*These Things I'll Never Say*

          Jack lay exhausted with Riddick's body covering her own.  Neither wanted to move, partially because they were just too damn tired to even try but also because being this close made the both of them feel so nice.  The entire night was a blur of nothing but sex and pillow talk; not that Jack was complaining, it was the most amazing thing Jack had ever experienced.  She'd never felt so special in all her life, even before when she and Riddick were together.  Maybe it was because of what had occurred in the past twenty-four hours, she didn't know or care for that matter.  All she knew was this was special; it was a different kind of intimacy she and Riddick had never shared before and the both of them were relishing it. 

          Jack slowly slid her hands over Riddick's stubbled scalp; she liked that feeling.  She liked being SO close to Riddick, it was quite enjoyable to say the least.  She wasn't quite sure which she enjoyed more though:  just holding each other or the sex.  It was pretty close either way though, the two had had sex three times already and Jack never wanted it to stop.  This last time they were still recouping from was utterly amazing to say the least, it was different than the other times.  It was definitely different, this last time was more gentle, more unhurried, more caring. . .it hadn't been sex it had been making love.  Woah, had she just thought that?  She had, that was scary.  Well, no not really. . .just because a person is making love does that mean that the person has to be in love?  Love, shit was that a scary word to Jack.  Did she love Riddick?  Why was she thinking about this right now?  Why couldn't she just enjoy the feeling of his entire body covering her own.  Jack almost wanted to laugh at that, Richard B. Riddick was laying on top of her in a complete state of relaxation.  He must have really trusted her either that or he was too tired to care.  She almost hoped it was that he trusted her.  Did Riddick love her?  Shit!  Why was she asking herself these questions?

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          Riddick felt at home here on top of Jack, his head perched on her breasts.  It was beautiful.  What they'd been doing all night had been beautiful.  She was beautiful.  He felt her hand brush over his scalp; he liked that.  He could live here on top of Jack, yes sir he sure could.  Riddick didn't want to move. . .ever.  Eventually he would but just not yet.  He loved all of this night and he would hold it in his mind forever.  Jack had finally let down her guard ENTIRELY.  That had been one of the most beautiful things of all.  The entire night she was tender and loving.  Wait. . .loving?  Was that a little much?  No, that's exactly what she had been, loving and they had made love.  Gentle, sweet, beautiful love.  Making love. . .did that mean they were in love?  Did he love Jack?  Did Jack love him?  Was he even capable of loving?  He didn't know.  Fuck all that question bullshit; it didn't matter right now.  All that mattered was he was here with Jack and they weren't fighting, they weren't doing anything but enjoying each other's presence.  He liked that.  They hadn't been like this since before Jack went into the service and he, well, got back to working.  While he and Jack were together he never killed, he got a job as a miner or some other bullshit job like that but when Jack went away he was offered a job he couldn't resist, what was in his instincts to do.  None of that mattered right now.  He wasn't thinking about that, he was thinking about how he and Jack hadn't been like this since before. . .even then though it was different.  He wasn't sure how but it seemed like something deeper ran between the two now.  It was beautiful, just like Jack.

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Jack kissed the top of Riddick's head and began to speak, "Riddick. . .you want to know something?"

Riddick lifted his head from her chest and looked her in the eyes, "What's that?"

"I think I want to lick your head."

THAT had caught him off guard, Riddick rolled off of Jack and onto his side.  "You want to do what?"

"Lick your head.  I like the feeling of your scalp; I want to lick it."  Jack smiled sheepishly.

"You're weird, Jack," Riddick laughed slightly and then got a mischievous look in his eye, "If you want to lick it then have at it."  he bent his head so Jack had easy access.

"You're kidding right?" Jack looked at him incrediously.

"No dead serious, just don't bite.  I don't want you getting to be a vampire."

"Oh yeah right!  I'm so sure Riddick!  Stop fucking with me." 

Jack went to slap Riddick's chest but he caught her hand and brought to his lips, kissing it softly.  "I'm serious, it'd kind of be a turn on."

"Fine!"  Jack smiled impishly.

          Riddick bent his head as Jack leaned over to him and slowly licked the top of his head.  That was weird, it felt nice though.  Maybe that wasn't such a good idea because now that Jack knew what it felt like she just might get an obsession for his head.  She began to laugh at that thought.

"What's so funny?"  Riddick smiled a goofy, lopsided grin.

