Chapter 5: Feeling Confused

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Slowly, Bridget made her way to Greta's house. She was confused and she hated herself. Why was I so stupid to let Eric continue to hug me? Why did I hug him back? I don't love Eric anymore…right? Hating herself even more, she trudged up Greta's doorstep and sat down on the top doorstep. Holding her face in a mad expression, she kicked of her flip-flops she was wearing as far as she could.

Her right flip-flop flew quite a distance; it landed on top of the tree in front of Greta's yard. Her left flip-flop didn't go very far. It only landed 2 meters down Greta's front porch. Sighing even more, Bridget looked at her bare feet. Wiggling her coral-painted toes, she wondered if Billy would ever understand that Eric and her hug wasn't intended in the first place. Looking up, she saw that Billy was approaching her.

Standing up and straightening herself up, she looked at Billy in a curious expression. Billy, who was still wearing the clothes he had worn when he saw Eric and Bee hug, had his hands in his pockets and was walking toward Bridget with his head looking at his feet.

When Billy arrived in front of Bridget, he looked up at Bridget. Taking a deep breath, he said "Bee, when we talked in the car, I thought you didn't love anyone but me. You led me on. But today I found out that you still have some love left in you that belongs to Eric. I'm sorry, but I think this relationship isn't going to work. Bye Bee."

Bridget, who didn't say anything, just looked up and watched Billy walk away. I guess this is over. I want to tell him that it was because of the soccer ball, but how can I explain about how Eric and I just hugged and stayed there? Oh, I am so stupid. But why am I not wanting to go run after Billy and beg for forgiveness? Why am I just sitting here, like nothing had happened? Why don't I feel the same depressed way when Eric dumped me? Why am I not feeling sad? Why don't I care? Bridget looked up at the sky. The sun was just setting. She was so confused.

Sighing, Bridget walked very slowly into Greta's house and went into her room. Jumping on the bed, she just laid there, wanting to start this day all over. Reaching over to her bed table, she checked her cell phone for any messages. Apparently, Bridget had 2 messages. She listened to the first message.

(BEEP: Hi Bee. This is Eric. We need to talk. Can you call me back ASAP? Thanks.) Bridget listened to the second message

(BEEP: Hello Bumblebee! This is Carmen speaking. You remember me? Your best friend? Haha, I just called because I missed you. Call me back! Love you lots, Bye!)

Bridget decided to call Carmen back first. "Hello?" Carmen answered.

"Hi Carma. How're things going?" Bridget asked

"Things are good. I'm planning my own wedding now!" Carmen exclaimed. Win proposed to Carmen about a month ago.

"Haha, how much are you going to charge to plan your own wedding?" Bridget joked. Carmen worked as a wedding planner.

"Very funny Bee. How are things going in Alabama?"

"Things are terrible."

"Why?"

"Okay, I was waiting in the soccer field for Billy because we were going on a lunch date. I saw Eric's team have practice, so I went up to him and we talked. Then this soccer ball flew and hit my leg so I went flying into Eric. He caught me, but didn't let go. I don't know what got into me Carma. I hugged him. We stayed there for a long time. Then Billy came and saw me and Eric hug."

"Oh no Bee."

"That's not even the worse part. Later, Billy came up to me and broke up with me"

"Bee, that's terrible! Do you want me to go fly to Alabama and try and get things better?"

"No thanks Carma. I'm going to Baja, Mexico tomorrow. I have to coach. I'll be back on Monday."

"Baja, Mexico? Cool!"

"I've got to go. Eric wants to talk."

"Ok. Be careful okay?"

"Okay. See you soon"

"Bye."

"Bye" Sighing, Bridget slowly dialed Eric's cellphone number. Waiting nervously for Eric to pick up, Bridget wondered why Eric wanted to talk to her. "Hello?" Eric said.

"Hi Eric. This is Bee. You wanted me to call you?" Bridget replied. She didn't understand this happy but strange feeling she always had when she heard Eric's deep, husky voice. She guessed it was because she was sad that Billy and her had broken up.

"Oh, hi Bee. Listen, I don't want to talk on the phone. Can you come down to the café near Greta's house?"

"Sure. I'll see you there in five minutes." Bee replied. Shutting of her cell-phone, she told Greta, who was knitting, that she was going to meet up with Eric. Running out of the house, she ran to the café. Once she arrived, she looked at her watch. She was three minutes early.

Bridget decided to go find a table. She opted to sit in a table that was beside a plant shielding her view of half the café. Looking down at her clothes, she noticed that she still was wearing her mini skirt and tube top. She laughed silently when she noticed that she was bare foot. She forgot to put on her flip flops in the rush and she wondered silently where her flip flops were. Oh I remember now. One was on top of Greta's tree and the other one was on her lawn. Oops.

Scanning the room for Eric, Bridget spotted him walking in the café. Her heart did back flips. Why do I always feel this feeling whenever I'm around Eric and never with Billy? I love Billy right? She wondered.

Eric, who spotted Bridget, walked up to her.

"Hey Bee." He greeted, giving her a crooked half smile.

Bridget smiled in reply. Eric sat down on the seat beside her. He then asked "Do you want to get something to eat?"

Bridget said in reply "No thanks. I'm not hungry. I think I'll just get some coke." Eric nodded while Bridget got up from her seat and went to get a coke.

Once back, Bridget sat down, sipped some of her coke, and then looked at Eric. Eric, using this action as a cue to continue, he said "Bee, the reason I wanted to talk to you was because I just wanted to say goodbye. I'm going to go from Texas to Vancouver, to Ontario then to Oregon for the soccer championships."

Bridget, who didn't know whether to act sad or happy, simply nodded her head. Eric was staring at her with intensity in his eyes. Bridget, who always felt weird when someone was staring at her, decided to stare back.

Grinning, Eric stopped looking at Bridget, got up and said, "I have to go."

Bridget chugged her coke and stood up as well. "I have to go too." She replied.

Bridget hoped that when walking out side of the café with Eric, he wouldn't notice her bare feet. Reaching the exit door of the café, Eric held the door open for Bridget. She walked past him. Eric caught up to Bridget, grinned and said "Nice shoes"

Bridget smiling sheepishly replied in a joking tone "You like them? They're the latest fashion."

Eric laughed. Their eyes locked. Without thinking, Bridget leaned in and kissed him on the lips. She meant to pull away, but he grabbed her gently by the chin and kissed her back. Happiness flooded through her like never before.

Adruptly, Eric got to his common sense and whispered in Bridget's ears, "We can't do this. I have a girlfriend remember?" Bridget remembered the alike scene in Hotel Hacienda.

She simply smiled at Eric and said "Good-bye". Walking away, she felt happy. Why am I feeling happy? I don't love Eric anymore! Why did I kiss him and embarrass myself? Why did he kiss me back then tell me it's not right? I am such a fool. Banging her forehead a couple of times with her palm, she arrived at Greta's house.

Bridget climbed up the tree and retrieved her right flip flop. She walked across the lawn to retrieve her left flip flop. Walking into the house, Bridget decided to pack her bags to go to Baja tomorrow. Bridget decided on bringing only one bag to Baja because she was only staying there for 2 days.

She packed her running shoes, 2 pairs of shorts, her Brown soccer jersey and a t-shirt. She decided to bring something stunning just incase she would go to Hotel Hacienda. Looking around in her belongings, she decided to bring her white halter dress. This halter dress was the one she wore for her graduation party and when Eric told her he loved her a long time ago.

Getting into bed with her mind whirling, Bridget wondered what was in store for her in Baja, Mexico.