Chapter 3

I thought that I held myself together pretty well until everyone left. It was only my sister and I in the kitchen now. I had tucked David to bed twenty minutes. My parents had went up to their room awhile ago saying that they were tired and my sister was staying the night seeing as Adam and Jeremy were both passed out in her old room. It was a weird feeling knowing that Jessica was a mother now.

As soon as I knew it was safe for me to open my mouth and not let out a panicked shriek I asked my sister what I was suppose to do.

"What you need to do is calm down and think of this as a good thing. You don't have to lie any longer and you don't have to force others to lie for you," she informed.

I plopped myself down at the counter were my sister was cutting a piece of cake left over from tonight's little party, "I never said that I was going to say anything about David to Conner, Jessica."

My sister raised an eyebrow.

I let out a defeated sigh, "Oh, would you take my side on this issue for once? Nothing good can come out from this. It would just upset Conner and David and it would send me to the insane asylum."

"You should have been sent there a long time ago," Jessica teased as she passed me a piece of cake.

I pushed it around my plate, but I really didn't eat anything. I felt that if I ingested something at that moment it would come right back up anyway. I had stayed away from the only place that I could call home for years and the second I come back I come home the last person I want to see…ever has decided to make an appearanceI had suffered for months with the knowledge that I had kept something so important from someone I had been so close too; I still had issues with that. I was so close to being bitter right now. What is the point of wasting years of your life keeping a secret when in a moment it all goes down the toilet?

"You know what you need to do?" my sister said with the air of wisdom.

I didn't roll my eyes at this one but I wanted to, "What do you think I should do?"

"I think that you should confront Conner and tell him what's going on. I think that you need to tell him about what is going on before anyone else does. He'll be a lot more forgiving if it comes from you then from someone else," my sister advised.

I finally gave up on the cake and let my head fall on the counter.

I was screwed. Mommy was screwed.

"Listen, for me this is all new. Usually I'm the one that screws up. Now you're the one who needs help. To know that I can say anything to help this situation is a nice feeling for me. I'm here for you," My sister came around and hugged me and I wanted to so much to just cry, but I didn't.

I poked her in the stomach," Are we still carrying around a little baby fat?"

"Oh, speaking from the person who gained ten pounds after she gave birth to her son," my sister retaliated.

I grinned, "Maybe I lost ten pounds after I gave birth, but I never gained weight. I'm perfect, remember?" I said with a smirk.

"Maybe, in your head you think that."

I choked out a laugh and tossed a piece of cake at my sister, which she quickly took no time at all in returning. By the time we were done throwing food, we were cracking up and for the moment I forgot why I had been so upset before. Jessica gladly fixed that problem.

"Conner is going to be home around six. Megan and Mrs. Sandborn aren't going to be around so you have a couple of hours to talk to him."

"Thanks, you must have spent a lot of time thinking about this huh?" I said trying to lighten the mood.

My sister glared, but couldn't hold it in for long, "You bet I did. You're the smart one."

After that we helped each other clean up and went on to bed. I had a long day in front of me, and I wasn't looking forward to any of it.