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Chapter 6 Delusion

Kagome had been out for about 5 days, and everyone since then has been antsy. They wanted her awake! Sure her power had been drained, however, if she passed out it was never this long. Even with the worst of wounds, she would only be unconscious for about a day or two. What was going on? By now, everyone was freaking out a little, and Inuyasha…lets just say if he didn't quit acting like he was, Kagome wouldn't be the only group member to be unconscious. They couldn't believe how long she was sleeping, it was surreal to them in a way. Out of everyone to get hurt during battle, Kagome was usually the one who be the least hurt. During that point in time, they had forgotten just how fragile she was. Now that she was there, laying on the pallet looking oh so pale, it just washed over them all. They had finally realized that Kagome wasn't as strong as she let on; even the strong-willed can sometimes be broken. They just hoped that she would be broken for much longer, for her sake, and for Inuyasha's…

Kagome's Dream

The demon had just thrown Inuyasha against the tree. Kagome couldn't believe it, of course she still was acting distant toward Inuyasha, she hadn't completely let go of her resolve, this time she didn't have the strength to do so, the reason being that she didn't want to get hurt anymore. It was hard work, so very hard, but it was the only way. But no matter how hard it was, it was the only way; she just had to say away from him, for now anyways. Furthermore, she wasn't going to make him hate her anymore than he already did by showing her true feelings. So… she hid behind something else, her emotionless face. However this had been harder than she thought, and it wasn't because she had to fight to keep her emotions in check, it was because….it was like she didn't have any emotions to hide. Whenever someone said something funny she didn't laugh, and it wasn't because she didn't want people to hear her laugh, it was because she didn't feel like laughing. It could be the most hilarious thing in the world and she just wouldn't find it funny. Inuyasha would say something horribly mean, but she wouldn't feel anger; in all truthfulness she really wouldn't feel anything even remotely like anger. Then when she would be all by herself, all alone where no one could see her be herself anymore, in her own little bubble you could say, she would let herself go, let herself be free. She would cry and cry and then cry some more, never letting up until she had no more tears to cry. It's funny how you just think that you are done crying, then think of the situation and find out that you aren't nearly as done as you first thought. It turns out that that is true, you never truly run out of tears, you just run out of the will to cry. You become so tired of fighting, so tired of caring, that you become devoid of all emotion, like Kagome. And inevitably she would always have to clean herself up afterward so a certain hanyou wouldn't smell the salt. But Kagome had quickly learned that it wasn't easy being emotionless, because after feeling absolutely nothing when she was around people, once she was alone it was hard to let yourself just give in to the freedom; it was hard to just let go, even if everything would just come whooshing back! It was hard to try and not stop it for once. But when that happened, when she finally let it all go, she would laugh, cry, and do anything that her heart desired. Just be herself once more, if only for a short while. Sometimes it was two minutes, sometimes two hours; the moments would very upon occasion. She would be that way until she had to go back to her friends. When she would return she became as emotionless as Kikyo, after all she was just her copy. She know understood the dead miko a little bit better. Is this what she had to go through every day? But it couldn't nearly be as hard for her though, Kagome was the one who was actually trying to be emotionless, Kikyo did not have to try, she just was.

She thought her friends were suspicious that she would always go off alone, but right now she didn't care what they thought, she cared about what he thought. For right now, he was the only thing that mattered. He was the sole thing in her life that was staying the way he was. In her era, he brother was growing up, having met some girl. Her grandfather and mother were getting older. In this era Sango and Miroku were now more openly showing their feelings for one another, and Shippo was, well he was Shippo, but he was maturing a little bit, already having a few crushes. The only thing that had stayed the same in her life was Inuyasha. The same anger, the same annoyed look he gave her, the same tone of voice when he told her she couldn't go home, and yes, even the same old visits to Kikyo every once and a while. He was the statue that remained in her life.

He was her life.

An in that instant when Inuyasha collided with that tree and then failed to get up, her life had just been in more danger that she could ever remember. If he was gone then nothing else mattered; there was no one else who would be worth trying to impress, no one else who held her heart. She would not have anything to live for if he was gone. When she realized this something in her just snapped, and she became very angry. She couldn't stand the thought of whatever it was that had hurt him. This anger was not the kind of "Inuyasha sit!!" anger; this was more like the pits of hell anger. She couldn't remember a time where she had been so furious, except that snail incident, but that was beside the point. Then she thought about it; if she had been in Inuyasha's shoes, and she had just been thrown up against the tree, that demon would have been dead already. Inuyasha always protected her, so why wasn't she doing the same? It was now her turn to protect him. Decision made, she walked up in front of Inuyasha, in a shield-like manner and looked at the demon like it was the most disgusting thing she had ever seen. How dare it hurt her Inuyasha?! She couldn't just stand by and let him get away with it that is absolutely absurd! As her thoughts grew darker she began to feel warmer and warmer, like the temperature was rising in beat with her anger. Her gaze became darker and her sole attention was on that demon. Soon enough she was surrounded by a bright pink light, it bordered her outline, sort of in a way like she would fire a purity arrow. The arrow would be surrounded by pink, a clear sign of withholding power. Before she knew what was happening to her, or what she was actually doing, she had erected a barrier around herself and Inuyasha. She didn't remember anything that had happened after that. The next thing she saw was the demon lying dead before her. With renewed strength Kagome got up and ran to Inuyasha, her emotions immediately leaving her once again, as though she had felt nothing at all.

