Shiinto no Saishuuheiki

Silent Weapon

By KillingMeTenderly

One desperate kiss

When I see her eyes,
Look into my eyes,
Then I realize that,
She could see inside my head.
So I close my eyes,
Thinking that I could hide,
Disassociate so I don't have to lose my head,
This situation leads to agitation.
Will she cut me off?
Will this be an amputation?

I don't know,
If I care,
Life's not fair.
Fighting all the time,
This is out of line,
She loves me not, loves me not…
Do you realize, I won't compromise,
She loves me not, loves me not…

But it's sad to say sometimes,
She says she loves me not.
But I hesitate,
To tell her I hate,
This relationship,
I want out today,
This is over…

I don't know ,
If I care,
Life's not fair,
Fighting all the time,
This is out of line,
She loves me not, loves me not…
Do you realize I won't compromise,
She loves me not…
Life's not fair…

Line for line, ryhme for ryhme,
Mad,
On the real, could you feel,
What I feel, what's the deal girl?

I don't know ,
If I care.
Life's not fair.
Fighting all the time,
This is out of line,
She loves me not, loves me not…
Do you realize I won't compromise.
She loves me not, loves me not…
Life's not fair,
Life's not fair,
Life's not fair,
Life's not fair,
She loves me not…
Loves me not…

These feelings… These smiles… These words….

Nothing lasts forever. Someday this world will come to an end. Someday her life will come to an end. And then, when I will lie alone in the darkness I will remember. Waiting for the memories to come to me.

Memories of blue flowers, of laughter and a blue- eyed angel. She will stay imprinted in me. In my mind. In my heart. In my… soul. Sad memories. Sweet memories. Memories of an love, that was not.

I will live with the pain, embracing the heart that is still bleeding. I will live with hope…

… Hope, that someday I will be grown enough. Strong enough to live with the past and so to become able to heal my torn soul. I know that someday I will be able to smile at the sad memories, at the memories that hurt me, transforming them into precious keepsakes, that will remind me of the purest feeling, that ever embraced my cold heart. Of the woman that made me believe…

… Believe in Love.

"Can I, please sit by you, Lord Sesshoumaru?"

Voice cut in his head. Tender, caring, bringing so much pain. He was sure, that she did not know what she had done, but his primal side was howling in pain. In youkai costumes, for a female to hit a male without a real reason was considered, that the same didn't want to have any contact with him.

Sesshoumaru knew, she didn't mean any of this. She wanted to be his "friend". Still her rejection was making his youki dance with pain and want. Want for her submission. Want for her. Desperate, selfish need.

The taiyoukai didn't answer, but moved a bit to the left, making place for her to sit. His back to the God- tree, legs crossed end eyes digging into some unseen point on the sky.

Kagome felt anger building in her. He was ignoring her! Again!!! The young woman was wondering, what the hell had she done, to deserve this kind of reaction. She really wanted to hit him over the head, but thinking twice she decided against it. In his sulking mood, the most probable outcome would be her losing the limb, that touched his almighty body in improper way…

OK, was it just her imagination, or was the last line just a bit… Miroku's style?

She groaned and sat, not too gracefully, mind you, next to the demon Lord. Shit, she was turning into a pervert. First Sango getting pregnant, second- Inuyasha and Kikyou having make- out session in the forest and now her thinking funny tings about Sesshomaru's gorgeous body.

Where the hell did THAT come from? Shit, Miroku was putting something in their food, she knew it. The worst thing was that deep into her mind a voice was asking her strange questions. Was his hair as silky as it looked? How would it feel to tingle her fingers in it? To slid her arms down his muscular chest, over his six- pack to…

She felt strange sensation in her lower half. The miko blushed. Kami, this was SO embarrassing!

In the same time Sesshoumaru was having difficulties on his own. First, when her scent sparkled with arousal he almost jumped in surprise. Long years training saved him from making fool of him self like that. Then Hell it's self decided to pay him a visit. As the sweet smell of her womanly secrets assaulted his sensitive nose he wished, for first time in his life to be ningen. Ningen that could not feel her want. His shaft twitched with a need, as a rush of blood found its way to the taiyoukai's groin.

Sesshoumaru wanted to groan. Suddenly her arousal died leaving on its place only embracement. On his opinion that was good, because even one more second of this torture and he would have jumped her, not caring if she wanted it or not. And that was NOT good. Last thing he wanted was her- hating him, because he raped her. He wouldn't bear to live with the guilt in his heart. With the hatred he would surely see every time she looked at him.

Sesshoumaru twitched a bit his tale and now the tip of it was hiding his obvious arousal. Kami, he didn't need her screaming bloody murderer of him, if seeing the tended white silk.

Uncomfortable silence found it's place between the two. Kagome was always the first to talk, so she tensed a bit before asking:

"Lord Sesshoumaru, have I done something to dishonor you, or said something improper?"

The taiyoukai didn't look at her, but answered:

"Yes, miko, you have."

'Well, that was cold?'- Kagome thought. Anger rose again. How dare he? She was the one trying to say "Sorry", wasn't she.

"Well, LORD Sesshoumaru,"- she said threw teethes- "May I ask, what I did?"

"No."- He coldly answered. The girl needed to go always and she needed to go away NOW. Or he was going to do something he would regret.

