He Who Calls
Chapter 24
Journal of Odd Della Robbia
Resolve
She's going to dump me soon. I can tell. Milo says he's going to convince the others to let her into the group so she'll know why I've been like this. I say let her dump me. I'm not important anymore. On Lyoko I always get devirtualized before I can help. I'm two inches away from being emo and if it weren't for Milo, Ulrich, and all the other Lyoko Warriors I would be by now. I wish I hadn't followed Kiwi into the scanner that day. I would have done a return to the past, but everyone would remember, and Milo would be sent back to Portugal with all his memories intact.
And, whatever sort of god there might be help me, I still don't know what I'm going to do. I love Sam, but I'm a wreck. An introvert. An almost-emo. Just two weeks ago I was able to find enough enthusiasm to rally the troops against Tamiya. I was able to laugh and joke and Sam was happy.
Poor Odd is odd. That's what they're whispering. Everyone's talking behind my back. Ulrich got all the Lyoko group into a chorus and they sang the insults back at the people. That was the only time I laughed in the past two weeks.
I've come to a conclusion. I'm going to be happy and joking again. Xana can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
Journal of Aelita Hopper
Resolve
I'm an idiot. I'm going to bring my average down to D if I keep this up. And I don't even care much anymore. I'm so stupid that I can't even perceive that being stupid is a bad thing. Everyone says Odd is a step away from going emo. Maybe we all are. Maybe we're going to end up a gang of idiots and introverts who cut themselves because they couldn't deal with the pressure. Maybe that's what I deserve for being such a damn idiot. Idiotic Aelita, they say behind my back. But the others aren't dumb.
No. I can't go down that path. We're all cracking under stress, but in different ways. Jeremy's determination reflects it, Odd's enthusiasm reflects it, Milo's stamina reflects it, Yumi's temper reflects it, Ulrich's concentration reflects it, and my intelligence reflects it.
No more.
I've come to a conclusion. I'm going to be clever again. Xana can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
Journal of Yumi Ishiyama
Resolve
I'm going to drive everyone off. They all hate that I'm yelling at them. They all want me to go jump in a lake with William. At least they couldn't hear me down there. The worst part is I want myself to go jump in a lake. I think I'm horrible. Ulrich comforts me. He tells me that they all still care about me. I think it's sweet that he says it, but I know I'm being terrible to everyone. Last week I erupted at Milo because he bumped into me in a hallway. I screamed things at him. And when I was done and seething, with a crowd looking at us, he just said, 'Sorry, Yumi, it won't happen again.' After I had just yelled curse words at him for thirty seconds straight. I don't know where he gets that patience.
I won't yell at an innocent person again. I'm better then that. They call me the Hag, now.
I've come to a conclusion. I'm going to be kind again. Xana can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
Journal of Jeremy Belpois
Resolve
No one thinks there's anything wrong with me. But Xana nearly broke my determination. Never again will that happen.
I've come to a conclusion. I will hunt Xana like never before. He can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
Journal of Ulrich Stern
Resolve
I can't play soccer. I can't fight. I can barely walk. The Blind Ulrich, they say. I'm sick of being a loser. Yumi shouldn't have to date someone like me. I hope if she dumps me she can find someone else. I hope she does dump me. I hope I can find a way to not be such a whatever it is I am. I want to help the others, but no one has really been able to do that except Milo.
Milo. He's the only thing, as far as I know, that's keeping Yumi, Odd, Aelita, and me from being emo. I owe it to him to make a fight out of this with Xana.
I've come to a conclusion. I'm going to be coordinated and concentrated again. Xana can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
Journal of Milo Salian
Resolve
Yumi, Ulrich, Odd, and Aelita are all close to being emo and I don't know how much longer I can help them. They don't seem to remember that I'm the one that cracked worst. I'm the one who couldn't take any of it and just had to collapse. I'm the one who has to sleep forty hours on weekends. I'm the jerk playing at being a good guy. Aelita always says I'm selfless and brave. She's keeping me from giving up. From just going to sleep forever. I want to. I really, really want to. They're calling me Break-Down Milo. Insane Salian. Other horrible things I haven't even heard. I'm sick of it and sick of Xana. It's his fault everyone is shattering. Everyone is miserable. And I'm near dead from exhaustion. Because I've been staying up late. I have to find Aelita's father. By my estimate I should be done by Christmas. And Christmas is in one week. I've also been working on Mini-Scans, small portable scanners that hook up to each other and a mainframe. I've made and tested one. It works. You have to sit in the Mini-Scan, but it works. With these, I can take everyone on the vacation they need and give Aelita her father back.
I've come to a conclusion. I'll stay awake and I'll keep everything together. Xana can attack all he wants. He can't break me.
William Dunbar
Last Data Entry
I know Xana can read this but I don't care. I found how he survived the first reboot of the supercomputer. By hiding in me. All throughout my life Xana has made me do things. He made me kill Eric and Samuel and he made me be his servant. He made me hate my friends and do horrible things in his name. But I found out. And I chased Xana out of me. He's going to kill me soon. I can never leave Lyoko. But I can send this, along with all my notes on Xanadores, Xana, and everything else I know to Milo Salian, the only person I know who could understand even me. I have also attached to him a note with my personal feelings. I will soon be dead. I will only ever be remembered as a murderer on the streets of Portugal and in a high school. It is no more then I deserve for letting Xana in me.
Milo and his friends, the friends I betrayed, can defeat Xana. And in their minds, maybe I shall be remembered as the double agent who turned spy against Xana.
I've come to a conclusion. I'll send this to Milo, and Xana will kill me. Xana can do with me what he likes. But there is one thing he cannot do. He can't break me.