She shook him awake while calling his name. She was starting to get worried. Inuyasha would never stay out for this long, and with renewed fervor she shook him harder basically screaming his name like a holy mantra. When he had finally opened his eyes, much to her relief, although it had seemed like forever, his gaze had been slightly dazed as if his head and mind were somewhat addled; looking but not really seeing. He then shifted his eyes towards her and they widened slightly; as though he was just seeing her for the first time, just realizing that she was there; the far off look he had before was gone, now replaced with eyes that bore into her very soul. Kagome was taken aback by how much love she saw in his eyes. She swore her heart had stopped in that brief moment. But she quickly looked away, not allowing herself to see something that wasn't there; not hoping for something that was too good to wish for. Her face felt suddenly felt very hot, not the kind of purifying energy hot, but hot like "blushing" hot. She then became even more embarrassed realizing how school girl-ish she probably looked right then. She put her hands to her face and quickly schooled her features, not wanting to give anything away of course.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha whispered in the gentlest voice, this had Kagome caught of guard, she had never heard him speak like that before except that one time of where she her and the others had nearly died; her gaze snapped back to his. What happened next couldn't even be described as catching her off guard; instead what this did was make her heart stop, and then start erratically beating after she thought she had already died. It was as if she had been on auto-pilot, sitting by and watching as his lips pressed down against hers. The kiss was passionate, something she had never experienced before, even if it had been her first kiss. She did have to say, this was an awesome first kiss! Her lips trembled, her emotions getting a hold of her. He didn't seem to notice as he just kept kissing her. Which by the way, lasted a very long time, that is of course until they needed to breathe, but if they hadn't, they wouldn't have broken apart; each one wishing they could have stayed like that forever. It seemed like they were the only people in the world right then, no Naraku, no dead ex-girlfriends, no annoying kits or monks, only them. Kagome felt like her life was complete, all of her emotions rushed back into her at once; It was as if her broken heart had been fixed in that instant, and all that was needed had been his simple touch; funny how the one who breaks your heart is the only one capable of fixing it.

"Kikyo…" Kagome's heart stopped once more, however this time for a different reason; it was anything but good. Her eyes flew wide open when Inuyasha had murmured her name. And just like that, she broke again her heart shattered into an uncountable amount pieces; she just couldn't believe it. Her ears had to be deceiving her right? Kikyo and Kagome are similar names right?! They both started with a "K" and they both had an "o". Quickly deceiving herself she started to relax just thinking she had been mistaken, while a small part of her still nagged that he had actually said it. However, when he murmured her name once more, she had to face reality. And After all of that, her saving him and then the kiss and then…then…THIS! She couldn't help the tears that fell, her emotions as shattered as her heart. She pulled away from him and slapped him square across the face. Her eyes held no life to them anymore, all they held was sorrow and disbelief. Disbelief that he could be so stupid, so inconsiderate, so cruel; disbelief that any of this had happened, and that this was all just a horrible dream and she would wake up soon. However, she had been in this place before, this stage upon which a person firsts thinks bad things aren't real; denial was her only answer. And she just couldn't believe what had actually happened had in turn actually happened, but it was time to face the music, whether she wanted to or not. Her eyes became blurry once more, and her vision was obscured. She couldn't hide her tears, even if she wanted to, which right now she really couldn't sum up the strength to do so. She got up and did the only thing she could, she ran. Ran away from Inuyasha, ran away from the feudal era, ran away from her heart. All the while Inuyasha was yelling for her to come back; begging her to stay, while her heart was breaking with every word.

"Kikyo! Kikyo! Kikyo come back, wait!" he was still injured so he couldn't get up, all the while not understanding what he had done so wrong to make her run away, he was watching the woman of his dreams flee from him, yet he couldn't do anything to stop her. 'Kikyo'.

