Shiinto no Saisuuheiki
Silent Weapon
By KillingMeTenderly
A dream is worth a lifetime
And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven,
That I'll ever be,
And I don't wanna go home right now.
And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight…
I don't want the world to see me,
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am…
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything seems like it's moving,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive…
I don't want the world to see me,
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am…
She was in front of him, just in arm reach. So close, so far. She had smiled for him. Not a fake smile, not a smile full of malice, but a real, happy smile. "Because we are friends…" Friends? When she has said it, part of his heart warmed and filled with warmth, but the other part of it cried in pain. Friends? Only this, nothing else… she still loved him, didn't she? Friends? Maybe that way he would be able to be near her. Maybe he would have his chance to hold her, while she is crying, for his brother's deeds someday. He would embrace her and whisper in her hair, that she is beautiful and, that he cares for her. Maybe that way she would never understand how genuine his words really are. Or maybe he wouldn't…
…He would never hold her…
…Never kiss her…
…Never make love to her…
… Never tell her how he feels…
…Never as long as forever…
…Eternity…
…This love of his…
…Was votive…
…But the most ironical thing was that…
…He did not care…
Awkward silence was hanging over the camp. Inuyasha still hadn't come back from his hunting and everybody, except Kagome and Sesshoumaru, that is, were too terrified to say anything. No perverted comments. No screams "Hentai!!!" No candy crises. Not even mewing, damn it!!!
This all was doing strange things to Kagome's nerves. Oh, how she wanted too shout, or jump, or do something! Alas, the last thin she needed was everybody looking at her strange for the rest of the day. She glanced at her companions.
Shippo was Oh- So- Bravely hiding beside Kirara. Miroku was fingering the beans on his left pal, as if ready to take them of any second. Sango was polishing her Hiraikoisu, with a mean gleam in her eyes. Kagome was eyeing everyone, not quite sure, that it was a good idea to ask the demon Lord to stay with them. Sesshoumaru, on the other hand was sitting cross- legged, with his back toward a tree, eyes closed and expression I- Do- Not- Care- What- You- Do- Just- Leave- Me- Alone.
OK, this was getting annoying. Kagome decided to talk to somebody, anybody! Walk! That was what she needed! She was going to ask them to come with her in the forest.
"Ummm, Sango?"- Once she knew she had the attention of the older girl she continued- "Do you want to come to a walk in the forest with me?"
The tajia looked at her strangely and nodded "no".
"Thanks, Kagome, but I think, that it's better to stay here and prepare Hiraikoisu for UNEXPECTED attack." – OK, now the miko knew that Sango wasn't very fond of Sesshoumaru.
"Miroku?"-she asked.
"Thank you Lady Kagome, but I'll decline. I will stay in the camp, to help Sango if there is any danger."- he smiled.
"I'm sorry, Mommy, but I'll stay and play with Kirara!"- Shippo happily said, before she even got the chance to ask him.
'Well, that leaves only Sesshoumaru.'- She thought- 'Why not ask him?'
She prepared for what was to come and after an intake of breath she said:
"What about you Lord Sesshoumaru? Do you wish to take a walk with me in the forest?"
Sesshoumaru was listening to Kagome's conversation. His instincts were screaming not to let her in the forest, when it was near dawn and this was youkais' hunting time. When everybody declined her offer, he nearly lost control. She was not to go in the forest alone! He would look forward to it!
Then the most unexpected thing in the history of the unexpected things happened. He heard her heart increase its pulse and her breath hitch. And then she asked him a question.
"What about you Lord Sesshoumaru? Do you wish to take a walk with me in the forest?"- her vice was like ringing bells. His name was sweet on her lips. Her request burning in his mind.
Sesshoumaru was not able to believe, that Kagome, his Kagome, had just asked him to accompany her to a walk.
He was almost sure, that she didn't really men it. She was just too kind to not ask him too. She may regret her offer, if he said yes, but Hell, this was one of a life time chance! If he said "No" now he would never be able to say "Yes". Ever.
"Ummm, Sesshoumaru? Did you…"- her voice cut his thoughts. He momentary understood, that he had just went to his own little world.
Without hesitating much more he cut her:
"Yes miko, I, Sesshoumaru will accompany you to your… walk."- He said without even changing his ice- tone.-"This Sesshoumaru was merely thinking."
He gracefully stood up and slowly turned toward her. There was strange look, on the young woman's face, so he said:
"Miko, do you now regret your earlier words?"- He asked monotone.
"Um? No, why should I? Come on lets go!"- She said cheerfully.
Suddenly Sango and Miroku started requesting to go with them for different reasons, non of them really meaning something. There was even "You can trip over a mushroom, that I forgot to pick" and "It's bunnies mating season!".