"I don't know, it's just weird.  No one's ever let me lick their head before."

"You mean it's a normal thing for you to tell someone that you want to lick their head?  You know some people might get the wrong idea."   Riddick's statement was playful but also insinuated something else.

"NO!  Shut up!  You're stupid!"  Jack felt like a five year old.

"What are you three and a half?"  Riddick's laugh rumbled through the entire room.

"No!  If I was three and a half I wouldn't be able to do this."

          Jack crawled on top of Riddick, straddling his hips.  She smothered his lips with her own as she gyrated her hips.  Just as suddenly as she'd taken control of Riddick Jack jumped off him and ran out of the room.  This took Riddick by surprise but within a moment he was up chasing after her.  This was insane, they were acting like children but that was the beautiful part of this whole mess.  They didn't have to pretend to be hard or in control, they were home together and they didn't need to prove anything to each other. 

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          Riddick ran into the bathroom but didn't find her there.  He looked at himself in the mirror, he turned on the sink and slowly bent down splashing water over his face when suddenly he felt a hand on his ass.  He stood up straight and looked into the mirror where he found Jack in all of her nakedness smiling back at him.  She was beautiful and oh so confident of herself.  She was perfect.  He turned around to face her, without any notice he picked her up and threw her over his shoulder.

"What are you doing?"  Jack asked to Riddick's back.

"Going back to the bedroom, we don't have to get up for PT for another couple minutes and I know just how to spend those minutes."  Riddick smiled.

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          Jack smiled at first but then it occurred to her that he'd said 'we', 'we' as in they were doing stuff together, like the couple form of 'we'.  Was that how he'd meant it?  That was kind of scary.  Well that was what they were wasn't it?  A 'we'?  A couple?  They certainly weren't just fuck buddies; they shared much more than that.  Fuck all that, she didn't know what they were and she wasn't sure she cared right now.  Well, of course she did if she was thinking about it but none of it mattered at that moment.

Riddick threw Jack down onto the bed and crawled on top of her, smiling widely, "Know what I want to do?"

Jack settled beneath him, "What do you want to do?"

"Kiss you."  Riddick leaned down, mere centimeters from her lips.

"Just kiss?"  Jack asked in almost disappointment.

"Ah, but you don't know where."

Jack lifted herself so that her lips would touch Riddick's but he pulled back just before they'd made contact, "My ass?"

          Riddick sighed rolling off of Jack and onto his side again.  Jack laughed but then turned so that her head rested on his chest.  Jack looked up at Riddick with puppy dog eyes but he just adverted his attention to the wall.

"I was trying to be sexy."

Jack pouted, "Awww, I'm sowwy.  Let me make it up to you." 

          Jack rolled on top of Riddick straddling his hips once more, his hands coming to rest on her hips, but this time she had no intentions of getting up.  She kissed his chest softly and looked up at him, she wanted to say something but the words wouldn't form. . .she didn't know if they were real, if they were true.  She didn't know if he'd feel the same way. . .how he'd react.  Screw it, it wasn't that hard and did it really matter if she were sure it were true?  Jack sighed and brought her lips to Riddick's, she gave him a feather light kiss.

"Riddick. . ."Jack couldn't believe she was going to say this.              

Riddick was now focused intently and solely on Jack, "Yeah?"  He gave Jack's hips a gentle squeeze.

"I lo-"

BEEP BEEP BEEP.  BEEP BEEP BEEP. BEEP BEEP BEEP.

Jack jumped slightly at the sudden intrusion of sound.  Damn that fucking alarm clock.  Jack quickly rolled off of Riddick and slammed a hand down on the clock rendering its screeching and then turned ot look at Riddick.

Riddick held a curious gaze in his eyes, "What were you going to say?"

Jack sighed heavily. . ."Nothing, nevermind." 

          Before anything could be asked, Jack jumped out of bed and headed for the bathroom.  What had she been about to say?  Had she actually just been about to say those words she'd never said to anyone in her entire life?  Not even to her parents?  She'd never even said them to Riddick before.  Nobody had ever heard the words escape her lips and she had been on the verge of spilling everything to Riddick to utter the unthinkable.  Jack sighed heavily. . .

Sweet Riddick.  I'm sorry, now you'll probably never hear it.  Hear what I am sure I would have regretted saying.  Or would I have?  Would I have actually meant it?  All I had to do was say. . .no, I can't say it.  I wont say it.  Ever.

