Black and White
Gaara's Confession
Diclaimer: I own nothing
I dedicate this chapter to my Jumbo Bag of Cotton Balls
a/n: Please Pay attention to the song in this chapter. It's really important to the story
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Gaara would never love you back. That's the thought that forced me to give Deidara his second chance. I knew that he didn't deserve it but I gave him it anyway. When I returned to the room after the big fight in the hall Gaara was there. He turned his back to me and acted like I wasn't there. I couldn't blame him either. I ahd betrayed him when he neede me most. I would be surprised if he ever forgave me for that.
It had been a week since that say and Gaara still wouldn't talk to me, and really wanted to know what was up. he and Cassie hadn't talked since that day either and it looked like she had even gotten a new boyfriend. Did they have a fight or what?
Christmas break was just a day away and we had to decide if we were going to stay at the school suring it or go home. I decided to stay only because Deidara wanted me to. I was surprised to find out that Gaara had decided to stay also, along with Sasuke and a few others that I didn't know. I was sort of nervous to spend almost all of the break alone with Deidara. I was begging to get uncomfortable around him more and more often.
The day passed too quickly for my taste and then it was night time. That night I had a strange dream. It was a mix between the one where Gaara and I fall and the one where Deidara and I are in the meadow.
We're in the meadow and I see the figure through the mist. I drop Deidara's hand and step closer to the figure. I finally get close enough to see who it is but just as I try the ground spits open and the mysterious figure and I both fall through, leaving Deidara behind. While we fall I look over to find Gaara. He's asleep as usual and we're aproaching the ground fast. I call out to him and he still doesn't wake up, just like all the other times. But this time I get closer to him and grab his hand. I pull him closer to me and take both of his hands with both of mind.
Just before we hit the ground I close my eyes. I open then a second later and I'm back in the meadow, still holding both fo Gaara's hands. I look up into his beautifull light green eyes and see and the love that they hold. He leans forward and whispers something. I can't hear what he said because of the roaring noises in my head. He keeps leaning towards me untill our lips meet softly, magically and then...
And then I woke up. It was dawn and light flooded through the open window. I looked over toward Gaara's bed and saw him staring at me with the strangest expression. When he saw me looking back he got up and left the room. Dissapointed I sat up and got out of bed.
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Later that day I saw Deidara. He wanted me to go out with him. I made up an excuse about wanting to do my homework at the start of the break so I didn't have to worry about it later. He said he understood and that it was okay.
After thios incident I went to the room and got my guitar. I hadn't really been practicing since I ahd been in the hospital and I knew I needed to, lest I want to forget how to play.
I didn't have to think about what to play. A song had been burning on the tip of my tongue for a while now. While I strummed out the beginning chords Gaara walked into the room and sat down on his bed with a book. I ignored him and played the song.
All the boys
voices cracking
Oh, the moaning half-tones
Come summertime,
we're all the same age here
All the
tension and the terror
Thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
And I'm going straight to Hell
All the
possibility and promise just
Weighs on me so heavily
And I
Try, but I'm
not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist, and
I die
trying just to keep myself from kissing you
You take in
everything with
A certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
just keep me guessing, please...
Darling, all
of these awkward
Jumpstart, stalling conversations
Mean much
more to me than anything
And it comes
down to me and you, and
Whether we're supposed to or not, we
still will
We're so much better off...than them
All the
possibility and promise just
Weighs on me so heavily
And I
Try, but I'm
not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist, and
I die
trying just to keep myself from kissing you
You take in
everything with
A certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
just keep me guessing, please
A look, a
laugh, a smile
A second passes by and I regret it
Words just
aren't right...
Sometimes I
just can't explain
All the ways you devastate me
Always on my
mind
I...
Try,
but I'm not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist, and
I
die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
You take in
everything with
A certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
just keep me guessing
I try, but
I'm not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist, and
I die
trying just to keep myself from kissing you
You take in
everything with
A certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
just keep me guessing, please...
When I was finished Gaara looked at me and asked, "Where did you learn that song?" I smiled and said, "Oh, I just heard it around."
He looked slightly uncomfortable when he said the next sentence. "Sakura, I don't think you should date Deidara."
I wasn't as mad as I shouold have been. I was actually a little excited. "I mean he's no good for you." He continued. "He doesn't treat you like he should."
I was puzzled. Why was Gaara saying all of this? "Gaara," I said slowly, thoughtfully. "What do you mean by that?"
He seemed thrown off by my question. "Well," he said after a long pause, "You should be his only girl, not some side attraction." He said the last part with anger that reflected my own. How dare he!? "He doesn't do that Gaara. That was only once and he said she meant nothing to him. I trust him."