On the last Kagome couldn't help, but ask:
"So what if it's the… "Bunnies mating season?"
There was when Sango blushed and shut up. Miroku was smirking and Sesshoumaru decided to drop:
"Actually, the rabbit kind mate almost every month."
OK now Kagome really didn't want to know fro where he knew THAT!!!
After nearly a half hour of arguing Kagome was able to give few good points, why she was going to be fine. God, alone in a dark forest only with Sesshoumaru, known as the aristocratic assassin, that was on the way deeply in love with her, so he could try another things besides killing her was not that scary, was it? OK, that didn't get out the way Kagome wanted it, but still…
There was slightly uncomfortable silence between them. Kagome, known for her hatred for moments like this, desisted to say something.
"So Lord Sesshoumaru, I want to thank you again. If it wasn't for you I would already be dead."
Without looking at her Sesshoumaru replied:
"No need for thanking me. This Sesshoumaru did what he was supposed to do."
Kagome suddenly stopped and turned toward him.
"Lets sit here, OK?"- She said pointing toward a big tree. There wasn't even a second until the demon Lord understood what the tree as.
"Goushibonku."- He more said than asked.
"Um- hm!"- She smiled at him. It felt as if lightning had hit him. The only thing he was able to do was to follow he like a love- sick puppy and sit next to her. He than finally got the fact, that while she was near him his brain was not functioning properly.
"Sesshoumaru,"- she started-" you are pretty… old for human standards, are you not?"
" Hai, I, Sesshomaru am much older, than any ningen you have ever met. Why, may I ask you are interested in such a thing?"- He was puzzled, but he didn't let it show in his voice or face.
"Well"- she blushed pretty pink color- "I was just curios, what it's like to be immortal."
Sesshomaru looked her with intense glaze and Kagome thought that she saw in his golden eyes… sadness.
"Listen, miko, listen well, this Sesshoumaru has been living for too many years. Immortality, is nothing. To live forever means pain. To watch people you care for fade away is torment. Youkais are like the trees and humans are like flowers. Demons live slow and sad life. Ningen on the other hand live short, but happy love full of love. It like this: You are like a blue flower as I am like the Goshibonku. You are fragile and you are able to make a person like you. I am well known, but nobody cares for me if I, Sesshoumaru do not threaten them. I am here, I have been here for decades and I will stay here for many years. My mother once said to me, when I was young, that life without love is not life worth living.
Years late my father asked me if I have something to protect. I told him, that I do not need such a thing. Now I see how truly foolish I was. I thought, that I can stand alone against the world, but I learned, that everybody needs someone to feel connected to. Everybody need to protect somebody else."
Kagome looked at him. He was so right. He knew more things, than she thought possible. The miko than asked him a question.
"So, Sesshoumaru, what would you do if somebody gave you this chance: To live forever and conquest everything you want, or die tomorrow, but have a day, when the dream you wished the most will become reality, I only for mere hours?"- This she found a curios question.
The lord of the West looked at her strange and than for first time from the start of their conversation he turned away. His gaze was toward the new- shown stars. Just when Kagome thought, that he wouldn't answer he said still not finding her eyes wit his own:
"This Sesshoumaru would have chosen the second."
She looked him puzzled. This was very strange choice. He than looked again toward her and said:
" A dream is worth a lifetime, miko. Now go. It is getting dark."
"What about you/"- she asked.
"This, Sesshomaru will come later."
"OK, but, Sesshoumaru, please call me Kagome. Will you?"
He looked her strangely ad replayed:
"As you wish."
Just as she was about to turn she heart him say:
"Goodnight, Kagome…"
The miko turned to him and answered:
"Goodnight, Sesshoumaru."
With these words she leaded forward. The taiyoukai's breath hitched in his chest and his heart increased its rate. She wouldn't, would she?
He felt her soft lips touch the skin of his cheek, the warmth of her palms burning his chest, there she had put her arms.
She than stood up, her face pretty pink, turned hurriedly and ran toward the camp.
She didn't look back and she didn't saw Sesshoumaru's longing eyes burning the place in the trees where she had disappeared. She didn't saw as he put this fingers on his cheek, there her lips were, as if trying to keep the warmth she planted there for little longer. She didn't see as he cast his eyes up to the stars again. She didn't saw how his only palm clenched his haori, on over his heart. She didn't saw his lips moving. She didn't' heart his words:
"A dream does worth a lifetime…"
To be continued…
Hey guys how is it?
Sorry for not writing for two days, but I was kind of busy. So finally something happened
I want to thank everybody, that commented, I LOVE YOU!!! You make my day happy and give me what I need to write another chappy .
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