shinji I've heard Asuka's story and to tell the truth I think you didn't say what she heard I know you two love each other but I may be wrong. (sigh) Well Shinji she's over at Hikari's it's your move." Misato said as she left Shinji alone. But he needed no second telling he ran out the door and began to call Asuka.

" Pen-Pen when did this guardian thing get so complicated?"

" WARK war wark." ( Ah hell I don't know)

A/n; Well another chapter out so I'd like to thank these people Rahhel for helping me unwrap the story faster. Frost Eva for the good reviews that help me go on . So well yes Mana did make an appearance I just couldn't get her way from this story cause Asuka really didn't like it when she was around and always made fun of them so why not make this happen.

Good voice: Boy that was far to bad you shouldn't have.

Me; Where the hell have you been.

Good voice; Man you messed up there such a traffic jam in your brain it took me three months to get out man you have problems.

Me; ooohhh so thats why i haven't been thinking of anything good so well you got any ideas?

Good voice; well you can make him explain why he was with Mana

Me; Ok I'll give you that but I have a much better idea heheeheheh muhahaha

Good voice; Stop it .

Me; oh sorry hehehe