Her heart broke over and over again hearing him call for Kikyo. She couldn't take anymore she just couldn't. It was so incredibly stupid for her to believe in that split second that he might actually care for her. They say love makes you blind, but oh no, it makes you much worse than that. It makes you blind, deaf, stupid, insane and all of the above. You are lost in the sea of no return and by the time you find you're way out, the way out of a place that you are so unfamiliar with, it is already too late. You are too lost to be found now. And that is how Kagome felt, running in the darkness all alone because the love she felt for him had completely consumed her being. She had thought that maybe he had loved her in return, that maybe, just maybe she still had a chance; that her love would be unrequited for no longer. But no, it was because she was a copy, a duplicate, a replacement. She would never win his affections, his feelings, 'his love'. Tears were flowing freely from her eyes and she just continued to run, being stuck in a place between; Not moving forward, but not being able to go back either. She was eternally lost, in a place that she couldn't even describe; she just kept running, hoping for a way out, for a light to brighten up her darkness….a light that possibly would never come…

End of Kagome's Dream

Inuyasha couldn't take it anymore, he had been sitting by Kagome's side for the whole five days, except for the few minutes he had been kicked out by Kaede, 'Stupid old hag', only getting up to eat and drink and take care of "personal business" but he wasn't gone for more than fifteen minute intervals at a time. He knew he was driving everyone crazy, but he just couldn't find it in his heart to really care. They would come and say that he could take a break, that they would take over, but no, he wouldn't budge. It may sound selfish, but again he didn't care, he wanted to be the first one she saw when she woke up. He wanted to be the first one to hug her and never let her go. He was so tired, and worried, of waiting for her to get up. He just wanted to shake her, to just make her get up, but he knew he couldn't do that, no matter how much he wanted to. She would get up on her own time, and he would let her, even it meant making him suffer, if it would make her better, then he would do it. Another reason he wanted her to get up was because of the silence. He hated the silence, hated it so much that he would even be happy having the stupid kit for company. The silence made him to stupid things, like think about stupid things. About how his life had changed for the better because of Kagome, or of the way he would welcome her back to the world of consciousness. He would think about Kikyo and how things could have been different, and if they had been would he have really turned human. He thought of how he never really loved her and how she could never love him even if he had wanted her to. He hated the silence, it makes people think things that shouldn't be thought. And these past few days he had thought about a lot of stupid things. And I mean some pretty interesting things. He has already of thought of what he might name his and Kagome's pups if they ever have any. 'Man, I really do need to get out.' He was startled out of his reverie however when she bolted straight up out of a laying position.

"Gah!!!!!" He clutched at his heart and fell backwards. "Don't do tha-" He stopped when he quickly analyzed the situation.

She had screamed when she had awoken and was now panting heavily all the while holding her chest while tears spilled over her eyes. She was as pale as a ghost with sweat drenching her everywhere. 'It was a dream, a dream, a horrible, horrible dream' she kept repeating, but for some reason that didn't make her feel at all any better.

"Kagome! Are you okay? I'm so happy you're awake!" Inuyasha grabbed and hugged her fiercely. He was concerned but the feeling that was at head right now was relief. His Kagome was finally awake! Kagome stiffened and then immediately pushed him away, not even glancing at him. Inuyasha felt a pang of hurt that Kagome would push him away when all he was trying to do was comfort her. She had never pushed him away before, what had happened that had frightened her so? He didn't know why she had woken up abruptly like that, or why tears were streaming down her face, and that worried him to no end. Apparently she had had a bad dream or at least that is what he now concluded and he wanted to comfort her. All he wanted to do was gather her up and protect her from the world, but she wouldn't let him do that. His hands were itching to touch her, make sure that she was alive and well, however all he did was fist them and try not to look so hurt. Not to mention he couldn't blame her; he had been the biggest jerk in the world. He went to go apologize for how he had been acting, he didn't want her thinking that he was just treating her that way to just be doing it, he felt horrible about it enough as it was, but before he could say anything Sango and Miroku ran through the door having heard Inuyasha's outburst.

"Kagome!" Both of them yelled in Unison. Miroku stood by Inuyasha and put a comforting hand on his shoulder, knowing how worried the dog demon had been, while Sango rushed over to Kagome. She wrapped her arms around her, feeling insanely relieved that she was awake. Kagome felt comforted slightly by this action, silently thanking Sango for her much needed support. She willed her tears to stop flowing and they soon ceased considering she was getting good at that "holding in your emotions" thing. Her eyes were still a little puffy but that would go away soon enough. She still had on her cool façade, but Sango had made her feel a little bit better. Inuyasha noticed that she had hugged her back. He felt another wave of hurt hit him head on. Miroku didn't seem to be helping him much, even though he was trying. Miroku knew this, by the way Inuyasha was looking at Kagome, but he kept his hand where it was, he would offer comfort even if it was not helping, he would at least try. Inuyasha still also felt very guilty, he had done nothing but constantly yell at Kagome and in turn she had went and saved his life risking her own.

