Hey again! Two in one week! I'm doing well! Don't expect the next one so quick though. It's not done yet. Anyway...I decided not to make you guys wait since I got so many cries and pleas of "Update!". To answer one review: No, Harry and Remus don't do a duet. I didn't think of it early enough and Remus singing alone was the original idea for the story. Hope you all enjoy it. This one is where the the title becomes clear. If it doesn't...say so in your review and I'll explain it at the beginning of the next chapter. This is the big show people. Credit for any and all songs mentioned will be given at the end of the chapter. As usual, all mistakes are mine and I don't own anyone.
Untitled - ch. 14
Remus walked out into the entrance way and found Hermione sitting alone at the bottom of the stairs. She barely looked at him as he sat down beside her.
"Hey," he said quietly as some students walked past them.
"Hey," she said, just as quietly.
"We were worried about you. One moment you were there, one moment you weren't. Everything alright?"
"Fine," she said, standing up and walking away.
"Hermione, wait!" he said, standing up. He went on when she didn't stop. "It's me then, isn't it?"
"What gave you that idea!?" she said angrily, spinning around to face him.
"What have I done?" he asked, walking towards her.
"What have you done? You know perfectly well what you've done Remus Lupin! Or should I say 'dad'?"
Remus froze. It felt like all of the air had been sucked out of his lungs and he had to remind himself to breathe. It was exactly what he was afraid of. She knew the truth...and she hated him for it.
"What did you say?"
"You heard me."
"What would you say something like that?" he asked, still hoping this was all some misunderstanding.
"It's the truth, isn't it? I heard you talking to Harry."
"How much did you hear?" he asked as he tried to stop his body from shaking.
"Enough..."
"Hermione," he finally got out but she cut him off.
"How long have you known?"
"Since your third year," he said quietly.
"That long! Were you ever going to tell me!?"
A tricky question indeed since the answer was no, then yes, then no again. Remus stared at the floor trying to figure out how to word this right.
"I was going to. But then everything happened and I decided not to." It was the truth. He just left out exactly why he decided not to.
"You thought I wouldn't want to know?"
"It wasn't that."
"What was it then?"
"You were happy. You had a good life and a good family and you were happy. I would've only messed that up."
"But I...I could've..."
"What?" Remus asked almost sarcastically. "Come and live with me? No you couldn't."
"Why not?" she said, close to tears. "Didn't you want me?
Remus sighed, his heart breaking for her. She honestly thought he didn't want her. He had to restrain himself from grabbing her into a really big hug.
"Hermione, that's not it at all. But I'm a werewolf, remember? It's the reason they took you from me in the first place. It was against the law for me to raise you alone. Besides, would you have wanted to leave the Grangers?"
"I don't know. I wasn't ever given the choice."
"And you wouldn't have had it then. Nothing would've changed except you would've known they weren't your parents."
"At least I'd have know the truth," she said bitterly.
"Would it have made you happier than you were?" Remus asked as Hermione stared at the floor. "Because I think it would have had the opposite effect."
"I just wish I had been told," she said finally.
"I know you do. But I did what I thought was best at the time."
"Best for who? Me or you?" she asked, snapping her head up to face him.
"Both," he said finally, with a deep sigh. "I had to let you go once, Hermione. I didn't think I could do it again."
Hermione stared down at something on the floor and they were both lost in silence for some time. When Hermione spoke again, she sounded very small.
"Was it hard?" she asked quietly.
"It was the hardest think I've ever had to do."
Hermione nodded as tears began to fall. She quietly wiped them away and cleared her throat.
"So did she die?" she asked, trying to sound strong.
"Who?" Remus asked, confused.
"My mother. You said you couldn't raise me alone. What happened to my mother?"
It was then that Remus realized she had not heard the entire conversation. He sighed. He really didn't want to explain all this now.
"Well...I..."
"Guys? Harry said, poking his head through the door. "Not to interrupt, but the show is starting."
"Okay," Remus said to Harry. Then he turned to Hermione. "This is better left for another conversation with more time. How about, after the show we sit down, just you and me, and talk. I told Harry we'd go get dinner in Hogsmeade after the show but we could do that tomorrow."
"No don't do that. It took us forever to get you two together for this, there is no way I'm going to let it end early," she said, smiling for the first time.
Just seeing her smile made Remus relax and smile back.
"Tomorrow then," he said as they started back towards the Great Hall. "We'll go to lunch. Okay?"
"Okay," she said quietly.
"Hermione," he called just as she was about to go in. "About me and Harry...Are you alright with it?"
"Of course. Why would I not be?"
"Well...I was just afraid that...well...with everything..."
"Remus, I think you and Harry are perfect for each other and you both deserve to be happy. Nothing's going to change that."
She smiled warmly at him, then went into the Great Hall. Remus took a deep breath and followed her.
They made their way quietly over to where Harry and Ron were sitting. Someone was already on stage, singing quite well, Remus thought.
"Well?" Harry whispered.
"Later," Remus whispered back.
Harry nodded and they went back to watching the show, waiting for their names to be called.
