AN: no, I'm not dead... I wanted to write something with angst and humour/fluff, dunno if I've achieved it or not...
Title/theme: USELESS
Genre: angst/fluff
Approx time line: after Phase 38 of GS
Summary: Perhaps that was the life he was meant to live. No matter how hard he tried to prove or redeem himself, he would always be useless.
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Useless.
That word stung like a slap on the cheek. It reminded him of all those moments in his childhood when he was told he was incompetent, that he would never amount to anything, that he was an idiot who couldn't do anything right.
As he watched helplessly when the fiery inferno engulfed everything he knew, he felt that word echo in the back of his mind again. Because he couldn't do anything for them. He could only stare and cry.
He wanted to feel useful, because nobody liked to feel useless. He wanted to prove that he could do something right in his life. And that was why he decided to enlist in the military.
But when he went out onto the battlefield, that word haunted him once more. While nobody uttered it in his presence anymore, his conscience would repeatedly berate him whenever he failed to do something he could have.
Time and time again, that awful feeling of helplessness overcame to him as his comrades died around him, and all he could do was watch, not being able to save them.
Maybe that was why he empathized with Kira. Because the boy reminded him of himself. But once again, he could not do anything for the boy, except to make him into a soldier like himself.
Perhaps that was the life he was meant to live. No matter how hard he tried to prove or redeem himself, he would always be useless.
The door swished open, and he could hear her frustrated grunts. He saw that she was trying to reach a box from a high shelf that was just out of her reach. She was about to find a chair to stand on when she heard him come in.
"Mwu!" she beckoned him over, "Can you help me please? I can't reach."
He laughed as he walked to her side. Kissing her cheek, he grinned, "Not tall enough eh?"
She pushed him away and huffed, "Well I'm sorry that I'm short. Now are you going to help me or not?"
"Of course," he answered as he did as she asked.
She took it from him and gave him a mischievous smile. "I guess having you around comes in handy once in a while."
He laughed at that and hugged her, causing her to drop the box in surprise.
Well, maybe he wasn't so useless after all.
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Word count: 400
AN: this idea's been in my head for a while, but I've been lazy to actually write it...
I'm pretty short, so I know how it feels not being able to reach (and people tease me about it too...). wish I had Mwu around to help me XD
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