"What the heck did you think you were doing out there you stupid bitch?! You could've gotten yourself killed! What were you thinking?!" Inuyasha was standing up, his hands balled into fists. If she didn't want his comfort then fine, she wouldn't receive it! Besides, he dealt with anger much better anyway. Sango and Miroku gave Inuyasha sympathetic glances. While Kagome had been out for the five days Inuyasha had been able to tell Sango and Miroku why he had been treating Kagome the way that he was. He didn't want them thinking any less of him; he hadn't given them an explanation and he guessed that they had deserved one. He wouldn't have liked to have been out in the dark either. After he had told them everything, needless to say, they had still been a little bit peeved at him for doing his plan so harshly but they were a lot less angry than they were beforehand. The reason why they had given him sympathetic glances was that they both knew that while he was putting on a show now, that is all it was, a show. They could see right through him and knew that he was completely worried for Kagome's safety, even if he hides it, he does care a great deal for the little miko. They also worried about him as well, he hadn't eaten much in the past five days, and judging by the slight dark circles under his eyes, he hadn't slept very well either. They in all actuality didn't know who really to defend. Inuyasha was going a little off the handle, but Kagome had been slightly careless. So they looked at each other and nodded in silent agreement; if he was going to lecture her, then they weren't going to stop him. Why? Because they also some what felt that what Kagome did was out of the question. What if her energy hadn't flared up in time? Kagome would be de…they didn't even want to think about the consequences of her actions.

But their thoughts were cut short when Kagome just stood up and walked out of Kaede's hut with not one word to the hanyou are Miroku and Sango. And where was Shippo during all of this? Sango looked around quickly. Shouldn't he have pummeled Kagome the second she woke up? 'Oh…that's right; he is in the fields with Kaede.' Sango had a little scare there; she had forgotten that he went with Kaede.

"We're not done yet Kagome!" Kagome was playing with fire when she just up and left. 'How dare she ignore alpha mate like that?' Apparently dog demon beliefs differ from those of humans. The males are made to believe that they are the ones that are dominant in the relationship, while the females are submissive. The females should obey, and Inuyasha being half dog demon, certainly felt some of his dominant instincts kick in right now, know that his soon-to-be mate had not listened to him. He quickly wondered why they hadn't kicked in sooner. 'Is it because I have now dubbed her my mate?' He couldn't think of anything else so he just went with that and went back to silently fuming. 'She'll be sorry.' He growled, stealing his resolve and decided that he was going to follow her.

"That was odd, Inuyasha you're right, Kagome is being very different and I don't like it. Maybe I should talk to her." Sango was just about to get up when Inuyasha bolted out the door. 'Or not…' Sango sighed and sat back down; would Inuyasha help matters, or make them worse?

"I think he has already taken care of that my dearest Sango."

"Who's already taken care of what?" Shippo walked into the hut, he hadn't noticed that both Kagome and Inuyasha had already left, so when he looked upon where Kagome was suppose to be sleeping he kind of freaked out. Miroku noticed this look and quickly corrected him.

"Do not fear Shippo, Lady Kagome and Inuyasha have stepped out for a while." Shippo jumped around excitedly, his adoptive mother was finally awake!!!

"I'm going to go see Kagome." He had jumped up and was about to bound off, when he realized his efforts had been futile. 'Huh?' He looked up and found that Miroku was holding his tail. He started to get angry. "Hey, what's the big idea?! I wanna see Kagome!"

"Shippo, Inuyasha and Kagome need a little alone time right now, why don't you go color me a picture?" Sango interjected before Miroku could make a perverted comment about why Inuyasha and Kagome had needed to be alone. Its funny how when you are around a person for a long time, that you pick up their habits, and you know exactly what they are thinking and when. It can be a good thing; she glanced at Miroku, him smiling perversely… 'Or it can be a bad thing.' She said with a tick right above her eye, now was one of the times where she didn't want to know what he was thinking. Meanwhile Shippo was deep in thought.

'Why doesn't Inuyasha tell her how he feels? It's so obvious! We know Kagome loves him and he obviously loves her so what's the big deal? I mean how hard could it be? Just going up to someone and saying 'hey, I love you!' just four simple words, not that hard!' He glanced over to Miroku and Sango… 'They should tell each other how they feel too! I mean duh! It doesn't take a genius to figure out that Miroku basically only gropes Sango now, well, except for a few other girls, but he cares about Sango! They just don't make any sense, common' it's not that hard to do, geeze! They need to quite being stupid and just do something before I tell everyone for them!'

He was broken out of his thoughts however by a familiar slap and a thud, everyone had hereby dubbed it the "slap-and-thud", original no? What was the excuse this time? Ah, yes, Miroku had just so suddenly seen something on Sango's backside.

"It was a mosquito I swear!" Sango slapped him across the face.

"PERVERT!!!!" She soon stomped away and left a lecherously grinning Miroku.

"It's worth the pain I suffer." Shippo just rolled his eyes, 'Nope, grown-ups make no sense at all.'

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