Author's Note: this chapter is Dark. This is the chapter where Padme is tortured and she attempts suicide.So if you can't handlesuch things please don't read it. You are officially warned.
As AlwaysI don't own SW. I just love it.

Chapter 4

Time went by and Padme was begging for someone to come. Anyone! She
had no contact with anyone for a month - no bath, nothing, but the
grating sound of a tray being shoved into her cell once a day. She
thought her mind would explode with the silence. Suddenly one day
she heard her door being unlocked. She was so happy to find it was
not Palpatine. She started to talk to the guard who came in but he
just stared at her. He roughly pushed a hard towel into her hand
and gruffly said, "Let's go."

"Where are we going?"

But only silence and stony face met her question. She looked at him
and saw there was no soft compassion anywhere in this guard, she
shut her mouth and followed. She was pleasantly surprised at where
he had taken her. It was a shower room. "You have 5 minutes to get
clean and you better do a good job. The master would not want you
to stink when he sees you."

"The emperor is coming today?" she asked shakily. The guard just
laughed and walked away.

She was alone again and so she started to peel her cloths off of
her. She would be so glad to feel clean again. She stepped into the
running water when she heard a noise from the room where she had
left her cloths. She looked around the corner and suddenly four big
burly men surrounded her. There was nowhere to go and the men
backed her into a corner. She screamed but they just laughed a
menacing scary laugh. Padme knew no one would help her.

She sat on the shower room floor bleeding and bruised. She washed
as best she could and then went to the now empty room to find she
had no cloths on the bench where they had been left. She sat there
in stunned silence and did not move even when the guard came into
the room. He shoved a new gown at her to cover herself and he led
her back to her cell. She sat there not moving or thinking until
she again heard the click of her cell being opened and in walked
Palpatine.

He looked at her and laughed. He knew what had happened to her and
he knew also that another piece of her had been broken. He grabbed
her by the arm and took her to another room. There he laid her on a
table and gave her an injection. This was to make her stay awake,
no matter what happened to her. He wanted her to know who was in
charge. Then he took her to another table that was warm when she
laid on it and he slowly turned up the heat. The pain was enhanced
by the fact that she was unable to pass out. Her brain was in sheer
panic before he stopped. She pleading, begging, screaming for him
to stop before turned off the machine. She could not move and so
she was carried to her cell where she waited with no food or water
for 2 days. After those 2 days the medicine wore off and she was
given water and some bread. She fell into a deep sleep.

She woke up after a days and she looked at herself in the mirror.
She was gaunt and her eyes had dark circles under them. She was
sorer from the rape than from the table. In fact it seemed to her
that the table left her with no lasting marks. She whipped around
when she heard the door to her cell clicking again. Palpatine again
came in this time with a tray of food. Meat and cheese was on this
tray but she did not want to eat it. She figured it was poisoned.

"Eat. You have no choice you must do what I say." Palpatine said
forcefully. He did take a bite of the food to show her though that
it was ok. She ate the food for she could not help herself. She was
satisfied after ward, but she was soon sorry she had eaten
anything. Palpatine took her again to the room and the same thing
happened to her again.

Days went by like this.

One day running into the next until all time was separated into
extreme pain, rapes, and then nothingness. Two years passed but
Padme did not know this. Sleep deprived her of saneness and torture
weakened her body into nothing but a shell.

One day Padme came across a sharp piece of glass on the floor of
the room. It had been used on another prisoner and got left behind.
It was small and she slipped it between her toes and held it there
until she got back to her cell. She collapsed on her bed and lay
there not moving. She lay there staring at the ceiling thinking
about her life. She wanted to go back to the time when her Ani was
a man and not a monster. He had loved her with all his heart. She
knew that and she had eagerly returned that love back to him. She
wanted to feel those lips on hers again, but that was not going to
happen. She knew he did not even know she was alive. She knew he
was alive though. Palpatine made sure she knew everything he had
done since becoming Vader. Well she knew he was never coming back
and she knew there was no hope for anyone finding her so she
decided to end it all. She took the piece of glass from her toes
and sliced her wrists. She watched as the blooded pooled around her
on the bed and then drip down on the floor. She started to feel
woozy and her head lulled back against the wall.

Palpatine came rushing in because alarms started to sound alerting
him that Padme was about to die. She did not know that he had
implanted a device in her the first night he had brought her to the
prison. The device would alert him, or the medical staff if he was
not there, that she was about to die. He picked her up and took her
to the med center where she was to recover. She knew she had not
died because the injection he had given her for her torture kept
her awake. She felt every stitch and knew all the things that were
done to save her. She hated him all the more for making her live.
He had no plans of letting her die so easily. He wanted to be the
one to kill her if he eventually wanted her dead.

She woke in the med center and she groaned as she looked and saw
him standing there. "Why can't you just let me die? Haven't you
done enough to me?"

"Perhaps, but only I say when you die. You were a very naughty girl
to try to take that from me."

"Take from you! What have you taken from me? EVERYTHING!" She
shouted at him and then she whispered, "Most of all my Anakin."

"Still love him do you? Well you know I am not the one who took him
from you. He did that of his own will. I am just the one who gets
to reap the benefit of that."

She sighed at that because she knew he was right. Her love had not
been enough for Anakin. He wanted more all the time.

"You gave him promises that you never kept." she spat out at
Palpatine. "He will never be who he wanted to be because you will
never allow him that power."

"Yes and yet he still faithfully follows me. How do you explain
that?"

She had no answer for that so she kept her mouth shut.

"You though I can turn into nothingness and you will never serve
me, will you? I could change everything for you. All I need from
you is a yes."

"I would do anything to get away from you," she replied.

"What if I could promise you the one thing you dearly want? Your
husband."

Padme was silent. She really wanted Anakin back. So badly in fact
that she could taste his kiss on her lips when she licked them.

"What would I have to do?"

"Pledge your loyalty to me."

She thought about it for a second and then she said she would do
it. Palpatine untied her from the table and she kneeled in front of
him, "I pledge to serve you Emperor Palpatine."

A sinister cackle was heard from him and suddenly a bolt of
lightening shocked Padme. She screamed in agony as she was forced
all the way to the floor. Before she passed out she heard him say,
"I got everything I ever wanted from you Padme. Now you are useless
to me."

Padme's world went black.