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Lily found that she couldn't sleep that night; all that was on her mind was James. Why did he have to say that? She even tried to drown him out of her thoughts by reading, but she managed to make connections between the characters in the book to either James, Shaun, or the situation.

Sleep finally did come for Lily, but not until 3:00 in the morning. And she was lucky that the next day was a Saturday so she would be able to sleep in.

However, Lily awoke the next morning at 8:00. Her mind still wasn't clear as to what she should do, it was all so confusing.

So, Lily did the only thing that made her feel better, she got up and quickly dressed in black spandex pants, red shorts to go over them, a blue tank top, black fleece jacket, and finally her running shoes.

Lily made her way down the corridors without running into anybody, which she was grateful for. Then Lily stepped outside and onto the pavement pathway that surrounded the castle.

Lily ran, full speed against the fierce wind. She felt her cheeks become pink at the cold temperature, but she didn't mind. This was exactly what she needed to clear her mind.

Lily went flying passed the lake, she had a rush of adrenaline that made her feel free of all her problems. It was just her and the pathway, no one else in the world to burden Lily with problems, no more problems of her own.

Lily was about ¾ of the way back to the front entrance when she felt a sudden pain in her stomach, her body was telling her to slow down, but she didn't want to. She just wanted to run, run away to some other place and escape.

When Lily had reached the front entrance, she decided to take a short break, allowing herself to rejuvenate after the hard run. She didn't like this though, now she was forced to think about the previous night again. She rested her head in her hands and allowed a small amount of water to release from her eyes. She really liked Shaun, but what about James? He was such an amazing friend.

"Lily, what are you doing out here?" Lily jumped at the sound of Jacqui Potter's voice.

"Nothing," Lily responded. She really didn't want to talk with anyone now.

"Were you crying?" Jacqui asked.

Lily wiped her eyes with her sleeve and replied, "No, it's just the wind, its making my eyes a little watery."

"What's bothering you?" the little girl asked.

Lily felt like responding with 'What the hell is this, the fucking inquisition?' but instead said, "Nothings wrong."

"I know you're not okay, I can tell."

"I'm fine," she snapped.

Jacqui didn't back down, "I won't leave until you tell me."

Lily groaned, this girl was definitely a Potter. "I'm fine, you should go back inside."

"Not until you tell me what's wrong."

Lily just sat there for a moment, maybe if she didn't say anything, the girl would leave her alone. Much to Lily's disappointment, the girl didn't budge. Jacqui just sat down next to her, waiting for Lily to talk.

Jacqui was just about to lose hope and go back inside when Lily spoke up, "I had a fight with James last night."

"Do you want to tell me about it?" Jacqui asked.

"He told me that he loves me."

Jacqui felt her heart beginning to speed up, "And what happened next?"

"I left the room. I really don't know what to do," Lily told her.

"Do you love him?"

"I'm with Shaun Dunstan."

"That's not answering the question," Jacqui's voice wasn't harsh or bitter when she said this; instead it was full of understanding and care.

Lily didn't say anything for a long while, she was just absorbed in her own thoughts.

"I can't choose between them," Lily confided. "I mean, I'm dating Shaun, and I really like him, but James is, well, James. He's such a good friend, and I don't want to lose what we have."

"I think you just need to do what you feel is right," Jacqui advised.

Lily smiled and then said, "It's not always easy, deciding that… They are both really sweet guys."

"Lily, don't let your brain choose, follow your heart on this one," Jacqui replied.

Lily looked over at the little girl, here Lily was, 17 years old and she was getting advice from an eleven year old. It didn't seem to be right, but it worked for Lily. She didn't want to confide in her friends, they all had their favorites between the two guys. But what Jacqui had said was genuine, it felt real and not from a bias opinion. Although Lily was positive that she wanted Lily to love her cousin back, but those words never came into the conversation.

With Jacqui's words in mind, Lily got up off of the ground, thanked the girl and went back inside.

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'Follow your heart, not your mind,' Lily repeated over and over again. She was sitting in the library, pretending to be reading a book.

After hours of struggling with herself, Lily got up from her seat in the library. She knew what her heart was telling her to do.

Author's Note 2: Chapter 11 is finished! Please review and tell me what you think! And remember, if you want me to add you to the list of people that I'm emailing for chapter updates, just let me know!