Gaara's face took on a bitter look as he said, "Then you're a fool. He still does it Sakura. Every day. Can't you see that?" I stood up and said, "Don't lie to me Gaara. I know him and he wouldn't do that. Why do you hate him so much?" By now I was screaming angrily. Gaara had stood as well and was facing me with a stoic expression.
"I hate him because he's a sorry excuse for a human and takes pleasure in tormenting me." The last part of this sonfused me. "What do you mean 'tormenting you'?" I asked him. He sighed and began.
"Deidara lived i the same place as I did when we were growing up. I was always troubled and violent because I had a bad childhood. My father abused me because my mother died giving birth to me and blamed me for it. The kind of shit that I went through changed me into an 'unstable' person, so said the doctors. One day while I was drugged up I ran into this guy in the street. The drugs made me think that it was my father so I just started to hit him. I almost killed him and I ever since Deidara hasn't let me live it down, or forget it for that matter."
He searched my face looking for some unknown emotion. I felt so sad for him! He was abused and then he was drugged and thought he was beating the cause to all of his problems. How could Deidara be so cruel? When Gaara say the expression on my face he relaxed slightly and said, "So?" He sounded nevous.
"Oh Gaara!" I cried and hugged him tightly. "I'm so sorry! I didn't have a clue!" I let go of him and wiped away a few tears. He relaxed even more and smiled slightly. "Oh, of course I'll break up with Deidara. I was planning to anyways. He's a bit too pushy." I smiled and hugged Gaara again.
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I found Deidara in his room listening to the radio. I walked in and said, "Deidara, I need to talk to you." He looked up and said, "Good, because I need to talk to you too, yeah." I sat down and said, "It's been really fun and all but, well, I don't think you're the one for me." I looked atb his face and saw relief. "Oh good!" he said. "I saw scared to break up with you because it mught have hurt you. I'm glad it's over."
I smiled and got up and walked out of the room. I was glad that it had been so easy.
While I walked down the hall Sasuke came up to me and said, "So Sakura, now that you're single again I was wondering if you would like to go put sometime?" I stopped in my tracks and thought this over. He was right. I was single and could do whatever I wanted. I accepted his invitation and told him I would let him know when I wanted to go.
I skipped into the room and saw Gaara was still there. He looked at me and cocked an eyebrow. "Why're you so happy?" He asked.
Should I tell him? It was Sasuke after all. I decided to tell and said, "I broke up with Deidara and Sasuke asked me out on a date and I said yes." I said the last part really fast so that maybe he wouldn't vatch it, but alas I'm not that lucky.
"You did what?" Hr roared. "Um," I said in a weak voice, "I said yes." He flew up to me and said, "You can't go out with Sasuke!" he said in a thretening voice.
"Why not?" I said in a would be defiant tone had I not been intimidated by Gaara.
"Because yo belong to me!" He shouted.
I what? Was I hearing correctly? Did he really just say that? Yes, I think he did.
I stared at Gaara with a shcocked expression. He looked at me with firm determination. "What do you mean?" I finally asked.
"I mean," he began, "That you are mine. Ever since the first day you came her I could tell you were different. You didn't fear me and you didn't hate me. You were so bold and daring, taking my hand that day we went to that little clearing the first time. I was so happy that someone wasn't scared to ebven get close to me that I let you keep hold of me all day, just so I could savor the feel of another person. When Cassie came and you started to drift from me I finally realized just how much I loved you. You are mine and you always will be. I love you Sakura and I always have. It killed me when you were with Deidara. I was so jelous of him that I could barely stand it, and that night you almost died almost killed me also. You are the most wonderfull, beautifull, perfect girl I have ever met and I want you to want me the way I want you because I am truely in love with you."
All I could do was stare. He really loved me? But that was impossible right? I mean dreams never come true. I shook my head and blinked to make sure I really wasn't dreaming. When Gaara was still there I smiled. Maybe it was true. Maybe he did love me.
Gaara looked at me with expectation. He was waiting for my answer. All I said in response to his deep confession was, "I love you too." He smiled then, an actuall full fledged smile, and it made him look wonderfull. I laughed and stood on my tiptoes and kissed him softly. He reponded and deepened the kiss. When we pulled apart he looked deeply in mt eyes and said, "I truly do love you Sakura, and nothing will ever change that."
I smiled and said, "And I love you Gaara, and I always will." He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me close to his chest.
"I guess dreams really do come true, no matter how crazy they are." I laughed and Gaara did too.
And so the two outcast found each other and ended all of the lonlyness and hatred in their hearts, and here in Gaara's arms I felt completely safe and loved. I felt like I had been completed and it was amazing. It was astounding that two people alike in so manny ways, and yet still as different as black and white could find each other and know that they were the person that they had unknowingly been seeking all of their lifes.
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Okay so the end. Did you like it? I did. Did you pay attention to the song? Well again this dedicated to my Jumbo Bag of Botton Balls and also I'm starting another story so look out for it. r&r for me. Thanks.