Kagome felt her blood boiling. That jerk!!! How dare he?

"Listen here, you pathetic excuse for a…"- before she could continue Sesshoumaru's voice cut her emotionlessly:

"Stop here, miko."- He said without even looking at her- "Go away."

The need for her was getting painful and his instincts were demanding to take her in every possible way. Body and soul.

Of course, Kagome not knowing for his inner- turmoil continued her ranting:

"Listen, you!!! I'm not your daughter and I'm not your servant. I'm not your mate also,"- at this point he all but wanted to throw her on the ground and take her again and again until she could no longer walk in strait line- "You don't own me!"

"Miko,"- he growled, claws digging in the bark of the tree-"leave now, until you still can. Go or I do not know, what I may do to you."

And one more time Kagome did stupidest thing she could do.

She stood. 'Kami, thank you!'- thought Sesshoumaru. Just as he was hoping for the girl to walk away, the woman broke his ideas for mental un- capabilities.

He saw as she potted and then she… straddled his lap.

Legs were on the sides of his hips, her groin firmly pressed to his now almost painful erection, her palms holding his face making him look at her. Sesshoumaru felt himself trembling with unworldly desire. He groaned, arching his head backwards, closing his eyes. His arm crushed her small frame to his larger body, uncaring of the armor.

Kagome's eyes widened. This wasn't what she thought was wrong. Now she was going to get it…

( Elsewhere )

"Pregnant!!!"- Screamed Sango to now fully awake Miroku- "Pregnant! And you, YOU are the only one responsible for this. You and your… THING!!!"

"Sango, Dearest, lets talk over this, please…"- Said the monk, trying to ignore the upcoming headache.

"Don't "dearest" me… You are not the one that is going to look like a melon in what? Tree months? How am I going to fight Naraku now?"

Miroku felt incredible anger from her words.

"You are NOT going to fight, Sango!"- He all, but commanded.

"And why so? Who are you to order me?"- She shouted.

"I"- he started- "am the father of your child. I am your future husband."

He looked at her confused eyes and took a hold of her arms.

"Sango, will you marry me? Will you give a birth to our child?"

The demon exterminator looked in his eyes finding no lie in them. No regret.

"Yes, Miroku!"- She shouted and hugged him.

"Sango, I love…"

"Are you two finished already? I'm hungry and I can't find Kagome anywhere."- Said Inuyasha, who was watching not too interestedly the exchange of words, between his best friends.

He gulped as he saw Sango and Miroku's dead glares. And Shippou's and… Kikyou's too? Shit, even Kirara was glaring at him.

It was time for our brave hanyou to run. To run fast. And most of all to run NOW!!!

The moment stilled and the demon Lord didn't show and thoughts to letting Kagome out of his steel grip. The miko tried to move to a little more comfortable position, but as she started to wriggle her hips, Sesshoumaru's grip tightened and he let another groan.

"Do… not… move…"- he managed to get out without growling. And then Kagome felt it. Under her groin all the way up to her stomach was pressed something hot and hard.

It couldn't be his…?

The realization hit… hard… over the head. It was! She stilled her every movement. Heck, she even stilled her breathing. She had managed to arouse him? But how?

He was so… huge. That thing was not going to fit in any woman. And it was not definitely going to fit in her! The thought made her blush. She and Sesshoumaru, doing… that. Heat pooled in her abdomen again.

"Do not…"- The demon Lord groaned, trying to ignore the thought of ridding her from that little skirt of hers and…

"Don't what?"- She asked somewhat curious.

"Do not think the thoughts you are thinking now."- His voice was rough and thick with desire.

"This Sesshoumaru do not care if you are thinking of the half- breed, just stop!"- He said hoping to make his voice cold.

"Why should I be thinking of him?"- She said anger flaring again.

"So… for whom… were you thinking…?"- He asked, trying to lead his mind away from desire.

She scrolled:

"That was a stupid question? Oh, I know! I have one too. In whose lap I'm sitting right now?"

He finally managed to look at her.

"In mine."- He answered wondering if the girl was becoming denser.

"Very good."- She said sarcastically- "Now try to answer you own question."

Sesshoumaru's heart skipped a beat.

"You were thinking for this Sesshoumaru, in that way?"- He asked.

"Well"- She said now really angry- "Is it that hard to believe that I could like you? Lust for you? Love you?"

Kagome wanted to blush and hide somewhere. Somewhere, that nobody would find her. Did she really say that one?

Those last words did it. His control slipped right through his hands. With a possessive growl he titled her head not- too- gently upwards by her hair and crushed his lips into her.

One kiss… One kiss of want… One kiss of desire…

…One desperate kiss…

…Of love…

To Be Continued…

I'm SO SORRY for not updating, but my luck decided to show me that the Gods hate me!!! I was thinking of updating the day after, but my internet screwed up. The next day I forgot to pay it. And on the third day… well lets say, that if a person that have been training freerun for five years tells you: "Do it, you are not going to fall!"- do not Listen to him/ her!!! Now I'll not be able to walk for few days and so on. I really want to say sorry for all the mistakes you have found in this chapter, but I still don't have a beta( Poor Deb swims in homework) and I'm not very good in finding my own errors.

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