It didn't take very long. Apparently the students were not as excited about the show as Dumbledore as not many had signed up to perform. After the first performance, Remus figured the show might not be so bad after all.
Remus sighed. Again. Fifth sigh in the last ten minutes. The fourth person had just finished but he was ready to leave after the second. Finally they called Harry's name and Remus couldn't have been happier. Hopefully he and Harry were last and this assault on his hears would be over. He did have sensitive ears after all and he was about ready to start howling at the non-full moon. Harry walked up to the stage and smiled nervously.
"Hi," he said quietly, giving the audience a little wave. He cleared his throat and started again. "This is a song called 'Let it Be' by a muggle group called The Beatles."
He walked to the back and tapped the wall with his wand. The music started as soon as he got back to the microphone, which was also magical.
When he started, all Remus could do was stare. He knew Harry could sing, of course. Living with him for a while, he'd heard him singing some song or another quietly to himself. But it was nothing like this. Maybe he was bias, but when he turned to Ron and Hermione, they seemed to look the same as he.
When Harry was finished, the audience went crazy for him. It was the first time they'd really applauded since that first person. Remus was so in awe over Harry's performance, he almost missed his own name being called.
"Remus Lupin," Professor McGonagall called again.
Remus walked quickly up to the stage, passing Harry on his way.
"Great job," he said with a smile.
"Thanks," Harry said, smiling back. "Good luck."
Remus only nodded and continued on. Great job? he thought to himself That's all you could come up with? On the way up, he grabbed an empty chair, carrying it with him. He climbed up onto the stage and walked to the microphone, transfiguring the chair into a guitar on the way.
"Hello," he said into the microphone, sounding much more confident than he felt. "The song I'm going to do, I wrote a long time ago when my life wasn't going so well. I was kind of talked into this at the last minute and this was all I could think of to do." He picked up his guitar and began to play.
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've doneNo I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Remus got the same reaction as Harry. The audience cheered and clapped. All but three.
Harry and Ron sat in stunned silence while Hermione had tears running down her face. Remus hadn't looked at her the whole time. He didn't think he'd make it through if he did. He walked back to his seat, changing the guitar back int a chair on his way. He was trying very hard to keep the whole school from seeing the tears in his eyes.
Hermione was standing up when he reached them. They stared at each other for about five seconds before Hermione launched herself into his arms, squeezing him tight.
"I'm so sorry!"
"Why?" he asked, wrapping her arms around her. The audience, who was still cheering a little, had begun talk amongst themselves.
"Everything you've been through and I've been so mean to you..."
"Hermione," he said, cutting her off. "None of it is your fault. You hear me, none of it. It was something that happened. Now let's sit down, people are staring."
They pulled away and sat down in their seats as Dumbledore stood up.
"Thank you all for coming. This has been a most entertaining night that has ended much too soon."
"Not too soon for me," Ron whispered as Dumbledore went on...and on...and on.
"Shh," Hermione said as Harry and Remus tried to hold back snickers.
"And so," Dumbledore said, finally finishing. "I believe we are just in time for curfew for first, second and third years. Everyone else are welcome to stay for as long as you like. But do remember, we must have the Great Hall ready for breakfast in the morning. Goodnight!"
Everyone in the room began to stir. The first, second and third years were making their way back to their dormitories and everyone else grouping together all around the Hall. The older students trying to stay out as late as they could and everyone else trying to decide what to do next.
Harry, Remus, Ron and Hermione walked outside the front doors after making their way through the mass of students in the entrance way.
"So what now?" Ron asked, once they were outside.
"Well. I believe Harry and Remus have a dinner to get to," Hermione said.
"Well, we don't have to..." Remus started, but Hermione cut him off.
"Yes you do. Go have fun and we'll talk tomorrow."
"Okay," Remus said, nodding.
"So where are you going?" Ron asked.
"There's a new restaurant that just opened at the other end of Hogsmeade," Remus said. "So we're going to see what it's like."
"And we better get going of we're going to make our reservation," Harry said.
"Alright."
"What are you two gonna do?" Harry asked.
"Hermione wanted to go talk to a few people. Then we'll probably find something to eat," Ron said.
"Alright. We'll see you later then," Harry said.
"See you later," Ron said as they parted ways.
Hermione and Ron made their way back inside while Remus and Harry made their way to the gate so they could Apparate into Hogsmeade.
1)The song Harry sings Let It Be really is by The Beatles (duh). I don't own it. It was written by Paul McCartny. I found the lyrics on lyrics4all . net. (without the spaces) but I warn you, there are pop-ups with this site.
2)The song Remus sings is called Untitled by Simple Plan. Needless to say, Remus didn't actually write it and neither did I. Not sure who did but as far as I know all rights and stuff belong to Simple Plan.
I used this song because, to me, it's like it was written for Remus. He loses everyone close to him within 3 days and is left all alone. Ever since I've heard it I've felt like it spelled out his situation to the letter. So I formed a story around it. Okay...so I explained now instead of next chapter. Just wanted to let you know why and all that. Remember...reviews are love!
