Last time: Paige found Chris and orbed him back to the manor. While she went for the girls, Leo orbed to the manor and healed Chris's injuries. Leo found out he's going to be a dad again!

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Chapter three of Lost in despair

Chris took the opportunity to orb out of the Manor, while Piper and the others were still distracted talking to Leo about Piper's pregnancy. He really, really didn't feel in the mood of being kicked out again.

"Chris!" yelled Piper when she saw him orbing. She turned to Leo.

"Leo you have to bring Chris, I…uh said some things to him that I didn't mean. Please go get him!" pleaded Piper desperate for forgiveness.

"But—"Leo started to protest but Piper cut him of. Your wish is my command, he thought.

"Go!" Phoebe, Paige, and Piper yelled.

Leo sighed and orbed to the bridge where he sensed Chris.

"Chris---"began Leo but Chris cut him.

"Tell Piper not to worry, I won't be bothering her anymore. I only came here to do one thing and one thing only. And that's to save Wyatt. You guys might not believe me but you haven't lived what I lived. The future, believe me is worse much worse than hell," cried out Chris, his voice had started loud but was reduced to barely a whisper.

Leo was shocked. Chris had always had perfect control over his emotions. "Chris I know it's not easy being here, away from your family with us. I know we haven't trusted you, but we just want to ensure Wyatt's safety," whispered Leo trying to find the right words to somehow comfort Chris, if there was anyway to do that. Leo couldn't help but feel guilty for all the things the family had said and done to Chris.

Chris stood up. "You….don't…know…anything," Chris growled angrily, the wind whipping against his face. His words were loud enough to now be heard through the wind.

Chris could feel it all inside of him. He was going to blow it. "First of all I don't have any family left. (Leo was about to interrupt, but Chris cut him of.)

Your precious Wyatt made sure of that. But you are right you, them, none of you have trusted me.

I have had to put up with your comments, with your accusations and you know what I'm tired.

I'm tired of fighting for a better future. Do you know why I came back? No you don't know. I came back to save not only Wyatt, but you, Piper, Phoebe, Paige and you know what?

I think I can I came to save myself too. You want to know why? Because I'm your son!" shouted Chris. Oh no. No!!!! Realizing what he had just said Chris orbed away, leaving a very confused and shocked Leo.

He said, he did, he said he was my son. Oh my god. What have we done? He was family and we treated him like hell. How could I have been so blind? He looks so much like Piper and he has my eyes.

I have to find him.

Chris couldn't believe what he had just told Leo. I have just ruined everything. They're going to hate me even more than they already do. He didn't know where to orb. Somewhere where they won't find me. He orbed to the garden. To Bianca and his place.

Chris remembered that day in the future when he had proposed to Bianca. Bianca, how I wish you were still here. How I wish you weren't dead. Why'd you have to leave me? Chris could feel the tears forming in the corner of his eyes.

"Haven't we been here before?" asked Bianca as she lay in the attic dying.

"Maybe we'll be here again," replied Chris tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Chris," whispered Leo shaking him out of his thoughts as he orbed into the garden.

"How did you find me?"

Leo shrugged and moved closer to Chris. "Why didn't you tell us?"

Chris shrugged. "It doesn't matter. You can't tell m-Piper, or any of them. You can't," ordered Chris desperately.

"But---"

"No they can't know. You weren't supposed to know. Don't make this harder, Leo, please," pleaded Chris.

Leo finally nodded. If this was what Chris wanted, then for now Leo would obey. He owed him that and so much more. "You said you lost your family because of Wyatt. Did he--?"

Chris looked straight at Leo. "Yes Leo he killed you, well not you but everyone else. He murdered his mom, his aunts, and his cousins. Happy now?" answered Chris grimly.

Leo stood there stunned. How could his precious son Wyatt grow up to become such a monstrosity? Where did we go wrong?

"Chris, I named you after your grandfather?" wondering and wishing to know so much about Chris.

Chris nodded. He figured it wouldn't hurt to answer that truthfully.

"What happened? What did I do to you? Why do you hate me?" asked Leo sadly, remembering the way Chris had always been around him. So tense and almost always fighting with him.

Chris hesitated for a moment. "You were never there for me." Chris stopped. "You were there for Wyatt, for mom, for half the world, but never for me. You missed my birthdays, yet you always had time for Wyatt," answered Chris painfully.

Leo couldn't believe he would really become that. "Chris give me a chance, I haven't done that yet. Let me fix things. Let me be your father," Leo pleaded desperately.

"I don't need a father anymore. You were gone when I needed you the most. I was alone, you were alive but you only cared about your pain. I suffered. I needed you," Chris whispered tears rolling down his cheeks. Then he orbed to P3.

Leo cried silently realizing how hurt his son was. All because of me. Me.

But I can fix things, I will make it up to him.