These things I'll never say.  

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          Author's Note:  Hi!  I am a happy camper right now.  I'm even happier to say that I wont be ending the story but I'm even more happy to say THANK YOU to all the reviewers.  I am sorry I had to get all crazy on yall but sometimes that happens.  So I am going to give thanks where it is due which is to many people. . .

deceptus- A beta reader, I've never thought of that and it's probably partially because I don't even really know what that is or what they'd do.  Where can I get one?  I've heard of using one but never actually decided to.  Will take it into consideration.  Thanks for the review.

Kelley-  Thanks and I appreciate the review.  It sounded fine to me.  It doesn't really matter what people say for all I care you could just write "good"  or "you suck" and I'd be happy.  Thanks a bunch though.

the_un4given-  If I told you who the traitor was I'd have to kill you.  mmwaahahaha!  Just kidding.  Who do you think it is?  Okay, okay. . .I'll give you a clue, whoever you think it is. . .you just might be right.  That's not a clue but that's all I'm saying.  Thanks for the review!

Saphrin-  You never let me down, you always review.  Thanks so much.  So yeah, like I said. . .I'm not telling.  Mr. X is Mr. X for the time being.  All in due time you will find out but until then I shall continue to torture you.  Its pay back for all the times you've left your readers hangin' in your stories.  HAHA!  Just kidding.  Hope we can write together, shake this place up.  LOL.

Brina-  No tetanus.  No shots.  Shots bad and if you talk about them that is reason enough to stop the story.  JUST KIDDING!  And yes I want blood from each and every one of you!  Just kidding again, I'm not a weirdo I swear it.  Seriously though, thanks for the review and I thought I was a disturbing person.  Just kidding.  Your review was very funny, I think if I would have only gotten one review and it would have been yours it might have been enough to make me continue writing. :O)  If that made sense.  Thanks.

Jenn- Thanks for the review.  I am glad that you are enjoying the story and I'm especially happy that it helps you take your mind off your problems because when I write this story that's how it makes me feel and it's nice to know that I can do the same for someone else.  (or something like that.  most of the things I say sound better in my head.  sorry if I confuse you.)  Thanks again.

magickal-  The beauty of this is that you will NEVER know who Mr. X is!  NEVER!!! AHAHAHAHA!  Just kidding, I will reveal him soon. . .very soon.  Maybe.  This is what I strive to accomplish.  You are the perfect example of why I write. . .to destroy sane people's mental state with suspense.  Just kidding.  Seriously want to know who Mr. X is?  Okay I'll tell you but you can't tell anyone else, promise?  Okay. . .Mr. X is. . .I DON'T KNOW!  Just kidding, of course I know but it'd ruin all my fun if I told you.  ahaha.  Thank you for the review and I sorry to torture you but as I've said it will be shown soon enough :O)

StvnsAngel-  For someone who didn't know what to write you did a very good job.  It was quite encouraging.  I appreciate the input.  I've tried hard to keep Jack and Riddick in their characters, at some points it got kind of difficult but I've enjoyed it.  As to the question of Riddick's side. . .who knows, it's one of those mysteries like "who is Mr. X".  All will be told in the forthcoming chapters.  It will all unfold to reveal who is who and what is where.  I don't know what I'm talking about but thank you for the review.  Also, I can almost assure you that as long as I get reviews-good or bad-I will continue this story until it's finished and who knows maybe there will be a sequal. . .only time will tell.  LOL.  Thanks again. 

Sailorleira-  Thank you so much for the email.  I think your review was one of the most encouraging of all.  I appreciate it SO much.  It made me smile REALLY, REALLY big.  As to your suggestion Saphrin and I are thinking about it.  Who knows maybe you'll see something in the near future. . .hehehe, who knows.  Also, if you can't always get onto Fanfiction.net you can just email me and I'll send you the chapter through email if that works for you.  I wouldn't want you freakin out cause you can't get into fanfiction.net.  hehe.  Thanks again.

          Okay, I've finished the thank yous.  So many people reviewed and I am so appreciative.  You've really brightened my days.  You guys have no clue how inspired and happy all of this made me.  I'll probably write another chapter in the next couple days.  I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I hope to write more for yall soon.  THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN!  Love, Peace and Chicken Grease! *~^~*DevilWithTheAngelWingsOn*~^~*