A/N this was just a random thing that i made up as i went along, the italics are charcter thoughts though there arnt many, it may be a bit slow i dont know really i didnt take this one to seriouse to be honest just um let me know what you all think.

Not this time

Sara flicks her eyes open quickly she scopes the room and can see Grissom sat next to her bed in an arm chair looking right at her.

"Are you alright, do you want me to get the nurse?"

"Nurse, what do you mean nurse why am I in hospital?"

"Do you not remember, you were in a car accident, they figured you fell asleep at the wheel as there was no other specific reason as to why you may have blacked out, the hospital rang me and I got here as soon as I could".

Sara realising that she's init now lowered her head a little in shame.

"Why did they call you?" she asked quietly.

"I'm not sure they said something about being speed dial number one so they figured I must be of some importance I suppose, but I'm glad they did I've been ringing you since you left the lab". he said calmly trying not to show too many nerves or emotion but failing as Sara notices his hands shaking slightly.

A doctor entered the room he had a chart in his hand and he was reading over the notes that were sprawled across the page, he made his way to the foot end of the bed and placed the chart in its holder and looked up to greet Sara and Grissom.

"Ah I'm glad to see your awake Ms Sidle do you know why you are here?"

"Apparent car accident" she stated stubbornly.

Pausing slightly the doctor continued.

"Yes well that is the basics of it, but I believe that you may have fallen asleep at the wheel, according to your supervisor here you were in the middle of working a triple shift and was sent home, and naturally your body couldn't take the strain you were putting on it so you became exhausted and fell asleep at the wheel."

Hearing this statement Grissom was automatically riddled with guilt.

If I didn't send her home she wouldn't be here now, I should have just let her carry on with what she was doing, she fought me and I got strict and now look where she is.

The doctor started to speak again.

"Well Ms Sidle it seems that you have only suffered small injuries including a mild concussion and a few scrapes and bruises but nothing that should keep you in here any longer, I would say that you're a very lucky woman, I think that in a few more hours you should be ready to be discharged I believe, so I will come and see you then and oh where are my manners my names Dr. Matthew Holloway".

Dr. Holloway shook Sara's hand and left the room momentarily leaving Grissom and Sara alone.

"Sara I'm really sorry"

"What are you talking about he said I'm fine or did I fall asleep again and miss the part when he told me I have a metal pole poking out of my abdomen" smiling at her own quirky joke she looked over at Grissom and saw hurt and sorrow in his eyes.

"Its my fault you're here if I had just let you stay at the lab and let you get on with what ever you were doing then you wouldn't be in this mess" taking a deep sigh, he put his hands on his knees and lowered his head so he was looking at his feet.

"Look Griss if I had stayed at the lab then I would have driven home several hours later, and you know what being the kind of person I am I would have still fallen asleep at the wheel, but it would have happened during rush hour causing a lot more fatalities not just to myself but to others. So you know if getting me to go home means giving me a minor concussion and a couple of scratches on the face rather than letting me stay at work and burn myself out and cause many deaths then you know what I'd let you concuss me more often".

She said in one long stretch gasping for air at the end of her seminar, but smiling proudly to herself for it.

"Well okay then but you know I couldn't let that beautiful face get scratched again I would never forgive my self".

Grissom looked up into Sara's eyes taking a deep breath he reached out his hand and wrapped it around Sara's protectively and showing her a small boyish smile she couldn't resist.

Taking in some breath quickly and looking back at Grissom she could see that there was something more than what a friend would say and feel for another friend in his eyes, she also noticed that his grip on her hand had gotten a little tighter.

"Wow um..okay" smiling greatly to herself and pursing her lips she looked at Grissom.

Grissom had turned in his seat to face her head on, he had shifted to the end of his seat and he was clasping her hand in both of his and one of his thumbs was caressing her wrist.

"You scared me…a lot I don't want to feel like that again"

Taping his feet in a nervous habit he was trying to say something and he couldn't get it out.

Sara sat patiently knowing she shouldn't rush him she looked deep into his eyes and could see he really needed to tell her, his hands were shaking again and he was taping his feet uncontrollably now.

"Hey Sara is everything alright" came a voice that was different from Grissom's causing some confusion to Sara but then realising that it was coming from the doorway.

"Hank um hi yeah I'm fine"

Grissom let go of Sara's hand and dropped his head slightly sitting back in his chair.

"Yeah you look it, you know from my experience I have noted that somebody sat in a hospital bed is not usually alright". Hank said as he entered the room and stood next to Grissom who was now also stood looking down at Sara.

A nurse entered the room and headed to where Sara was sat.

"Dr Holloway sends his apologies he has an emergency but he says that you are free to go as soon as you sign these papers".

"okay thank you" Sara said to the nurse with a warm smile.

"Um Sara I'll wait outside the room and give you a ride home if you like" Grissom said as he handed Sara her clothes in a bag the nurse put them in.

" Hey Sara I could give you a ride home I'm off duty now and I'm going the same way as you would to your house". Hank suggested motioning a nod towards Grissom.

"Well if that's what you want Sara I could just call you when you get home".

"Well my apartment is a little out of your way and if I remember correctly that you also worked a triple so I think you should just get some rest and I'll call you or something" she said completely forgetting that Grissom was trying to tell her something before Hank turned up.

"Well okay I'll see you tomorrow night then take care of your self and get some rest" Grissom said as he reluctantly left the hospital room.

I thought that she had finished with that Hank guy, according to Catherine she had, what does Catherine know any way.

With those last thoughts Grissom got in his car and drove home.

………………………………...

Hank had just pulled up out side of Sara's apartment and turned of the ignition.

Sara got out of the car and walked towards her apartment with Hank in toe, she got her key out put it in the door and turned around to Hank.

"Well thank you for the ride, I didn't want to ask Grissom he seemed so tired it was nice of you to offer"

"So that's Grissom is it" Hank shouted in her face " that's the guys name who you called out during sex you bitch".

Before Sara knew it she received a fist to the face, she fell to the floor clutching her nose as the blood seeped all over her clothes and her hands. Hank used Sara's key and shoved open the door picking her up by the hair and dragging her into her apartment and slamming the door shut behind him.

thanks for reading let me know what you think and let me no if i should continue or if its a pile of turd be harsh im tough. review please.